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(*hugs super tight*) girlie it'll be fine don't worry dearie (*hugs again*)

dear heart and subconscious:

i'd rather not be in love so please end this foolish nonsense.

i do not wish to dream about him.

-a rather pissed off soul

(*hugs back*) i'm just ahgughhhi thanks though

who's the lucky guy ;3

what grade are you going into? (*has no idea how the american education system works*)

a friend/person/human/alien/blob/thing i know. he's an ass but he's really hot so i guess that makes up for it xp but he's actually my age! (*cheers*)

i'm going into grade eight (howmuchyouwannabetthathalfthesixthgradersaretalle rthanme)
friendpersonhumanalienblobthing. definitely clears it up. xp how hot?
your age? wat?

ooh well i just finished grade eight and honestly it was the best year yet c: school's getting better for me the further i go on so i'm sure it'll be great :)
(ohhideksixthgraderscanbeprettymassiveiknowafewgra desevenerswho'relieksixinchestallerthanmeandi'mfiv efootfour)
indeed it does xp very hot. as in i'm like 'woww can i just look at you pls no no don't speak just exist' xpp
i knoww isn't it a miracle? xp

people keep saying that so i hope it's true haha
(ughyou'renearlyhalfafoottallerthanmejeez)
aha i know that feeling. pretty idiots are something i'm well acquainted with xp

eighth grade sucked for me but idk it's usually not like that for most people so you'll probably do great c:

eighth grade was my best year (even w/ the transphobia and my best friend not being there) and hopefully it'll be good for you. (:

thanks guys i really hope that it works out well and i'm sorry you've both had to go through things like that

psssst he is an ass or he has a nice ass
ahaha sorry sorry anyway that is a step up from creeping on older guys
but yeah if he's an ass i wouldn't go crushing on him but all ppl can be asses sometimes and in my experience especially guys so idk what i really know
but anyway

good luck dearieee <333 i'm sure you'll be fab mmkay ilu

what's wrong? whatever it is, it will be okay.

whatever it is, i'm sorry. just hang in there, things get better no matter what the situation.

well 1) you are absolutely not worthless 2) hey you accomplish stuff! you breathe and sleep and walk around and that's pretty dang cool, right? you have dreams and you think. those are accomplishments regardless of however small you think they are. and you can accomplish a lot more cool stuff. and you will. 3) i think most people procrastinate and while it's not a good thing you don't have to crush yourself for it. try to think of good, healthy, positive ways to stop procrastinating. it's something i personally struggle with too, and i'm going to have to work on.

you'll figure out if writing is for you or not. don't force yourself into doing it if you don't want to. if you want to but just have writer's block you can try looking for first sentence generators or things to help you. you can even pick a random word to begin with.

don't cut. you matter. you have worth. right now you are more than what you think you are. to your teachers you are a student with a bright future that they want to help along the way. to your peers you are a person with an individual life story that continues every day. to us here you are someone we care about. to all the people you haven't met yet, you could be a best friend, a life partner, someone they are so glad they met, a kind stranger who smiled at them on the street, and more. so you matter, to people you do know and to people you haven't met yet.




the same goes for all of you. you matter. God loves you. other people love you, like friends and family and peers. we love you here. <3

some ways to feel better are to pray and read the Bible, smile until you feel happy, listen to your favorite positive song, and go outside and drop change on the sidewalk so people will find it as they walk (you can feel good knowing you've made someone else happy.).

you can handle it. you'll be okay. don't worry.

today was fab

i signed up for private acoustic guitar lessons (starting tomorrow!) and downloaded scrivener (this epical writing program) and my dad got coldplay's album 'ghost stories' on my laptop and bought the music video for strawberry swing and aasdfghs i'm sorry but i just wanted to express how fantastic this is

and also this proves the point that there are days worth living for. life is worth living for. yesterday i felt incredibly depressed for the majority of the day (ugh stupid stuff) but today i feel on top of the world. so for all who feel that you'll never be happy, or life is too hard to be worth living: life can be fab. it can also be a bitch, but life can also be fantastic (especially when coldplay's involved xp)

#endofrantything

So, I survived.
Lunch wasn't great because my one friend there ignored my the whole time, but, hey, whatever. She does that a lot.
English was pretty bad, too. I really don't like my teacher - he seems like the type who'll hate me for knowing everything.
But I have my favorite teacher for gifted seminar and she's my case manager as well so that's good c: Also my fan club is in one class with me so I'm not alone there. So, ah, yeah.

Yayayayay lenaaaa
Also just hai.
How're you?
So overall school was okay? c:

I am relieved and relatively content. And tired. I stayed up till 4 am and slept 5 hours, but it's not that bad. I've had worse. Still tired though.

bored
 

Hello. Can't you see I'm bored? Ya, I'm soooooo bored. Help. I dunno.

