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meerkat 05-06-2015 06:38 PM

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Originally Posted by strawberry (Post 570421)
punching myself is strangely therapeutic
like even when i don't feel crappy i punch that one spot on my hand and i feel much better
and im entirely too happy about this giant bruise like is it bad that i keep trying to make it worse in the weirdest ways im literally slamming the injured area against blunt, hard objects and biting it (don't worry i don't do this in public) and again punching it like WOW my punches are pretty strong im glad that karate i learned is still with me
strangely enough the harder i punch the less it hurts?? like when i punch lightly ican feel the pain but then when i go all out it's sort of comforting (and even more so if it ends up making the bruise worse)
this probably isn't normal is it
meh

welcome to the squad, crÍpe.
i will punch EVERYTHING when i'm mad. LITERALLY EVERYTHING. IT'S SO SCARY. and then i collapse on the ground in a sweaty and out of breath mess but i'm still raging so i kinda weakly kick the wall and lie down and attempt to sleep while attacking my pillows.
or i play very fast etudes and it drives everyone crazy in a five mile radius and then i collapse on the piano or on my music stand or whatever, or just start improvising things with one hand bc the other one doesn't work.
and as long as you can move your hand and actually use it, you're okay! (I'M A HYPOCRITE NOW OMG I'VE ACTUALLY PLAYED PIANO UNTIL I COULDN'T MOVE MY HAND AT ALL SO YOU'RE A LOT LESS SELF DESTRUCTIVE THAN I GET ON AN ALMOST DAILY BASIS. LIKE EVEN IF I'M FEELING GREAT I WILL PIANO TO THE POINT WHERE I JUST CAN'T DO ANYTHING ANYMORE AND IT'S SO STUPID BUT IDK WHY I DO IT ANYWAYS. IT'S NOT EVEN A STRESS RELIEVER, IF ANYTHING, IT STRESSES ME OUT EVEN MORE XD I'LL NEVER UNDERSTAND PPL WHO PLAY MUSIC AS A STRESS RELIEVER LIKE HOW THE HELL IS ANY OF IT RELAXING)

Cherrybomb 05-06-2015 07:30 PM

okay i'm fucking pissed off at myself right now because i thought this freaking assignment was due tomorrow but noo it was due last fucking week shittttttttt r;lwr;lkamef;lkmasf'lk i'm going to turn it in but gHASLKJDHAJD i can't mess up my grade now what the acutla how tdid i even mix it up why hyw hwy i know why there's just a bunch of due dates i easy mistake but friickck i checked the damn thing at least a dozen times how didn't i catch this fuuuuuukdgoiajf'thissucks i hate this and i don't know what i'm going to do if i get a shitty grade on it over my dumbass mistake goddammit

CosmoCat 05-06-2015 08:22 PM

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Originally Posted by Cherrybomb (Post 570427)
okay i'm fucking pissed off at myself right now because i thought this freaking assignment was due tomorrow but noo it was due last fucking week shittttttttt r;lwr;lkamef;lkmasf'lk i'm going to turn it in but gHASLKJDHAJD i can't mess up my grade now what the acutla how tdid i even mix it up why hyw hwy i know why there's just a bunch of due dates i easy mistake but friickck i checked the damn thing at least a dozen times how didn't i catch this fuuuuuukdgoiajf'thissucks i hate this and i don't know what i'm going to do if i get a shitty grade on it over my dumbass mistake goddammit

i had this several times for lit. The good thing is, it's done and over with so give yourself that much. *weak and v upset high fives for everyone* i just hope ur teacher is better than mine, even though mine has an okayish late policy, the reason all of my assignments are late are because of him

also, i eventually found out that the teacher posted half of said assignments past when they were supposed to be submitted or he didn't make them available to us at all, so sometimes it's nothing u can do a lot about. *shrug* but like i said, you got it turned in! so you did good on that part!

CosmoCat 05-06-2015 09:08 PM

Crap I Was Right. She's Vomiting. I'm Not Going To Leave My Room Like Ever Now. I Don't Even Want To Shower. Please Don't Bring Her With Us To The Doctor. If She Has To Go, Then I'll Stay Home And Wait Another Week To Get More Meds. But Please Don't Put Me In A Car For One And A Half Hours With The Person I Least Trust To Not Vomit Actually Sitting In The Car And Freaking Vomiting. Okay Imma Have A Mental Break Down Now, Goodbye Everyone

meerkat 05-07-2015 01:01 AM

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Originally Posted by CosmoCat (Post 570433)
Crap I Was Right. She's Vomiting. I'm Not Going To Leave My Room Like Ever Now. I Don't Even Want To Shower. Please Don't Bring Her With Us To The Doctor. If She Has To Go, Then I'll Stay Home And Wait Another Week To Get More Meds. But Please Don't Put Me In A Car For One And A Half Hours With The Person I Least Trust To Not Vomit Actually Sitting In The Car And Freaking Vomiting. Okay Imma Have A Mental Break Down Now, Goodbye Everyone

omg i just saw this and you seemed alright on text but i was really lowkey worried the whole time but i didn't wanna bring it up for fear of ruining our amazing conversation and i really hope everything turned out ok and that you got ur meds and she's relatively alright and you don't break down again and ur mental health is on great condition and no one tries to hurt you and asdfghjkl ill just stop now i'm always that one annoying overprotective weirdo im so sorry XD

