welcome to the squad, crêpe.
i will punch EVERYTHING when i'm mad. LITERALLY EVERYTHING. IT'S SO SCARY. and then i collapse on the ground in a sweaty and out of breath mess but i'm still raging so i kinda weakly kick the wall and lie down and attempt to sleep while attacking my pillows.
or i play very fast etudes and it drives everyone crazy in a five mile radius and then i collapse on the piano or on my music stand or whatever, or just start improvising things with one hand bc the other one doesn't work.
and as long as you can move your hand and actually use it, you're okay! (I'M A HYPOCRITE NOW OMG I'VE ACTUALLY PLAYED PIANO UNTIL I COULDN'T MOVE MY HAND AT ALL SO YOU'RE A LOT LESS SELF DESTRUCTIVE THAN I GET ON AN ALMOST DAILY BASIS. LIKE EVEN IF I'M FEELING GREAT I WILL PIANO TO THE POINT WHERE I JUST CAN'T DO ANYTHING ANYMORE AND IT'S SO STUPID BUT IDK WHY I DO IT ANYWAYS. IT'S NOT EVEN A STRESS RELIEVER, IF ANYTHING, IT STRESSES ME OUT EVEN MORE XD I'LL NEVER UNDERSTAND PPL WHO PLAY MUSIC AS A STRESS RELIEVER LIKE HOW THE HELL IS ANY OF IT RELAXING)

i had this several times for lit. The good thing is, it's done and over with so give yourself that much. *weak and v upset high fives for everyone* i just hope ur teacher is better than mine, even though mine has an okayish late policy, the reason all of my assignments are late are because of him

also, i eventually found out that the teacher posted half of said assignments past when they were supposed to be submitted or he didn't make them available to us at all, so sometimes it's nothing u can do a lot about. *shrug* but like i said, you got it turned in! so you did good on that part!

Crap I Was Right. She's Vomiting. I'm Not Going To Leave My Room Like Ever Now. I Don't Even Want To Shower. Please Don't Bring Her With Us To The Doctor. If She Has To Go, Then I'll Stay Home And Wait Another Week To Get More Meds. But Please Don't Put Me In A Car For One And A Half Hours With The Person I Least Trust To Not Vomit Actually Sitting In The Car And Freaking Vomiting. Okay Imma Have A Mental Break Down Now, Goodbye Everyone

omg i just saw this and you seemed alright on text but i was really lowkey worried the whole time but i didn't wanna bring it up for fear of ruining our amazing conversation and i really hope everything turned out ok and that you got ur meds and she's relatively alright and you don't break down again and ur mental health is on great condition and no one tries to hurt you and asdfghjkl ill just stop now i'm always that one annoying overprotective weirdo im so sorry XD

That's pretty deep.
As for me, still awesome as always. XD

apologies for the terrible "advice" TT-TT
 

Hey, it's okay.

I don't know exactly what you're going through right now, so maybe I won't say the right things. But you getting up every morning and even just talking to us on here to let us know about things is a big step and I'm glad you're doing it.

We love you and want to support you, even though we can't all physically be there. I'm sorry you hurt someone, but usually things like that happen for a reason and maybe they were going to hurt you eventually; it will still hurt, but try to focus on making it better or making something new by forgetting that.

You're going to be okay. Your life is going to be amazing! But it takes time, and when that time is up, trust me, you are going to be wiser and stronger than ever before. Maybe this isn't something you feel like you can just "overcome" or maybe it is; whatever you feel, know that you're going to get through this okay. Maybe you will "overcome" it. or maybe you will learn how to live with it instead of it controlling you (because disabilities have a terrible power complex and u don't want that)

So, for now find help by just chatting with us or even finding a support group if you need to. There are suicide chat rooms for lots of countries and maybe even a school guidance counselor can help. But you're going great, and you're going to have a better life, trust me! It's just going to take some patience and it's going to be hard for a while. Once you're through with that, though, everything else will be fine! You'll be more confident in handling it! More people will begin to look up to you because of how much your journey has inspired them! Maybe you can help someone who's going through the same thing, and you can share this knowledge so they don't have to struggle as much.


I don't know if this actually helped, or if makes any sense, but we love you and don't want you gone. We want to you see where life takes you, but we don't want that life to hurt you. Thank you for letting us know about your problem, though, because it can be tough to reach out in any situation. So, here's to hoping for the best and I know you can do this! >u<

XOXOXOXOXOXO Hang in there!

hi um? that can come off as pretty invalidating and dismissive so maybe try not to ? do that in the future? like good on ya for going good tho.
THIS!! we love u eren

dude...that wasn't cool...it's not meant to be "deep".