I'm glad someone feels my pain.
To think there are people so homophobic that they don't like Ellen saddens me so much because they're missing out.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EkFewRm_YC4#t=37

Ahh this too.

Yes. Beyond yes.
Also I ship them.
But anyway yes.

Okay so my self-image is way up.
Like I gained some weight, which obviously doesn't make me happy, but in the past I would've gone into depression for like a week for that two pounds and now I'm able to look at myself in the mirror and tell myself that I'm beautiful.
I still struggle a bit but seriously I've improved so much it's kind of amazing.
i don't know guys I'm just really happy.

How do you break off a friendship with someone who is awesome and great but the relationship is just toxic?
She's really cool and we've been friends forever but honestly it's just not a good relationship and it's probably my fault but either way we're two totally different people and it's just more of a habit than a friendship.
And I just kind of cant stand her through no fault of her own its just our personalities clash and I don't think that it's a good relationship for either of us.
(Also sorry I didn't know what other thread to put this on)

You'll be sorry you abused me like that...
You'll see a completely different side of me.
I promise you, you will be surprised, friend.

Screw you :)

haven't cried this much in a while...
maybe i should do my homework.

hey dear you okay? (*hugs and gives tea*)

not really. maybe in the morning
(*hugs back*) mmn just the thought of tea is really nice thanks

YOOOOOOO I JUST HAD FUN PLAYING VOLLEYBALL FOR THE FIRST TIME SINCE TRYOUTS
God bless postseason practices

i'm sorry email me if you want to talk, kay? :c

Stupid Kids at school+Stupid game stupid kids at school made up+Ebola=Anxiety.
Do I need to say more?

why am i sad

i don't like being sad

stupid hormones

actually i'm p sure that my iTunes shuffle list is dictating my mood

up with the birds came on and i started to cry during the second half of it because idek

and then neon river made me pretty depressed too

oh look and now us against the world this'll either calm me down or turn me into a sobbing wreck

welp here i go

Lonelyyyy

All of my friends are on the other team at school and I never get to see them. Every single friend out of my eight good friends except for one. Six of my friends are all together and I don't see them all day and I feel useless and unimportant and paranoid like "oh my gosh they all have new friends now and they are going to forget about me and move on and I'm gonna be friendlessssss" and I'm stuck with all these jerk faces that are the queens of making people feel left out and unwelcome and this is a run on sentence but I don't care because no one liiiiikessssss meeeeeeee.

confrontation makes me want to throw up, cry, and then throw up again

in athletics d is my only good female friend and she's in basketball right now and on co-ed days I have h and dq and r but on girls only days it's gonna be like well fuq whatever im not gonna talk to any of you d's not here so I don't like any of you

childish? yeah sure do I care? no lol

I don't know what to think anymore. Today, I listened to my sister and mother have a fight, hid out in my basement for 2 hours, listened to another screaming match between my mom and sister, sat at the bottom of a staircase hysterically crying while eavesdropping on my parents, and then went soul searching with my family. Oh, and then I did a massive cleanout of my basement. All in all, my day sucked big time... But I think it could lead to some good things.
Sorry I'm being so vague... It was a vague kind of day.

im ssad and anxious and *Throws Up* Lol

school is stressful and you're all gonna fckign laugh @ me because im only in 8th grade but i havent studied i have two tests tomrorow and i cant do anything because im wallowing in self hatred and i want to die hehehe

Life has kinda sucked lately and this morning my kitten died.

haha yeah, i think i just need to accept the fact that i'm a fuck up and won't ever be worth it to anyone and that it's alright to be a waste of space. it really doesn't hurt as much as thinking i'm capable of something and then just falling even further that i had been before vuv

I won't laugh because I'm in eighth grade too and it's super stressful. This may sound super naive, but I got my first b ever this year and that's a really big deal to me, so I understand.

hey Listen Here mon amie.. you are not a fuck up okay... you really aren't, you're an amazing person. you're a great friend, you're intelligent, you're funny, you're awesome ok?? please feel better <3
!!! rip ): it's always super sad when a pet dies... i hope you are okay <3
not sure if AU 8th grade is different to US (i assume you're american but im not sure!)
aw man that sucks ): im sure oyu can bring it back up and feel better about it because grades are important but they don't define you. i got a c on my science report earlier this year but i managed to bring my grade up to an a- and nearly an a!! you'll be okay!


in clay's hypocritical news i got a b+ in a maths test yesterday and i kinda want to die Hehe! funny stuff goodbye

well d didnt have time for basketball so she's still in athletics and since basketball started there have only been co-ed days though I doubt it will last

but I have bigger problems

I wanna eat my feelings. but i'm full because i just went through a whole pack of graham crackers.

