....What? o_o

YES. >.< And KYA is one of those things where you can't be shy. You have to be outspoken about your opinion, and my group is a bill author, so that means we present. The girl who is slacking probably won't say anything at KYA, so I wonder why she even wanted to go. Also, I found out a little secret. If you mingle and make friends with people before you present, word will get around and your bill will get picked just because you have a lot of new friends....hopefully thats not how bills get passed in real Legislature. XD

People at school; they want to talk more bout body parts...

Thank you.
It does help. But it's not enough.

i just want a goddamn therapist or something is that too much to askkkkkk

D:< I hate it when stuff like that happens. It's all so...biased. ._.

._. Oh. Moronic kids. Can't they just enjoy the innocence while it lasts and not go around spoiling other peoples'? I feel your pain. -_-

x_x Yeah.
Whenever I come around my friends, I hear most of the wrongest stuff I have ever heard before and it just sounds disgusting...:rolleyes: Well, at least, I am not one of those stupid kids.

Just try to ignore what they talk about, or try to change the subject. ._. YES, Max, don't ever let yourself turn into a kid like them. You're special.

Everyone feels like that, sometimes. <:^/ You're NOT a loser. *hugs*

We're not certified, but we are kinda like therapists...

Not me. I give crap advice. I wish I didn't, though.

Okay, maxi:
Not all of them are "stupid" kids. Yeah, I've got a slightly wrong/dirty mind and I'm in seventh grade. Yes, I joke about dirty things with my friends once in a while. It doesn't make me "stupid". I know perfectly well what is joking and what isn't. I know what crosses the line. I still can be mature. A lot of them are "stupid" but not all of them are.

OH YA.
I was gonna post this stuff too in that last post but I forgot.
andyeahthisisabitdarker.
So yeah feel free to move along nothing to see here. >_>

A while ago some people posted that they were ready to move on from KidPub, to real life and better things and stuff, and in my mind I was, like, "…I don't really have anything to move onto, only a little bit more than the pathetic nothing I had when I first joined."

I kind of have self-desctructive tendencies and I don't really give a shit and that scares me. like sometimes I be pretty much bulimic and deny myself food, or I hurt myself, or stuff like that, and I find it sort of… romantic, and afterward I don't care at all that I've done it. I kind of want to laugh and I feel no fear because of it, or regret or pain or really anything with regards to the self destructiveness. and i'm kind of afraid, what if the next thing i don't give a shit about is drugs.
god i don't want that.

And I feel like I'm on the border of switching to another set of mood swings.
/attentionwhoreness
Also, I really wish I had musical talent because being in a band like My Chemical Romance sounds amazing xD Dx xD

My character's apathy scares her too, causing a stream of voices in her head chasing her back to her bedroom.

._. There goes four hours and one more marble of my sanity. I wonder how many I have left before I lose all of my marbles...

In all honesty, Tredom, I'm totally emotionally drained right now. I can't muster up enough strength to even attempt to make any sort of brief facial expression.

And yet...

Reading what you said actually made me feel something. I can identify with you totally. I don't care about many things anymore, and that terrifies me. And yet, at the same time...I don't care that it terrifies me. There just isn't a way to put it into words. I, too, can be self-destructive, mainly in ways I'd rather not say on the Internet. But you know what, Tredom? Through it all, I still really really really care about you, and a bunch of other KPers, too. All of them are special to me, but you...you have to be one of the most special to me. I remember the day you joined. I remember our first conversation. I remember how you misspelled your username, (Trendom). I wish I could do more to help you. You don't know how much it hurts me to see that you're having problems just like me. And this probably won't mean anything to you since it looks like nothing but text on a screen. But I have to say this. You don't deserve any of those negative thoughts. And no matter what happens to you, or what changes, you're an awesome person, and we'll always be here for you. <:^J

And you're not an attention-junkie. XD (Trust me; I know what they look like, you ain't one of 'em. ._.)

What's wrong?

Everything.

._.

I have the most screwed up family on the planet.

._.
*gestures towards contact tab*

Right now, I just want to dig a hole and live in it for the rest of my life; totally isolating myself from any kind of human contact. ._. I know I'll feel different an hour from now, but that's just where I'm at this moment.

