OH MY GOODNESS I AM SO MAD :mad:

This may sound stupid but it's true!

So in gym yesterday we were going to start the soccer unit but it was raining so we did the pacer test.
BUT I COULDN'T BECAUSE I PULLED MY HIP FLEXOR AND I JUST COULDN'T

but... not to brag or anything, but I'm the best girl runner in my school. Last year I got 112, but I'm so much faster this year. AND NOW I DIDN'T GET TO DO IT!!

So when all the boys brag about their times I'm just sitting there like, I got higher than that LAST YEAR.

But no one will know because I HAD TO SIT OUT.

No joke, I was about to cry. And we don't do another one until next quarter!

I HAVE TO WAIT UNTIL NEXT QUARTER TO GET IN THE 100 CLUB! NEXT QUARTER! EVERYONE'S GOING TO THINK I'M A WIMP BECAUSE I'M NOT ON THE LIST!

Guys... I was getting 100 in sixth grade, for goodness sake! :mad:

And if I have to sit out at soccer practice for ONE MORE DAY I WILL FREAK

Okay, first of all, I'm not one to judge, but why the hell are you sad you didn't get to do the pacer test? It's like the worst day of the year for me at least.
And hahahaha i got 14

The fact that I feel so little terrifies me.

I feel nothing but this constant, pulsing anger that arises for no reason.

My empathy is flawed and weak.

I feel like a broken human being.

Aren't I supposed to feel something, anything?

I like to create stories in real life just so I can synthesize some mediocre form of emotion that will never compare to the real thing.

I almost want to put myself in situations that will break my heart.

Because pain is better than nothing, right?

it's better to be feared than loved, they say.
absolutely right.
except when your parents are afraid of you.

ME AND MOST OF THE GIRLS & SOME GUYS GOT TO LIKE 5??? EXCEPT ITS THE BEEP TEST HERE SO IDK IF ITS THE SAME. LIKE 2 PPL MADE IT TO 10 AND THAT WAS THEIR END Laugh

oKAY I just have one more day of constant, mind-numbing, soul-crushing anxiety where I can't eat or sleep or pay attention in class I CAN MAKE IT THROUGH

It might not be the same thing then. Because 14 where I am sucked really bad. Did you do it in laps or running from one side of the gym to the other?

We just did the beep test in gym... I don't think it's the same thing as the pacer test. The maximum you can get in the beep test we did was nineteen, and the eighteen year-old hot athletic guy got to ten, and stopped because everyone else did.

bUT I'M IN GRADE ELEVEN GYM (ACTUALLY GRADES TEN TO FIFTH YEAR) AND I'M IN GRADE NINE AND THERE ARE LIEK EIGHT GIRLS AND TWENTY GUYS
sorry I'm still struggling with this class. i mean idek what to do around older people usually I'm really good but all the guys are intimidating so ?
but in the beep test I got fourth place muahaha c:< and that was the first time I did it.

it was like 10 metres to a set of cones on the other side idk