AND THEN I SEE EVERYONE ELSE'S PROBLEMS AND WHY THEY ARE SAD AND STRESSED AND OMG YOUR KITTY DIED

AND IT MAKES MY HEART ACHE. I WISH I COULD EAT YOUR FEELINGS TOO. MY CHEST LITERALLY HURTS BECAUSE YOU'RE ALL UPSET AND I CAN'T DO A WHOLE LOT ABOUT IT. GOSH, WHY MUST LIFE SUCK SO BAD. AND WHY CAN'T I EAT MY FEELINGS. LIKE, I LITERALLY HAD CEREAL AND GRAHAM CRACKERS FOR DINNER. I SHOULD BE HUNGRY. I SHOULDN'T HAVE ANY MORE HEALTH ISSUES. I SHOULD BE ABLE TO EAT ENOUGH TO TAKE AWAY ALL OF YOUR PROBLEMS TOO.

HUGS AND KISSES LOVELIES. HANG IN THERE. XOXOXOXOX

nah man i totally get it my depression and anxiety peaked in eighth grade i totally get it bro eighth grade sucks ass
i dunno what to say besides maybe set a schedule for homework and stuff and allow yourself plenty of time for it!! like much more time than you might actually need and also take break to eat a snack or read a chapter or pet a kitty or something you like to do 6u6 and also maybe exercise?? if you want to but idk that has helped me a lot sort of
and if u dare die on me -- even if its like a fuckin accident or some shit--- i will fuckin kill u. i s2fg i will. u dont deserve to feel that way and rly hope you feel better <33
i know that feel bro im so so sorry
yea no i get what you guys mean and it's perfectly understandable to be sad over these things
and yea dont mean to turn it back around to me but i guess im not qualified for the Gifted and Talented program i used to be in for years.....and now im crying lol
well idk it kinda feels better to just accept the fact that im a fuckup bc whenever i get my hopes up about myself i get a reminder that im actually worthless and always crash....... and my parents said that if i crash one more time i wont be allowed to go to france in the summer which is like one of the only things keeping me going rn so ... yea idk. but thanks clay, ur rly rad B)

yea no guys do NOT let grades define you. like yea no you are not what you dont want to be. if you dont want to be your grades u r not them you are not worth your schoolwork yall are so much more intelligent than the grades may say
whatever ur goin through man im sorry and u can always talk about it here ok? <3

So contrary to popular belief I actually have very good control of my emotions, especially anger.

But today my anger management scale (amount of anger managed/hidden/bottled=___%) fell to 20% and dipped to 18ish% for a few minutes. Oops. It took 2-3 hours to recover. I spent like 1 hour like that.

ugh dude, i know how that feels. but you know what? no matter how hard you believe you don't, you really deserve to eat.

if you're doing it to "lose weight", it won't help you. it just screws over your metabolism and makes you gain it all back plus some. if you're doin it bc you want to feel smaller (idk that was a part of it w/ me) or because you feel like you're not worth it, you don't have to worry about that man. you are your own person, okay? as important as you are, you don't really owe anyone anything. you're not too big (physically and figuratively). you're just a human being. no matter what happens, you deserve food. you deserve health. you deserve nourishment. it can be a stressful thing, i know, but just please keep eating, ok? you're the perfect size for this universe and you deserve to eat. stay strong my man *intense fist clench*

what i would suggest is eating a little something every 2-3 hours (or as often as you can, if your schedule doesn't allow that). like, something ranging from a snack to a small meal. that kind of thing keeps your metabolism going, and you don't have to eat that much. i know it feels good to be hungry, but it's really not that great for you if it's excessive. ;-;
dude that sucks ass tho, you ok? im sorry you had to go through that. emotions can be rly taxing themselves. are you alright now? or are you gonna be alright, if you're not now?

that terrifying moment when the plan you've had for your life, the plan you've had since forever, might not be the best decision for you and suddenly you have no idea where you're going.
so high school is fun.

This Life I Live
 

This is pretty much describes how I feel right now: http://www.kidpub.com/book-page-or-c...poem-461147860

I don't know how much longer I can do this anymore. :(

i'm such a mess

ikr I know that feel

Life is terrifying to think about isn't it ;~; But don't stress out about it too much. My brother's graduating in half a year and he has no idea what he wants to do. And if worst comes to work you could take a year off after high school to think about it and get a job to raise money for college or something c:

HAPPY EMOTIONS BC I JUST GOT THE ROLE I WANT iN THE SCHOOL MUSICAL HOLLA

does anyone know where personalities are sold?
cuz yeah i need one of those.

lol i know right