| lvhamsters |
07-15-2014 03:47 AM |
Quote:
Originally Posted by arcticeli
(Post 548378)
My hand still hurts
It’s throbbing actually
And my limbs- - they’re shaking
All I can ask myself is why
Why the fuck was that necessary
It wasn’t necessary
It was an overreaction
Why why why why
I didn’t mean to break the goddamn glass
And of all the things I could have broken
I broke a wedding gift
Because I’m such a fuck up
My voice can get so loud
So so so so so loud
And I yelled at my little brother
And I yelled at my mother
And why why why why
I love them
It was an overreaction I promise
I can’t explain
I can’t explain and so I get mad
Mad mad mad mad
Mad as fuck
I don’t know why
I feel bad
I broke the glass
The glass was a wedding present
Fucking fuck
I broke a fucking wedding present
And all the glass looks sad and shattered now
In a little pile
I didn’t use my fist because I’m a coward
I used a ball
I broke the remote too
Or at least all the batteries popped out and they
Scattered on the floor
My hand still hurts
It’s throbbing a little
And maybe there’s going to be a bruise
I’m all silent
And I have to write a letter that I’ve promised
Myself I’d write every day
I can’t explain myself
Or no one understands or something
And I don’t want to be like every other fucking teenager
Who’s decided that no one cares about them
Because I know people care about me a lot
Who’s decided that no one understands them
Because I know there are people like my mother
Who understand as much as an external mind can
I can’t even tell in my twisted-up thoughts whether
All of that breaking was drama
I feel shaky
Why why why why
I had no reason to break that glass
It was an overreaction
Why why why why what the hell
I can’t convey what I’m trying to say
So I guess my emotions have decided
To just get angry
Because angry is so easy
I yelled at my little brother
I yelled at my mother
I didn’t mean to
It just all came bloodying out
I’m not like this
I’m shaky
Because I didn’t mean to break that glass
Or hit the wall with the palm of my hand
I don’t want my little brother
Remembering his older brother as an angry
Person because I don’t think I am
Oh god what was I thinking
I wasn’t even thinking
I broke that glass
That mirror because it was the easiest thing to break
When I threw the ball a little bit of me
Thought that maybe it wouldn’t even break
But it broke
I was mad
I’m not mad anymore
My hand hurts
And I’m shaky
Why why why why
I don’t know what I doing
It was an argument again
I felt like my character was being attacked
I don’t know
I just want it to stop
We’ve had the same goddamn conversation
Over and over and over and over again
And I’m tired of it
It’s useless
Storming out
I don’t know I’m mad mad mad mad
But why why why why
Did I break that glass
That mirror
What the fuck was I thinking
I’m shaky shaky shaky shaky
I need to wake up tomorrow
So I can figure out how to balance myself
Gahgahgahgahgah
I didn’t mean to break the glass
I want to scream and not in the good way
Wtfwtfwtfwtf
I didn’t mean to break the glass
I broke my computer too
Break break break break
It wasn’t necessary
It was an overreaction
They must all think I’m crazy
Or the fact that I was watching a tv show
My mom didn’t approve of meant a lot to me
My hand hurts
It’s not throbbing as badly anymore
I’m still shaky
Shaky shaky shaky shaky
What the hell was that
That wasn’t me
I was so mad
But what was I so mad at
Gahhhh
I didn’t mean to break the glass
I feel like crying
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Hey, just try to calm down first. Just take some deep breaths and give yourself a little time to think. Not too much time. Please don't overthink.
Everyone get's angry at some point in their life. Who knows, maybe that was your way of releasing something. Anger, maybe. But it could've been something else. Don't be ashamed and don't put yourself down because of it. Maybe you can go and talk to your family a bit and try to explain what went wrong just like you explained it on here. I'm sure it would be a comfort to them just like it would be a comfort to you :) just try to calm down and feel better, okay? We're here if you need to talk! |
