Originally Posted by Puckbrina159 (Post 558150)

I feel like shit.
For those of you that remember, I have a gargantuan crush like thing on a guy in my grade, and here on KP, he goes by Perfect Specimen.
The story basically is this. This dude comes in to my tech ed. class on the first day of middle school (last school year) and I thought he was majorly hot. So for maybe 2-2.5 months, I only saw him in tech ed. and never talked to him. As time went on I started to appreciate him more and more as he was bullied because he was different. He was bullied for things like clothing that he wore and dancing and singing (like a FRICKING ANGEL MIND YOU) and stuff. And then I found his facebook and the obsession reached new heights because he liked Doctor Who and stuff. So eventually we started talking a little bit about Doctor Who, but were never really what you'd call 'friends'. We kinda started talking more and there was also that one time when we sat elbow to elbow in the hallway reading because he saw me reading alone and plopped himself down next to me so we could be "reading buddies". The story goes on and on in this direction (including the fact that up until the last day of school he called me bestie which i called him too eventually). By the end of the year, their never really was a conclusion or anything. On the last day of school, we both signed each other's yearbooks each as "bestie" and then didn't say anything else. I didn't have the guts to write my number and tell him to text me like I wanted to.
Today, the second day of 6th grade, I was informed he is now cyber schooled. Chances are I'll never see him again.
I'm mad at myself for never going for it. For not giving him my number or at least really talking to him. Really making an effort. In a way it's sort of a relief, because I don't always have to worry about kicking myself every time I don't take the chance to talk him when I'm given it, but now I just wish I had in the past.
I'm sorry if this didn't make any sense, but it's not like anyone's going to read let alone reply to this, so whatever.
And sorry if it was too long, but if you're looking for a shortened version, this is the shortened version.
I just needed to vent.

Originally Posted by cloudwriter (Post 558159)

I know how you're feeling. The only class I had with my crush, and he's now in a different class because his schedule had to be rearranged.

Originally Posted by Puckbrina159 (Post 558150)

I feel like shit.
For those of you that remember, I have a gargantuan crush like thing on a guy in my grade, and here on KP, he goes by Perfect Specimen.
The story basically is this. This dude comes in to my tech ed. class on the first day of middle school (last school year) and I thought he was majorly hot. So for maybe 2-2.5 months, I only saw him in tech ed. and never talked to him. As time went on I started to appreciate him more and more as he was bullied because he was different. He was bullied for things like clothing that he wore and dancing and singing (like a FRICKING ANGEL MIND YOU) and stuff. And then I found his facebook and the obsession reached new heights because he liked Doctor Who and stuff. So eventually we started talking a little bit about Doctor Who, but were never really what you'd call 'friends'. We kinda started talking more and there was also that one time when we sat elbow to elbow in the hallway reading because he saw me reading alone and plopped himself down next to me so we could be "reading buddies". The story goes on and on in this direction (including the fact that up until the last day of school he called me bestie which i called him too eventually). By the end of the year, their never really was a conclusion or anything. On the last day of school, we both signed each other's yearbooks each as "bestie" and then didn't say anything else. I didn't have the guts to write my number and tell him to text me like I wanted to.
Today, the second day of 6th grade, I was informed he is now cyber schooled. Chances are I'll never see him again.
I'm mad at myself for never going for it. For not giving him my number or at least really talking to him. Really making an effort. In a way it's sort of a relief, because I don't always have to worry about kicking myself every time I don't take the chance to talk him when I'm given it, but now I just wish I had in the past.
I'm sorry if this didn't make any sense, but it's not like anyone's going to read let alone reply to this, so whatever.
And sorry if it was too long, but if you're looking for a shortened version, this is the shortened version.
I just needed to vent.

Originally Posted by MaggieMay (Post 558161)

im so sorry that really sucks!!! *hugs and hands u a lot of chocolate* but hey, whether or not he ever comes into your life again you will have an AMAZING life and meet amazing people and probably get a crush on other people too!!!!