The exact same thing happened to me in chemistry last year e.o *shudders* I know how you feel. I'm sorry you had to go through that though DX
But hey, congrats for making it through the first day ^.^ Keep it up!

Thanks (: And what is it with chem xD At least for the rest of the year I'll probably have homework that I can do/pretend to do instead of sitting there awkwardly xD

Hold on, please. <3 Your post made me tear up because I've felt how you feel before. I know it's hard sometimes but one day, you'll going to be happy that you're still alive and you're going to make amazing memories and meet the most amazing people and do the best things with your life and you're going to be so so happy because you deserve it so please, please don't give up now. <3

don't scream at me for not being suicidal or depressing or deep on this thread, but i feel pretty effin' great! i love marching band and i might get a flute solo, i have awesome school friends and classes and i ended up with all the easy teachers, we're swimming in pe next week, my hair looks kickass, and i just completely rejected creepy dude from my bio and french classes and he's probably going to stop stalking me c:
in fact, there is only one thing that can bring me down now.
and that one thing is seeing beautiful, talented, amazing people bash on themselves and threaten suicide.
i haven't had those thoughts for over a week now and it's simply unbearable to see all this venting and ranting from such wonderful people on here.
please don't do this to yourselves.
<3

*watch as no one sees this because it's not a sad rant*

FUCK THIS I CAN'T WRITE SHIT


*throws manuscript in air*

That's great! It's good to see someone on here who is looking up!
I hope things stay this way for you. :)

The thing I'm most scared of if back to school.
My so-called friends treat me like garbage. I'm just a little stuffed toy they can beat up and insult.
Last time I accidentally cut my leg on the corner of the house, and it just felt so refreshing.
And I thought
Will it feel like this if I really cut

idk what i want or where i'm going or what will happen if i just suddenly stop moving forward like my social anxiety has gotten so much better i can actually talk now but i'm just really scared because the last time i felt this secure, my two best friends started to essentially make my life hell and i'm terrified that'll happen again because now that i actually have friends again it's this looming threat and i just don't want to go back to being alone and sad all the time
i dunno what my emotions are doing right now i'm sorry for wasting your time

I'll win even if it kills me, you say? Haha, me too. Seriously. I'll probably destroy myself over this.

To everyone here:
*points at my signature* I did that for you <3
*also points at the post that Camille quoted from me* That too.