Hi so, i'll try not to get into anything here...um, but it's good that you're trying Esther's advice, in fact I think that's really good, because if you're willing to try then that means there's a part of you that really
doesn't want to leave, despite what the other parts are all screaming for.
and it's always been my theory, that as long as that one part of you is still there, even if it's weak, then it's not time to go yet.
you still have that part.
um, anyways, that's all. I hope things turn out okay for you, maybe not immediately, but eventually.

so i want to wake up early but when i do i go back to sleep and wake up at 12

I've never self-harmed. I've never been suicidal. I don't know what the heck you're going through but I hope you take into consideration that I would be so, so sad and I'm crying right now for you. That's all I can really say, since I don't control what you do or think.

On a side note, does it bother anyone else that when I go to the anxiety tag on whatever website, I get girls holding handfuls of pills and crying girls and sad quotes and not things that can actually help calm me? This isn't a John Green book where someone's going to pick me up after a panic attack and we'll fall in love. But sometimes just a calming gif or support can make the day a whole lot different.

Ugh the anxiety thing pisses me off too
Pinterest is just really the fuckin worst at that

i hate myself ive never been wanted im unloved i care too much and nobdy loves me the way i wan tthem too i hate myself i hate myself i want to die and it doesnt matterwho sees thisi wish i could stop existing

Hey can you message or email me please
If you can't that's okay but just know I love you and I would never want anything to happen to you. Hang on buddy.

I'm not going to bed until you go offline or respond to this.

Hey Livy looks like you're offline but if you need me please email and I'll get back asap

Love you dear <3

oh gosh. thank u so much im so sorry for worrying u i just kinda spiraled. im not sure how to contact u but i will try ily thank u

I'm glad ur okay : ) but yeah I actually put my email in the post in case you saw it, but edited it out afterwards.