eighth grade was my best year (even w/ the transphobia and my best friend not being there) and hopefully it'll be good for you. (:

thanks guys i really hope that it works out well and i'm sorry you've both had to go through things like that

psssst he is an ass or he has a nice ass
ahaha sorry sorry anyway that is a step up from creeping on older guys
but yeah if he's an ass i wouldn't go crushing on him but all ppl can be asses sometimes and in my experience especially guys so idk what i really know
but anyway

good luck dearieee <333 i'm sure you'll be fab mmkay ilu

what's wrong? whatever it is, it will be okay.

whatever it is, i'm sorry. just hang in there, things get better no matter what the situation.

well 1) you are absolutely not worthless 2) hey you accomplish stuff! you breathe and sleep and walk around and that's pretty dang cool, right? you have dreams and you think. those are accomplishments regardless of however small you think they are. and you can accomplish a lot more cool stuff. and you will. 3) i think most people procrastinate and while it's not a good thing you don't have to crush yourself for it. try to think of good, healthy, positive ways to stop procrastinating. it's something i personally struggle with too, and i'm going to have to work on.

you'll figure out if writing is for you or not. don't force yourself into doing it if you don't want to. if you want to but just have writer's block you can try looking for first sentence generators or things to help you. you can even pick a random word to begin with.

don't cut. you matter. you have worth. right now you are more than what you think you are. to your teachers you are a student with a bright future that they want to help along the way. to your peers you are a person with an individual life story that continues every day. to us here you are someone we care about. to all the people you haven't met yet, you could be a best friend, a life partner, someone they are so glad they met, a kind stranger who smiled at them on the street, and more. so you matter, to people you do know and to people you haven't met yet.




the same goes for all of you. you matter. God loves you. other people love you, like friends and family and peers. we love you here. <3

some ways to feel better are to pray and read the Bible, smile until you feel happy, listen to your favorite positive song, and go outside and drop change on the sidewalk so people will find it as they walk (you can feel good knowing you've made someone else happy.).

you can handle it. you'll be okay. don't worry.

today was fab

i signed up for private acoustic guitar lessons (starting tomorrow!) and downloaded scrivener (this epical writing program) and my dad got coldplay's album 'ghost stories' on my laptop and bought the music video for strawberry swing and aasdfghs i'm sorry but i just wanted to express how fantastic this is

and also this proves the point that there are days worth living for. life is worth living for. yesterday i felt incredibly depressed for the majority of the day (ugh stupid stuff) but today i feel on top of the world. so for all who feel that you'll never be happy, or life is too hard to be worth living: life can be fab. it can also be a bitch, but life can also be fantastic (especially when coldplay's involved xp)

#endofrantything

So, I survived.
Lunch wasn't great because my one friend there ignored my the whole time, but, hey, whatever. She does that a lot.
English was pretty bad, too. I really don't like my teacher - he seems like the type who'll hate me for knowing everything.
But I have my favorite teacher for gifted seminar and she's my case manager as well so that's good c: Also my fan club is in one class with me so I'm not alone there. So, ah, yeah.

Yayayayay lenaaaa
Also just hai.
How're you?
So overall school was okay? c: