The Writer's Block - Your emotional venting thread. I'll explain.

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Originally Posted by JoMarch (Post 555904)

yeah. this is hard. kind of knew it would be but
seems like the only time I try to cean up my life is when I relapse into self-harm

so i hate doing this but I think it will help unfortunately. I'm staying completely away from kp and the Internet in general for as long as I can
I posted on the goodbye thread; I think I went into more detail there idk

I love you guys, you are all amazing and beautiful and deserve to live (:
if u want to talk to me u can email me or I will sometimes still check Instagram if u want to message me there

okay. goodbye.

Ellie nooooo ;~;
self harm doesn't help in any way and though it's killing me that you're leaving if it's for the best i respect that and i hope you're going to be okay and maybe visit us sometime in the future <33
i'll definitely email you okay stay safe and try to be as happy as you can <333

its only been a week and my parents found out
now it's gonna be even more difficult
i sometimes wish they didn't care about me so much so that i wouldn't hurt them so much
i don't want to eat. I don't want to eat. I'm gaining weight I don't want to eat I don't deserve it.

Everywhere I go there's racism staring in my face.
Every time I cross this street, somebody would almost run into us and glare and stick a finger at us.
I wait for the day people'll stop treating others like this.
I know I'm Chinese, I know I'm Asian, but remarks and actions like that make me feel much lower than I am.
Isn't the US free? But why is crossing a street so hard, the same street, when a lady lets another person pass and smiles at them but glares and starts the car whenever we start walking right behind the person?

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 555518)

white under bc i know some ppl hate talk abt veganism also food tw and weight tw!! its mostly all happy stuff though!! :D

okay so im still transitioning from vegetarian to vegan but i still feel great! i finished watching earthlings today and although i am angry that animals are treated that way, i am also now inspired to help animals and the environment more. i know that being vegan is worth it and even though i am just one person, it will help bc a little bit can actually be a lot (: i am super excited. also getting into veganism has improved my relationship with food a lot!! i used to feel at least a little bit of guilt when i ate food but now i don't have that problem as much. :D

also i have such a hard time gaining weight, but i'm slowly but surely doing it!! in the beginning of the year my weight fluctuated between 89 lbs - 92 lbs and now my weight fluctuates from 96 lbs - almost 98 lbs!! its not that much of a difference i guess but my goal is to get 100 lbs by the end of 2014. gaining 4-6 lbs is a huge accomplishment for me since i have such a hard time gaining weight. !! i'm happy and i'm NOT going to think abt school yet. i'm happy and i'm going to enjoy that while i can.

hey good work! congratsss

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 555806)

don't mean to get into this when it is finished but i don't? know? what this means???

trying to be suicidal? ?

i think (+hope) he means wanting/trying to commit suicide. he may have mixed it up a lil. idk
arthurbolous: if you don't know suicidal is when you want to commit suicide...and humans generally don't want to want to commit suicide. they generally want to commit suicide as a result of being suicidal.

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Originally Posted by TheMoonWakedWolf (Post 555925)

what's wrong? please eat something!

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Originally Posted by Athenabrain1 (Post 555947)

dammit where the hell is that place.
well, the best thing you can do is ignore them bc they can only harm you IF you let yourself be bothered.

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Originally Posted by Athenabrain1 (Post 555947)

(warning: this is another one of Meera's angry long vents about something she feels strongly about)

*hugs* Racism sucks, right?
I feel the exact same way as you, except everyone keeps saying things along the lines of "go back to India, brown-skinned scum" when I've literally spent only two years of my whole life there.
I'm tired of being called "terrorist" or things like that just because of my appearance. Like, these people don't even know me. Maybe *they're* the real terrorists. I wouldn't be surprised.
People always mock me in Indian accents (which I literally don't even know how to do) and tell me to "go study for the SATs and bring honor to your crappy engineer family that can't afford decent shoes after illegally immigrating away from the slums."
Seriously?! My parents legally came here to get a friggin' college education, which those morons probably will never have in their wasted crappy lives. And when my family lived in India a long time before I was born, they were extremely respected landowners and stuff.
Basically, this world sucks. But try not to let it get to you. *hugs again*

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Originally Posted by LaurenM (Post 555956)

dammit where the hell is that place.
well, the best thing you can do is ignore them bc they can only harm you IF you let yourself be bothered.

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Originally Posted by meerkat (Post 555968)

I'm just really tired of people giving us looks when they're of another race when they see us.
Even my friends who're also complete Chinese girls call me "stereotypical".
I'm tired of this.
I want to be somebody else who doesn't have to go through all this.
My friends go, "A Chinese girl who sucks at math? Fail!"

idk I'm sorry but I just needed to get all that out okay

I HATE THIS WORLD
IDK WHY NO ONE LIKES ME
WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME
WHY CAN'T YOU DATE ME
WHY CAN'T I STOP FALLING FOR STRAIGHT GIRLS
WHY

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QBtC...QImJefwoKKUcRQ

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Originally Posted by emaafre (Post 556042)

i Hate This World
Idk Why No One Likes Me
What's Wrong With Me
Why Can't You Date Me
Why Can't I Stop Falling For Straight Girls
Why

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qbtc...qimjefwokkucrq

Nobody Doesn't Like You Mkay
Everybody Care About You
Just Wait
You'll Find Someone
I Promise

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Originally Posted by LaurenM (Post 555956)

hey good work! congratsss

i think (+hope) he means wanting/trying to commit suicide. he may have mixed it up a lil. idk
arthurbolous: if you don't know suicidal is when you want to commit suicide...and humans generally don't want to want to commit suicide. they generally want to commit suicide as a result of being suicidal.

what's wrong? please eat something!

dammit where the hell is that place.
well, the best thing you can do is ignore them bc they can only harm you IF you let yourself be bothered.

OH of course im so stupid you're right.,,

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Originally Posted by Emaafre (Post 556042)

I HATE THIS WORLD
IDK WHY NO ONE LIKES ME
WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME
WHY CAN'T YOU DATE ME
WHY CAN'T I STOP FALLING FOR STRAIGHT GIRLS
WHY

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QBtC...QImJefwoKKUcRQ

your nickolodeon video was .. ..... interesting

but you're cool man. nothing is wrong w you!