plastic could break off while still stuck in their skin lol sorry morbid

Hey I just wanted to tell you how proud of you I am for staying clean for two whole months...really, stormy, it's okay to mess up. You're doing great.

You don't need to be skinny

You are pretty
End of story .

sound euphonium and yoi had about the same budget from the research ive done on it
but yeah yoi definitely did deserve best couple
petition to delete the hets™

so...................friend wise........I'm actually ok now. Yea, there are still haters but I found two friends and I hang with them so yea. Thx for the encouragement! :)

but I'm not. I'm just not.

God I hate myself why the hell do people care about me it would all be so much easier if they didn't care

PeTITION SIGNED!!!!!!!!!!

like. people can bitch about the animation one if they want. animating ice skating seems really hard tho lmao.
but if u bitch about best couple and say yoi is "trash" or -- fucking YouTube comments -- "yaoi that only attracts crazy fujoshi" (as if Johnny Weir and Evgenia Medvedeva don't also watch yoi ) or gOD FORBID "not even a real couple" I WILL CUT YOU 🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪

I know you probably expect no one to care about this since most of the venting is negative but hey, that's great!! You go, Sally!

I know it feels like meds don't do anything but meds do help I know this bc last week I was transitioning meds and bOY DID IT SUCK but a) are you on meds and b) are you taking them like meds don't fix anything but they do help

also hey I get where you're coming from about how it would be easier if no one cared and lmao my opinion of myself is endlessly fluctuating and generally negative

and hell, who even cares if you're pretty? We're all just bundles of matter how are some people pretty and some not. Pretty is worth a lot in this society but it sure as hell ain't everything. Studies show that kidpubbers are prettier than the societal average (selfie thread) lmao, anyway.

I get that you probably care, though.

I'm not going to say "it gets better" because I don't know that, but it WONT get better if you don't let it, and don't try to.

Not it WILL get better, but it CAN get better.

It can really be okay. Not today but one day. One day you can be better. Please try to get there.

I barely know you, and I'm not the most empathetic or friendly person, but hey don't die.

Sorry if none of this helped or I just made shit worse lmao

ok so i'm nice. right? that's what everyone says. i'm "nice" and "nice and chill and innocent." but like i'm kinda annoyed how this is like my trademark?

my mom always said that you should be nice to EVERYONE and you won't necessarily be popular, but everyone will like you. apparently that works. but like...

when i borrow a pencil from a guy (without asking but it's like a running joke in our class that everyone steals from his endless supply of pencils) i don't like it how when he tells his friend, it's like "EVEN PANDA?????" (also for the record i returned the pencil after like an hour 'cause i felt guilty)

idk. i don't like the expectation, i guess? i like that i have a Thing™ but... i don't know. i just wanted to vent, i guess haha.

ALSO so this really intense thing happened with this girl in my grade and my basketball teammate sort of friend told me about it and it's like real, actual, harmful gossip. and i basically immediatly told my friend, who had also been asking to hear it. i feel horrible, even if most of the gossip was because of my friend's gross ex. and i still feel horrible for telling her, because i don't want to ruin the girl who did that gossipy thing, and now i'm afraid my friend is gonna tell her best friend and it's just going to continue until everyone knows. also our like... i guess you could call "pre-and-current-chicago-selective-enrollment-community" is so crazy about this kind of gossip which could affect her next year in high school, no matter what selective enrollment school she goes to. idk. i feel really bad.

AT THE SAME TIME i feel bad not telling my best friend because we tell each other EVERYTHING interesting that happens in our lives and in the lives of other people (we're not horrible people i swear nothing ever happens so it's usually like "oh yeah this guy likes this girl but he's not gonna do something about it") and i know i shouldn't spread rumors but... well i don't have an excuse i just really want to tell her

not expecting advice just wanted to vent again :p