Hello. This is a thread for emotional venting. As far as I can see this is nor emotional yet somewhat a vent. People have real-life problems on here, so I suggest you leave before you offend someone. Goodbye.

what the actual f*** sam

leeennaaaakkkiinnnsss c:
(*huggles*)
I'm glad you survived. I'd have been worried if you hadn't. c:
I'm sorry about your stupid friend and stupid teacher but try to focus on the good things, hey? That's great that your favourite teacher is in your gifted seminar and your fan club is in your class! c: Try to focus on what's great about this year, 'kay? The first day of grade eight was hell for me, because I didn't think I'd like the teacher I got, but by the end of the year– which was my best yet– I adored my teacher (she's one of my favourites now c: ) and most of the conflicts were resolved. Be happy, 'kay? And if you're not, I'm here for you. (*hugs*)

But could boredom be an emotion? I mean, I kinda vented about how happy I was (*points above*), because happiness is an emotion as well. I know this thread is mainly about negative emotions, but other emotions exist, and I think the world needs to be reminded of that. c:

And also I doubt that anyone would get offended... idk though. But anyways. This is not meant to antagonize you (you're one of my best friends on here and i don't tend to antagonize my best friends :P) (well not that much anyway *guilty look at ellie lena arin*). I just wish to say that her post was hardly offensive– to me, at least– and that you don't tell her to leave.

#endofsecondrantythingwhichwasn'treallyarant

yayyy you survived that's really good (*hugs*)
hey you deserve better friends (*coughcoughlikethefabfivemaybecoughcough*0 in your real life but i guess it's good that you survived
oh noooo but english is so fab :c i'm sorryyy good luck
whoo that's good i think you'll get through this i really hope everything goes great and i'm really glad you made it through the first day you're fab mmkay
(*huuuugggssss*) (*celebration and awards and stuff for surviving*) c: you go girl <333

no offense but...why....would u type this......

also high school already seems p difficult compared to middle school but idk i think i can do it.

haven't been on here for awhile
possibly trying to distance myself from sadness bc i'm scared of it
haha i'm such a coward
honestly though other peoples sadness makes me sad and another thing about depression i hate it but i enjoy it ??
idek what i'm saying anymore
maybe it's not actual depression which in that case i'm sorry for thinking i'm sad when i'm not
or maybe i am
but at any rate i'm sort of selfishly glad that the evt isn't just a place for sadness anymore
yeah just shoot me now

where is the mention of silent

also i agree with the other stuff you said i don't really think that that post was that offensive and boredom is kind of an emotion

whenever i antagonize silent it is on purpose

i have no apologies for him

I'm okay, a bit better since school went okay. You?
Tired can be fixed, but being relatively content is really a beautiful feeling.
Ah...she's not offended any of us...? I agree that that post easily could've gone somewhere else but what's the harm...?
(*hugs back*) Thanks, girlie c: My friend is actually pretty cool she just...I dunno...if there's like anyone else at all to talk to, she'll be talking to them, not me. I'm used to it by now, but still, it wasn't fun. But yes my favorite teacher she's really great and I love her and her class. Yes my fan club they are nice (*nods*) ((hahaiwalkedintothatclassandtheywerelike"omglenas ithereiloveyourhairyoulookperfasalways"itwasweirdb utnice))
I hope that'll prove true with my English teacher c:
(*hugs again*) thank you :3
love you too
(*hugs back*) ahh thank you so much i hope stuff works out too and thank you for being so supportive <3

aw good luck with your friend and english teacher :c but hey your teacher for gifted seminar and fan club sound great!! focus on the positive and i know you'll have a great year <3

yay for feeling relieved and content c:

hey i know we don't know each other really well but i really hope things look up for you because from what i've seen you're a lovely person who deserves a lot of happiness in your life <3 hang in there.

that means a lot thank you

white under bc i know some ppl hate talk abt veganism also food tw and weight tw!! its mostly all happy stuff though!! :D

okay so im still transitioning from vegetarian to vegan but i still feel great! i finished watching earthlings today and although i am angry that animals are treated that way, i am also now inspired to help animals and the environment more. i know that being vegan is worth it and even though i am just one person, it will help bc a little bit can actually be a lot (: i am super excited. also getting into veganism has improved my relationship with food a lot!! i used to feel at least a little bit of guilt when i ate food but now i don't have that problem as much. :D

also i have such a hard time gaining weight, but i'm slowly but surely doing it!! in the beginning of the year my weight fluctuated between 89 lbs - 92 lbs and now my weight fluctuates from 96 lbs - almost 98 lbs!! its not that much of a difference i guess but my goal is to get 100 lbs by the end of 2014. gaining 4-6 lbs is a huge accomplishment for me since i have such a hard time gaining weight. !! i'm happy and i'm NOT going to think abt school yet. i'm happy and i'm going to enjoy that while i can.

ahh that's awesome i'm happy for you <3 *hugs* i hope you reach your goal and yes revel in happiness it's a blissful feeling

(although that makes me kind of guilty from transitioning from a vegetarian to an omnivore eheh /mentalsweatdrop)

thank you!!

sorry i dont mean to make anyone feel guilty its just a thing im happy abt

no no it's nothing you should be sorry about its just me XD don't worry about it be haaaaaaappiiiiee

I'm struggling against the burden that is life. I'm tired of seeing everyone get annoyed by me. I watch the dim light of hope ahead and pedal towards it but a friend or relative always pulls it farther.
Even my best friend, my cousin, won't reply to my birthday wish I sent to him.
The waves try to overcome me.
But I don't plan on letting loose.
Not until they know.

Alice honey i'm sorry you feel this way ;-; i know how that is especially the birthday wish thing but please stay safe and be okay we care about you <33
but i do think they should know how you feel about it
and on another note the way you wrote that was very poetic and beautiful i'm sorry i know you probably don't need to hear that /melts into wall