Dude that is totally healthy please don't worry about your weight please you're too young i went down that road honey it is not fun
Relax, okay? Don't under eat don't do anything drastic you're growing and you need food lots and lots of food mmkay i went down that road and I'm still having repercussions and my condition wasn't even extreme but trust me you do not want to start that it is bad.
I'm telling you as someone who has had experience eat eat eat be healthy you're FINE.
You are not obese you are not unhealthy you are beautiful and rad please don't do anything drastic.
Just relax, honey, you're young and you don't have to worry about what you look like, okay?
Trust me once you start worrying about your weight it takes over your life and it doesn't go away easily.

This probably won't help but you don't need to be skinny to be beautiful. Not eating has consequences that are way worse than that extra few pounds. Consequences you probably don't think are important right now but trust me they are. They really really are.
Gosh I suck at this. I sound insincere but I mean it when I say being skinny isn't the most important thing in life. It really really isn't. I don't know if I can change your mind but just lie out and look at the stars or read or write. Do something that lets you see how beautiful life is, and how little and insignificant weight seems compared to galaxies.

I love you all and stay healthy and safe.

i've literally stopped growing in seventh grade but i'm being force fed
oh well

you may have stopped growing but you're still developing and that requires a lot of food.
Who's force feeding you?

My grandmother. She insists I eat unnatural amounts of food when I'm home.
I just want to go back to school and get school lunch. It's better than her gross rice-thrown-with-vegetables-and-possibly-poo gunk. Plus I can control how much I eat.

hm.
I don't know what to say just don't worry about your weight. You're totally fine. Your weight is normal.
If her doing that to you really makes you feel uncomfortable would you feel alright explaining to your grandmother how it makes you feel? I understand if you can't but at some point you should tell her, especially if it's affecting your self image. I don't know but just don't stress about it too much. Or try not to.
Stay safe. Sorry I can't help you much. Just please don't under eat, or get too obsessed over calories.

she doesn't listen at all. she shouts over me and then picks at every part of my appearance and my personality and choices and religion and whatnot and basically the only message i get from her is i'm mostly trash but i'm only decent when i'm obeying her.

All my life I've pretty much had the perfect family and I guess I'm making up for all that now with what's been going on recently. All anyone does is fight so I pretty much stay in my room and ignore everyone and get out of the house and ignore everyone.
Kinda sucks, so I hope that anyone who's been dealing with family issues for a long time now gets in a better situation soon. That doesn't mean leaving the second you turn 18, it means dealing with the issues, even if it's tough. If you leave you may be helping yourself, but it's only going to get worse for those you leave behind.
That's all. Happy holidays.

Nonononono that is exactly the weight that is healthy at that height. Believe me, I've done extensive research because I'm the same height as you xD it's definitely not overweight and if you lost anymore weight, you'd become underweight. Just try not to worry about it, okay? I know it's a very difficult thing to ask, but just keep eating how you are now and try to stay healthy.

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