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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 570924)

mmm thank u!!
i would ask for an extension but i dont have any circumstances? plus you have to file for it with the HOS so i cant do that but thank u!! (:

ohhhh okay well no prob i hope it goes well!! 8)

i should not be freaking out this much over small things but i do anyways and why am i like this
stupid neurons never doing what they're supposed to and overthinking everything and i hate this so much why can't i just be functional
can i please punch myself very hard in the gut or something bc i'm crying too much and i just don't cry and it's not something i do but i'm doing it anyways

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Originally Posted by meerkat (Post 570943)

it's okay to cry.

also as a rule do not punch awesome people in the gut.

psssst that includes you

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Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 570945)

it's okay to cry.

also as a rule do not punch awesome people in the gut.

psssst that includes you

i don't normally cry in fact i almost never cry and idk what happened now like my grades are pretty good and i know all the stuff for finals and SAT and i was a national finalist in this french thing so i should be pretty alright now but i just don't know what happened to me and i just snapped and here i am not crying but i feel like i'm about to and my fingers are shaking and i have no clue what triggered any of this but i want to go spank every single one of my neurons and force them to function properly and thanks anyways but i really just want to punch something

and honestly, i don't know why i'm always so reluctant to cry. it's weird. i keep telling myself it's alright to cry, but idk how to explain this thing....

i should really not look up medical terms but im desperate to know what's wrong with me
im pretty sure online tests are unreliable anyway but maybe theyre not??ughh

in the past week, i've talked two different people through multiple anxiety attacks each, another two through some really personal stuff involving scary codependency, and i've helped a friend through a really bad breakup from an unhealthy relationship. i try so fucking hard to be a good person.
it's not enough.
i have to have everything together and i don't and the fact that i'm trying my best isn't enough and i just feel like shit and i want people to stop yelling at me and i want to be what everyone needs me to be but i'm not and whatever i am just isn't enough and i don't know how to fix it. i feel like i'm putting my soul into people instead of textbooks and apparently that's a bad thing and apparently im irresponsible and childish and im starting to believe that and i can't fucking believe that im starting to believe it because i took three years to love myself even the slightest bit and i just hate that i let one damn person do this to me but i do and i know it's stupid and maybe im stupid but sue me for feeling the need to take care of people over whatever fucking algebraic equation is being drilled into my head.
why the hell cant i be enough for you?

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Originally Posted by Lena (Post 570953)

honey you're enough for anybody they just don't know it yet. c:

if someone makes you feel bad, you don't deserve that. You are enough for you, and if you're not good enough for someone else that's their fucking problem.

Also fuck algebraic equations. :3

why
the
hell
is
everyone
so
racist

im so gosh darned weak and i can't even walk now bc of how weak i am

ok so i think my mom hates me bc she doesn't understand the meaning of "i can't have a shouting match before a concert" and my grandmother hates me bc she's trying to forcefeed me and on top of that my legs have barely healed and i don't want to perform
i'm crying

EDIT: FULL RECOVERY~ GETTING AWAY FROM GRANDMOTHER HELPED SO MUCH AND I'M AT THE CONCERT IN MY ADORABLE PINK BLOUSE AND SKIRT WITH THE CLARINET BAES AND JENNY AND I ARE TWINNING AND IT'S ALL GOOD WHEN I'M AWAY FROM THE TOXIC PPL