Emaafre 05-07-2015 08:29 AM

i hate having Asperger's
I hate that I can't function in a normal school because of it
I hate that my disability caused me to hurt someone I cared about
I hate my life
I don't want it anymore

Rodriguez 05-07-2015 08:43 AM

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Originally Posted by Emaafre (Post 570441)
i hate having Asperger's
I hate that I can't function in a normal school because of it
I hate that my disability caused me to hurt someone I cared about
I hate my life
I don't want it anymore

That's pretty deep.
As for me, still awesome as always. XD

CosmoCat 05-07-2015 10:52 AM

apologies for the terrible "advice" TT-TT
 
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Originally Posted by Emaafre (Post 570441)
i hate having Asperger's
I hate that I can't function in a normal school because of it
I hate that my disability caused me to hurt someone I cared about
I hate my life
I don't want it anymore

Hey, it's okay.

I don't know exactly what you're going through right now, so maybe I won't say the right things. But you getting up every morning and even just talking to us on here to let us know about things is a big step and I'm glad you're doing it.

We love you and want to support you, even though we can't all physically be there. I'm sorry you hurt someone, but usually things like that happen for a reason and maybe they were going to hurt you eventually; it will still hurt, but try to focus on making it better or making something new by forgetting that.

You're going to be okay. Your life is going to be amazing! But it takes time, and when that time is up, trust me, you are going to be wiser and stronger than ever before. Maybe this isn't something you feel like you can just "overcome" or maybe it is; whatever you feel, know that you're going to get through this okay. Maybe you will "overcome" it. or maybe you will learn how to live with it instead of it controlling you (because disabilities have a terrible power complex and u don't want that)

So, for now find help by just chatting with us or even finding a support group if you need to. There are suicide chat rooms for lots of countries and maybe even a school guidance counselor can help. But you're going great, and you're going to have a better life, trust me! It's just going to take some patience and it's going to be hard for a while. Once you're through with that, though, everything else will be fine! You'll be more confident in handling it! More people will begin to look up to you because of how much your journey has inspired them! Maybe you can help someone who's going through the same thing, and you can share this knowledge so they don't have to struggle as much.


I don't know if this actually helped, or if makes any sense, but we love you and don't want you gone. We want to you see where life takes you, but we don't want that life to hurt you. Thank you for letting us know about your problem, though, because it can be tough to reach out in any situation. So, here's to hoping for the best and I know you can do this! >u<

XOXOXOXOXOXO Hang in there!

pluzzle 05-07-2015 05:01 PM

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Originally Posted by Rodriguez (Post 570442)
That's pretty deep.
As for me, still awesome as always. XD

hi um? that can come off as pretty invalidating and dismissive so maybe try not to ? do that in the future? like good on ya for going good tho.
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Originally Posted by CosmoCat (Post 570444)
Hey, it's okay.

I don't know exactly what you're going through right now, so maybe I won't say the right things. But you getting up every morning and even just talking to us on here to let us know about things is a big step and I'm glad you're doing it.

We love you and want to support you, even though we can't all physically be there. I'm sorry you hurt someone, but usually things like that happen for a reason and maybe they were going to hurt you eventually; it will still hurt, but try to focus on making it better or making something new by forgetting that.

You're going to be okay. Your life is going to be amazing! But it takes time, and when that time is up, trust me, you are going to be wiser and stronger than ever before. Maybe this isn't something you feel like you can just "overcome" or maybe it is; whatever you feel, know that you're going to get through this okay. Maybe you will "overcome" it. or maybe you will learn how to live with it instead of it controlling you (because disabilities have a terrible power complex and u don't want that)

So, for now find help by just chatting with us or even finding a support group if you need to. There are suicide chat rooms for lots of countries and maybe even a school guidance counselor can help. But you're going great, and you're going to have a better life, trust me! It's just going to take some patience and it's going to be hard for a while. Once you're through with that, though, everything else will be fine! You'll be more confident in handling it! More people will begin to look up to you because of how much your journey has inspired them! Maybe you can help someone who's going through the same thing, and you can share this knowledge so they don't have to struggle as much.


I don't know if this actually helped, or if makes any sense, but we love you and don't want you gone. We want to you see where life takes you, but we don't want that life to hurt you. Thank you for letting us know about your problem, though, because it can be tough to reach out in any situation. So, here's to hoping for the best and I know you can do this! >u<

XOXOXOXOXOXO Hang in there!

THIS!! we love u eren

Rockshadow 05-07-2015 05:35 PM

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Originally Posted by Rodriguez (Post 570442)
That's pretty deep.
As for me, still awesome as always. XD

dude...that wasn't cool...it's not meant to be "deep".


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