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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 363263)

This is TOTALLY how I feel about school right now.

http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mc...25jio1_500.gif

*le fangirlish gasp* Whisper of the heart gif!!!! 8D
I feel the same though >__> So much crap to do, never enough time to do it it seems. :P Bleh, the things we do to learn.

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 363223)

...my parents are yelling about how mum's work is awful and she should quit... my dad doesn't work. i don't even know if we would have enough money to pay bills and everything... i'm scared.

Look, hon...it's not your job to worry about money. <:^J The adults can and will take care of that. You're still just a kid. There's no point for you to worry about money, because you can't get a job, and, besides, it's your parents job to take care of that, not you. (I have this problem all the time, trust me. x_x) I know it's hard not to worry, but you just have to tell yourself that your parents will handle it and everything is going to be okay in the long run.

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Originally Posted by otaku (Post 363264)

*le fangirlish gasp* Whisper of the heart gif!!!! 8D
I feel the same though >__> So much crap to do, never enough time to do it it seems. :P Bleh, the things we do to learn.

o.o I was wondering what that GIF was from...is that a movie or something? :D *le wants to watch it purely to see that scene in the GIF* XD

x_x Exactly. And, plus, I'm horribly ill at the moment, and all I want to do is SLEEP, but I can't since I'm behind.

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 363266)

it's an EPYK Studio Ghibli movie. It's a prequel to The Cat Returns. the movie is really good, and inspiring, and the soundtrack is amazing :D
I'm fairly on target thankfully, unlike last year when I was horribly behind, but it seems that I have so much to do, and so little time. And having to turn in work samples by a certain date each month frazzles me so much. And the science fair (virtual :P) is coming up, so my mom is trying to covertly get me to do that when I have no interest what so ever :P
I'm so sorry that you're sick, that makes everything so much worse. Ugh.

i'm crying on the inside. and now on the outside. but you can't see me.

Why does everyone hate me?

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 363340)

i'm crying on the inside. and now on the outside. but you can't see me.

I can see you!!! Please don't cry. ;w;

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Originally Posted by wildwolf (Post 363348)

Why does everyone hate me?

No one hates you, Camille! :( We luff you on here, and the kids at school are just frustrated with themselves and their own lives, and take it out on others.

*hugs everybody*
http://media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m39zf1KJ5G1qg8thq.gif

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Originally Posted by wildwolf (Post 363348)

Why does everyone hate me?

Some strong swearing.

I hope you realize how intellectually inferior those fuckfaces are compared to you.

Guh. I really hate myself. All the time. Every day. I'm just such a BITCH and I want all this attention and shit even if I have it already and I blow up at my parents when all they've done is help me and I don't know who I am anymore, I don't know who to be. One part of me says, 'well fuck 'em all, you're amazing' and one part says 'how could you do that? how could you be so cruel? what have you done with the old heather--or is this how you've been all along but just more subtle and i haven't noticed what a horrible person you are untli now?' and the last part is completely neutral and just says, 'i'll sit back and watch and i don't care because nothing matters, don't you remember you're just a meaningless piece of shit and in a million years no one will remember you so why bother trying to be remembered NOW at all?' So I'm just... I don't know what to do. I'm turning up the Glee and pretending to be fine in the meantime. Therapy sounds really good right now and that's kind of a low point for me because... I've just never really felt like it's right for me so I've gotta be desperate if I want a therapist, something I've never wanted before because it just wasn't worth troubling anyone over. It's different now. Something's changed and everything's the same. It's the same old story but coming back worse each time and one of these day I know I'm just going to completely fall apart, curse out my parents and give my teachers the finger and not care if anyone sees because I don't matter. And sass my classmates--friends and enemies alike, they'll all be the same to me--because that will be my daytime act, a routine. When I'm home the tears will fall and my legs will bruise under my own knuckles and I'll scratch my chest and back until they almost bleed, but not quite, and I'll sing to myself and do my homework and it's all so NORMAL, but it's not there yet. I don't know why the depression's back but suddenly I just HATE myself and I want to lash out at everything for the sole reason that I can't reach inside and tear myself up from the inside out. I'm just a mean, cruel, terrible person and I don't know if it's always been that way, if I can change, if, if, if anything, I don't know. It's that hopeless feeling again just like from this summer and that went away so I hope, I hope, I hope this will too, I can't have this on top of everything else because it's too much. I can't take it.