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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 440576)

can i not just be left alone

today we drove over some train tracks to get over and i couldn't help but think if i was the only one in the car and i was driving i'd just stop in the middle and i

ugh
it's always sunday's, it's so weird. like i always feel.. suicidal on sunday's. i don't get it

And I'm sick, so my dad has to bring me home Bleenie for Cheesefare. D:

don't ask. XD and I haven't even told you about the kissing thing, either.

But I'm a little sick, so my mom decided to keep me home from the Cheesefare service so I wouldn't infect everyone else. XD

Music.

I love you so much, music.

You suddenly make writing possible for me again.

How do you do that, music?

*finally feels motivated again* :'D

Thanks, Mom. You're sure helping me cope with my sh*tty day.

Not.

So I guess I'll turn up Sisters of Mercy and get into a place where you can't see me. I probably shouldn't have thought you would have helped me. I should be used to coping with my own pain by now.

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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 441124)

I go to a lame school and I care an unhealthy amount about my grades/am a perfectionist.
But you know what? It's completely effing fine if you can't do that. What's important is that you're surviving (and staying awesome).

But it's not enough, it's not fine if i can't do that. It's not enough to just survive.
Everyone is telling me that I'm not trying hard enough.
My parents are.
Litzy is.
E is.
all my friends are.

but i am trying. it takes a lot of effort to get up, to go to school, to pretend like i'm fine. it takes a whole lot of effort to not put the sharpener blade against my wrist. it takes a lot of effort to get out my homework and do as much as i can even though i know i'll be getting a c or a d or an f yet everyone still seems to think i don't care or that i'm not trying but i am trying. i'm trying to stay on top of math and french and english while trying not to be completely suicidal at the same time but it's hard to do pass all those classes when i can barely even fucking eat or speak to anyone.

its still not good enough though.

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 441130)

It is fucking enough. You need to survive, that's the most important thing. Grades. Do. Not. Judge. You. As. A. Person. You are fucking awesome, and you are smart, it doesn't matter what kinds of grades you get.
They're wrong. You are trying, you're trying so hard, and you're doing good enough.

I'm so, so glad that you're trying. *hugs*
Surviving, eating, not cutting, and feeling better, they're all so much more important than grades.

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 441133)

its still not good enough though.

What LST said. Grades are only numbers and letters. They won't matter in a few years. Surviving... well, will.