*shakes head sadly* It's not worth talking about. It would only scare and confuse you. I appreciate the offer, though... ;w; You're too kind.

Besides, I've been talking about it for FOUR HOURS STRAIGHT. x_x (Or, rather, I've been hearing about it for four hours straight. I didn't say much.)

Ohmygosh, Ashley. D8 I am so sorry. Does it have to do with your dad?

Whatever happens, I am here for you.

;w;

If you DO want to email me, do so. I don't care what you say; I will help, anyways. :P

...............What's it like to have a mother...? ;w;

I don't...I can't even...I can't even COMPREHEND the concept.

I can make my own planet, plan out and understand every little detail of it, and actually make it jell with some scientific facts, I can ace most of the tests I take, I can tell you all about nearly every kind of animal you can name, I understand stuff most people don't learn until they're in their 30s...and yet, I can't even understand the basic concept of a mother. How do you cling to someone who's just not there? How do you take solace in their memory when you can't even remember their voice without someone playing a recording for you? This usually doesn't bother me at all...you can't miss what you never had.....and yet.......here are the tears. Here is the pain.

It has to do with everyone in my family. ._. Distant cousins included.

Thank you Max...that means a lot to me. ;w;

O_O Holy crap, are you alright? Hope you aren't crying. ;w;

*points to what I just posted on the last page that you might not have seen...stupid pages...*

I hardly ever cry. But, yes, I'm crying now. ;w;

Right at this moment? Um, no, not really, I'm not okay. But I've been through worse. Much worse. But...I'll be fine in the long run. <:^J I always am. Too many people count on me. I can't just give out. I'm too stubborn. XD XD DX DX

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU----Fuuun.

No one upsets my friends. *_*

Okay, that made me laugh a little bit. <:'^3

Don't worry about it. It's no one's fault. Gosh, why can't anyone but me see that it's no one's fault...everyone wants to place the blame on someone. They're broken...that's why they do what they do.....you don't expect a broken laptop to work properly, do you? That's right, you don't. Blame the person that broke the laptop, not the laptop itself... ._. The person who broke them was Satan. Blame him. He will get what he deserves soon enough, and it's not like we can do anything to harm him, anyway...nor is it moral to take revenge...God will take revenge rightfully, not only for himself, but for everyone's sake...

I believe in Satan, Ashley, but I don't believe that you can be held down for ever. =_=

Me? Held down? How so? o.0

Random:
 

Scramble the letters in "Santa" and you get "Satan"...
8D

Held down meaning that you can't stay down, crying. You'll be happy soon. :)

Oh. Well, yeah, I'll be fine. Not sure when it'll be "happy" (I'm kind of forgetting what happy is... ._.), but I'll be fine.

._. I wish I could help. ;w;

<:^J You've helped me just by listening to my blubbering. Just by being there. Thank you, Max...you don't know how much that means.

:^J It is alright, Ash. :D I would love to help with ANYTHING at all.

Wait...you don't have a mother?
Maybe a skyrl (IPOD PLEASE STOP CORRECTING IT TO SKYROCKET) will open up to Troodainia soon (:

Well, I obviously had a mother at one point in my life...they didn't bury an old shoe in the backyard and up popped me. Nor did they find a baby hippo alongside the highway and it suddenly grew blond hair and turned into an Ashley. (As one of my relatives used to tell me when I was little and therefore gullible. XD "ERMAHGERSH I'M A HIPPO NUUUUUUUUU!!! ;w; I dun liek hippos...they're scary..." "Ashley, you're not a hippo. Stop telling her that. ._.")

I'd make a HORRIBLE mother...o_e gosh, I don't even know what a mother is supposed to DO, let alone how to be good at it. I think I'm going to stick to raising puppies and birds and other animals and never ever have actual kids. XD

;w; Yes, that would be helpful.....and maybe this time Heckata won't throw me off a cliff...*see Charbretta thread's recent posts for more details on THAT...X'D* Skyrocket, eh? That made me laugh...

FFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU----So freaking sorry. D8 want me to delete it?

It's okay. <:^D Yes, please. x_x *hides under coffee table, armed with my pocket knife*
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