Originally Posted by Graystorm (Post 589213)

Thanks, but my mom hung herself, my life's pretty crappy. And I know it's probably nothing compared to what other people are going through. Also, I can't sleep. If I'm lucky I'll get around 5 hours of sleep a night. It sucks. Ugh, I don't mean to sound like a self absorbed brat. I really do appreciate what you wrote.

Originally Posted by Codename-X12 (Post 589223)

It's more for the friendship thing. i'm pretty sure she does cuz some of my friends and her friends think she likes me.

Originally Posted by SilverMoon (Post 589225)

ah cool. then that might come later. (how old r u tho, bc dating when u r young... I don't approve of it, but I'm not gonna tell ppl not to do it,, but also like... it's kind of hard to go on dates if u can't drive yet so)

anyways yeah. good luck tryin to keep bein friends w her :)

Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 589219)

meds decrease is a bitch
but tbh i am way too proud to admit i feel like shit most of the time now and school's starting so i know for a fact im' probably gon get in a fucked up cycle of binging and restricting food and also self harm. which sucks. but i know it's true so

i hate saying this i hate saying this i hate saying this because i always try to be strong for other people but i want to cut so badly all the time and i just try to ignore it but the feeling is getting stronger and i just want to take a blade to my wrist and give up everything i've worked for to be clean from self harm for months and months on end. but honestly what's any of that worth anyway? i know i'm stupid and needy as hell but i hate it when people assume i'm fine and i also hate it when people think something's wrong (regardless of whether or not they're right) so yeah bye i hate saying this i hate saying this i hate saying this

Originally Posted by Frostblaze (Post 589220)

you have to let yourself get help. you have to try. for yourself, for me. now - you feel you need to punish yourself, is what i'm getting. punish yourself by not cutting. stormy, this is crucial. like you said, it hurts even worse to know you did it once than me doing it a thousand times. let's do this - let's make a promise to not cut ourselves, for each other. does that sound okay? i've been trying so damned hard to find someone to not cut for, and it might be you. stormy, i need you to help me stop cutting. i need you in my life to help me get through this. i feel like only you can do this. maybe that's why you're in my life. darling, you've got enough pain in your life. you don't need to create anymore for yourself. who said it - andy biersack? life gives you enough scars. you don't need to manufacture your own. and you do not sound self-absorbed. i can totally understand how you want someone to talk to. and you can come to us any time.

someday you will be okay. you'll look back on this, and you'll shudder, but you will know that you got through it. you can do this. it's okay to ask for help and to lean on people. you are not insignificant. you mean the world to me and so many other people. if i lost you...do you have any idea how sad and miserable i would be? how everyone would be?

Originally Posted by Graystorm (Post 589251)

I cut again Madie. I'm sorry. I'm so so so so so so sorry. I can't do this. I can't live this way. School's starting on Tuesday and I'm starting in a new school and I'm so god damn terrified. I think my cuts are still bleeding. I think I went deeper than last time. I want to stop. But I don't know if I can. I want to promise you that I wont cut as long as you don't, but I don't know if I can keep that promise. It scares me so damn much to have to not cut for you-implying that if I cut, you cut-cause I don't know if I can do this. I'm sorry.

Originally Posted by Graystorm (Post 589251)

I cut again Madie. I'm sorry. I'm so so so so so so sorry. I can't do this. I can't live this way. School's starting on Tuesday and I'm starting in a new school and I'm so god damn terrified. I think my cuts are still bleeding. I think I went deeper than last time. I want to stop. But I don't know if I can. I want to promise you that I wont cut as long as you don't, but I don't know if I can keep that promise. It scares me so damn much to have to not cut for you-implying that if I cut, you cut-cause I don't know if I can do this. I'm sorry.

Originally Posted by Graystorm (Post 589251)

I cut again Madie. I'm sorry. I'm so so so so so so sorry. I can't do this. I can't live this way. School's starting on Tuesday and I'm starting in a new school and I'm so god damn terrified. I think my cuts are still bleeding. I think I went deeper than last time. I want to stop. But I don't know if I can. I want to promise you that I wont cut as long as you don't, but I don't know if I can keep that promise. It scares me so damn much to have to not cut for you-implying that if I cut, you cut-cause I don't know if I can do this. I'm sorry.

Originally Posted by Ember (Post 589236)

I know this might not mean much but I am praying for you and please don't do anything you'll regret later ok try to keep up that lovely progress you've made please and also please try to let someone in it's ok to get help when you need it that's a big part of life is helping others and getting helped and I'm sure your friends want you to talk to them even if they always won't know what to say and to you it'll seem stupid or embarrassing or like you're being needy but you arent! I am always happy to help my friends I'm sure your friends are as well please just talk to someone talk to your psychologist as well if you have one just tell people how you're feeling and they can help. Just someone you trust talk to them. We're all here for you as well.

I'm praying for all of you aa, graystorm if you aren't religious then it probably won't mean much but I do care about you guys and I want you to know that