Originally Posted by Read_Write (Post 441287)

This is my first time posting on this... I think... I have thought about it for a while...

I don't know what to say; how to say it. You probably don't even care or want to pay attention. I don't really freaking care. Nobody pays very much attention to me anyway.
My life sucks. Well. I only have two people I really feel like is a good friend- and one of them is actually on here. The other I don't get to see very often.
My other so-called friend has gotten annoying and arrogant and know-it-all-ish and it's making me want to brag and show her I'm better, but I'm trying not to be that way. I already have too many flaws.
I will never cut or commit suicide, though. I'm kinda scared of blood and KidPub and my other friend and my parents are worth living for. My sister is only a kind-of. I should take that back, though, It's wrong. My sister's good moods are worth living for, right? I hope so.
I'm smart and I want to show it, but I don't want to be mean. People only sort-of know my name, and people really only acknowledge my level of intelligence. I have no power and nobody cares about me at school. Hopefully next year in middle school will be better.
And I'm not a perfect angel like I let my parents think. I've done so many bad things, things they don't know. They don't realize how many cuss words I hear every day; they don't know how gross and inappropriate people at school are. They don't know how close I am to start cussing; although it's my goal to never ever say a cuss. {In case anyone really cares, I'm succeeding so far.}
Life's just terrible. This rant has gotten kinda long, and, if anyone really made it this far, well, welcome to my life. It might or might not suck to you, but this is all I feel like writing.
You don't even have to reply; nobody will have made it this far or even care enough to reply.
Now let me go write a poem to vent some more.

Do you hate your life? I do. >.<

Originally Posted by MaggieMay (Post 441304)

I'm kinda sorta in the same situation, minus a few things; I don't cuss, either, although I feel it would be nice sometimes in venting. XD anyways, I think I know where you're coming from.
I won't go off venting on my situation, but just know that you have people here on KP for you. Always. That's what I've used to help me.
Feel free to talk to me...or any of us. And stay strong. ^_^

Originally Posted by Read_Write (Post 441287)

This is my first time posting on this... I think... I have thought about it for a while...

I don't know what to say; how to say it. You probably don't even care or want to pay attention. I don't really freaking care. Nobody pays very much attention to me anyway.
My life sucks. Well. I only have two people I really feel like is a good friend- and one of them is actually on here. The other I don't get to see very often.
My other so-called friend has gotten annoying and arrogant and know-it-all-ish and it's making me want to brag and show her I'm better, but I'm trying not to be that way. I already have too many flaws.
I will never cut or commit suicide, though. I'm kinda scared of blood and KidPub and my other friend and my parents are worth living for. My sister is only a kind-of. I should take that back, though, It's wrong. My sister's good moods are worth living for, right? I hope so.
I'm smart and I want to show it, but I don't want to be mean. People only sort-of know my name, and people really only acknowledge my level of intelligence. I have no power and nobody cares about me at school. Hopefully next year in middle school will be better.
And I'm not a perfect angel like I let my parents think. I've done so many bad things, things they don't know. They don't realize how many cuss words I hear every day; they don't know how gross and inappropriate people at school are. They don't know how close I am to start cussing; although it's my goal to never ever say a cuss. {In case anyone really cares, I'm succeeding so far.}
Life's just terrible. This rant has gotten kinda long, and, if anyone really made it this far, well, welcome to my life. It might or might not suck to you, but this is all I feel like writing.
You don't even have to reply; nobody will have made it this far or even care enough to reply.
Now let me go write a poem to vent some more.

Do you hate your life? I do. >.<

Originally Posted by BearWithAStrawberry (Post 441302)

