fuck jealousy is the worst

ugh first day of school and i'm in a class away from my best friends. i only have one friend in my class and that's it: i barely know anyone else. :/

i feel SO good (:

honestly veganism, yoga, and meditation has done so much for me. i live by "nourish the body, mind, soul, and earth." and all three of the things ive mentioned have done those. i feel so much better living vegan, knowing that i've harmed the earth and animals as little as i can and it helps my body. both veganism and meditation combined have allowed me to taste fruits and veggies more deeply and really enjoy natures foods!! and yoga and meditations also make me feel so at peace and my body feels great whenever i do yoga. i get better sleep and fall asleep RIGHT AWAY after doing yoga+meditation before bed, and all my friends whove known me for a while KNOW i have a super hard time sleeping. i feel spiritually better thanks to buddhism and i just feel way closer to the earth thanks to all three things.

and on a kind of unrelated note, i'm sending positive vibes to everyone who's feeling bad today!! <3

Yesterday wasn't exactly the vest day of my life, y'know?
She kept calling me fat, ugly, and commenting on my physical appearance. I'm trying to starve myself but it never works.
The depression I told her about?
Caused by her.
Her comments?
Not helping at all.
Sure, I was the only person that actually went to her house on her birthday and we played minecraft, but I just feel like a bug that everyone hates.
I look at myself critically everyday and point things about myself.
You know what?
I'm done.

And guess what?
Listening to music at your house equals me not being able to use my phone, huh?
I was doing something really private on there and you had to snatch it.
I resist and you start 'playfully' choking me with your hands. Slapping me?
That's low. Even on your birthday.
Someone like you shouldn't have anybody go to your house.
You made me write emotional letters to you using the notebook I just made at your house. Wow. I didn't plan on writing something like that there.
You kept insulting me and calling me stupid.
I really wanted to curse just then.
But you know I never do that.
I really want to say one F-word
But I don't.

I really just want someone to tell the truth about what they feel about me. Tell me I'm pretty, at least.

you are pretty. really pretty.
you know, i saw a thing once saying that all your best traits are taped to your back, so other people can see them, but you usually can't.
(*hugs*) stay strong. you friend is a bitch.

I just really really hate her.
Choking me? Really? I almost lost all my breath there.
Thank you so much.

yeah, that was low. i can't believe someone would do that - even if it was meant as a joke, that's seriously messed up.