we've just been fighting a lot over the past few days and today she told me she doesnt care abt me and to not talk to her again and idk we are/were rlly rlly close but she's been v :-/// recently

and dude i hate when ppl justify being rude by saying that they've had a bad day or are in a bad mood like that doesn't mean you have to be awful?? and then make it seem like they're the victim b/c they've had a bad day?? i'm rlly sorry they're being like that ah :-((

oh man thats so horrible! no one deserves to hear that :(:( lets just see how it plays out, if she doesnt want to be your friend then she never was a good friend in the first place!!

yeah its like?? that doesnt mean you can be manipulative honestly... ahh... its ok im just uncomfortable because they asked me out and then i couldnt/didnt want to go out because i just didnt have the energy to even get out of bed so i told her that my mum said i couldnt go and then she got mad and i... why do i do this to myself romance makes me feel sick why do i say yes to people fuck

hey thank you!! yeah im going to wait and see how it turns out :^/

ah that's her fault for getting mad!! honestly u were totally justified in saying u couldn't go if u were tired and she needs to understand that sometimes things get in the way of plans. im sorry she reacted like that ah )):

cami: oh man i know how that feels :// my old best friend and i arent best friends anymore but it was the strongest friendship i ever had. not saying your guyses friendship will end, but if it does heres my my tip: be angry. be sad. be grateful. forgive. let go.
im not quite at forgiving or letting go yet but honestly i am so grateful that i even had that connection for two years. like i learned so many things from her and i am so thankful for that. even after ending the friendship, i still learned a lot from it, like how to let go and not rely on her and how to recreate myself. i mean yeah it hurt like hell when it ended and i almost ended up attempting suicide but from there on out, things got better. so i mean, it sucks sucks sucks to lose a best friend, and i REALLY hope you don't have to and i hope that things work out and you guys end up repairing your friendship and it becomes stronger in the end. but if it doesnt, things will end up okay too.

and jas (can i call u that?) that sucks :( its not an excuse and hopefully they know that and it wont happen again.

ah elliot thank u so much this was just what i needed to hear <33 i really really hope that it doesn't end because yeah it's honestly the closest friendship i've ever had, but if it does i think i'll be okay.

ur words are amazing and wow.. anyway yea i hope that you guys can repair your friendship cami :'( and even if u can't itll be okay+

yaa ofc u can call me tht i have way too many nicknames atm :O yeaah hopefully not but its not a big deal lol.

ugh my parents don't get personal boundaries and they keep pushing me even tho they can tell i'm stressed/tired and the trembling/shaking stopped for a few days but thx to them it's started again x.x

also my dad wanted me to tell him my tumblr url and he said he'd install monitoring software on my laptop if i didn't and i got rly scared so i made a photography/travel blog just in case he asks again ://

if i don't make it into all-state convention my life will be ruined i'm not even good at piano help me

just stop referring to me as that prude, innocent girl
telling me you used to cut and then telling me to ignore it bc of my "personality" doesnt make me pity you
my heart's gone cold already
im not that happy girl anymore
because of you i scratched myself, too afraid to use blades
because of you, ive been more self conscious about what i wear and my body
you ruined my life

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