Completely rational. It's always nice to have concrete proof, so to speak, that your one is better.

It's not so selfish, because you're not the only person who feels that way.
Yeah, the guys at school were joking about bullying and depression in math class, and I just put my head down on the table and tried to not listen. Stupid uninformed f***ers.

This isn't really a vent, more of an observation of mine.

People say that having online friends is dangerous, bad, antisocial, and will make you awkward and obsessed with technology. But if you're actually sensible about it, then it can really be better than a lot of IRL friendships, and help you become a better person.
Whilst stuff that isn't said out loud can be misinterpreted, online conversations don't have as much pressure to answer immediately, and you are able to consider the wisdom of posting what you type as you type it. If you realize that it's something that will hurt someone, then you can just not post it.
You're able to look back on your conversations if someone does get upset, and see what you've done to offend or hurt them, so that you can apologise properly and try not to repeat the mistake.
You can't judge people on appearance (unless of course, you're doing a video chat). Whilst some people do hold the belief that judging someone by how they look is shallow and superficial, even they do change their attitudes subconsciously based on how someone looks. Online, you judge people by how they act, how good of a person they are, by who they are rather than how pretty or skinny or tall or whatever they are. And that can carry into real life to, to make you wait until you've done something other than just glimpse them to judge anyone.

I completely agree. After joining KP, I actually became a lot better at...you know, communicating. I had practice for arguments and such.

I also agree :) I have better friends online than I have in person.

Ditto ;~;
~glomps everyone~

Why am I so messed up? There is evidence everywhere that if I was just nicer to people, my life would be so much better, but I'm still the arrogant asshole--even when I tell myself that I should change. People either pity me or hate me, and that infuriates me to extreme levels and I can't stand it. Why don't I change? Why can't I change? Why can't I? I try and try but I'm afraid of...I don't know what. I don't know. Change? I feel that if I change myself, that I won't have power over myself anymore. I don't know if I'd be changing for other people or for me, but I do because I can't miss out on friendships just because I'm a judgemental jerk. I need to learn that, because right now, I just have Narcissistic Bitch painted on my forehead.

This doesn't really need a reply. Just a vent.

Just a suggestion - you should try being nicer, but not to the point losing yourself. So you can be nice if you want to - or bitchy. If you don't know what you're afraid about in changing, there's no reason to be afraid.

Thanks, XX. I appreciate that.

Oh
My god
Bare as a musical is playing. Right now.
Across the country.
AGH IT'S LIKE A PUNCH IN THE STOMACH THAT I CAN'T SEE IT! I promise you, if we lived in NY we would be seeing it even though it's Off-Broadway I would be DRAGGING MY PARENTS TO NEW WORLD STAGES in order to see it (even though there's no Matt or Sister Chantelle; I can't understand why).
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