1. I am not popular

2. I am boring

3. I wish someone would just listen

4. I recline behind a closed door with the humidifier on

5. I always have a thin silver ring on my right pointer finger

6. It won't be moved

7. You can move it when I'm dead

8. I highly doubt that you would want to touch me by then

9. A vein in my body popped

10. It caused an amout of blood equivalent to halfway up a size 4 ballet shoe

11. I love to sing

12. I love to dance

13. I love to act

14. I love to move around

15. When nobody is around

16. I'll sing all the songs in my mental CD shelf

17. I'm only human

18. I sometimes wish I were not

19. I wish I was special

20. I'm a liar

21. I'm funny

22. Just kidding

23. I am not

24. I will never be

25. I am humorously challenged

26. Some might say that I am socially challenged

27. I belive that I am not

28. I twirl my wrists

29. I am rather thin

30. I don't mean it.....

31. "That" way

32. I am my own person

33. I enjoy the feel of a brand-new book cover

34. My head hurts

35. I am claustrophobic

36. I would rather commit suicide

37. Than touch a spider

38. I have a bird

39. I had two pets who both died

40. Because of me

41. I cry alot

42. Even when there's nothing to be sad about

43. I don't dream

44. When I do, I dream of

45. Fear

46. Darkness

47. I have insomnia

48. I have one sibling

49. He is my brother

50. He is very much a dreamer

51. My head is in the clouds

52. Someday, I hope to see Lucy

53. I hope to see her in the sky

54. Possibly with diamonds

55. I am not referring to the song

56. I want to smile

57. Dance

58. That's it. Dance

59. This is getting personnal

60. I don't mind it

61. After all, nobody knows me

62. Not on KidPub

63. I have a pen-name

64. My pen-name is Viylet Twyle

65. It represents the girl I will never be

66. If you haven't figured it out already, I hate text talk

67. I feed on the thesaurus

68. People make fun of me

69. I'M THE GIRL WHO STILL CARES WHAT PEOPLE THINK ABOUT ME

70. I put that in caps

71. It's true

72. I still care

73. I wish I didn't

74. I have a memory board

75. It doesn't have a single picture of me on it

76. Only pictures of other people

77. I have a dream jar

78. It is by my bedside

79. I write my wishes in them

80. Will they ever come true?

81. I don't know

82. I have spelling errors

83. I wish I didn't

84. I am weak

85. I am fragile

86. I have a very sensitive side

87. I am afraid to show it

88. I wish I could hold my head high all the time

89. I dislike all the stories I have written

90. They are boring and plainative

91. I have to get shots every week

92. My arm now has a bump where I get the shots

93. I am getting older

94. I still make wishes

95. I make wishes on dandelions

96. And on shooting stars

97. I have much to wish for

98. I hold a lot of things in

99. I wish I was a strong person

100. I still care

Originally Posted by DragonRider (Post 441335)

Everyone hurts. Everyone cares.
You are who you are. You can't change that. And you are beautiful.
Stay the way you are. You are perfect.
Email me if you want to vent/talk. *points to contact tab*

Originally Posted by DragonRider (Post 441335)

Everyone hurts. Everyone cares.
You are who you are. You can't change that. And you are beautiful.
Stay the way you are. You are perfect.
Email me if you want to vent/talk. *points to contact tab*

Originally Posted by BearWithAStrawberry (Post 441347)

thank you.
first one ive ever heard in my life.

Originally Posted by DragonRider (Post 441350)

*huggles*
ANY time you need to talk, I'm here.
Just stay strong. <3

Originally Posted by Read_Write (Post 441290)

So-called friends. A friend. That I hardly get alone.

I think I'm gonna end up crying myself to sleep again tonight. D':
You really think it's worth living?



Okay... Thanks...

I don't know why I'm getting replies.

Originally Posted by DragonRider (Post 441329)

We care. I care.
People change and move on. From what you say, that other friend doesn't seem like such a real friend. You can brag a bit to boost your self-esteem (it seems to me like you could do with that) but don't stoop to her level and try to be the best.
It's the people who stand by you no matter what who are worth thinking about. And although they may take some time, you will find your true friends.
I know I haven't talked to you much, but we've talked enough for me to know you are an amazing person. Don't ever let ANYONE take that away from you.
And frankly, for anyone who doesn't see how awesome you are - it's their loss.
Although many people would argue that popularity is important, it really isn't. I jumped from friend group to friend group before I realised that actually, it's better to have one or two really close friends than have many people know you - but not the real you. Or, even better, if you still want to get noticed, fight for something. Maybe there is a cause you would like to support? If you can do things to raise awareness or maybe money for it, go ahead! It's also great for boosting self-esteem.
I'm sure your parents are perfectly aware that perfect children to not exist - everyone has faults, and having too high expectations can create even more. Talk to them about it - they'll be able to help with everything.

Sometimes life can be cruel and it's hard to see the beauty in it. But as long as you fight to make your life how you want it, it will be there. Don't ever give up - or you would be giving up on yourself. And you never want to do that.

If you need more advice, my inbox is always open. I'm happy to talk about anything. Okay? *points to contact tab*

Originally Posted by CACrools (Post 441360)

You have replies because we care about you. You know that, right?