More than ok
I feel great and I hate commitment

The funny thing is, I'm not strong at all. I nearly puked in front of my whole grade today. An author who went to our school when she was you came to talk to out grade today and she was talking about her life story an de how her sister tried to commit suicide. I was kinda crying and I wanted to vomit. I thought about asking a teacher if i could leave the room, but the door was all the way across the room and I was sitting in the front so I would have to walk in front of my whole grade and in front of the author to leave. So I just sat there.

I wish I could quit you, KidPub.

Seriously, I wish I could fucking leave because I hate this place these days but i'm weak

You ask me when the hell I became like this, didn't you used to be as much of it as the rest of us? When did you betray --homra-- KidPub? I've always been this way it was you who changed You betrayed me first

they always betray me first.

((haha who0ops a little sanity/identity slippage there lmao deluuuuuusion))

Good to hear.

stop not paying attention to me lmao

Is there anything I can do to help?

FRIENDS HELLO I HAVEN'T DISINTEGRATED I AM HERE

I just haven't been on here in a really long time and I missed you guys so here I am. Exciting life events happening to me!! So basically if you didn't know, I'm bi af. Like, just really freaking bi. AND I CAME OUT YESTERDAY. I knew my family would be super chill about it, but of course it was still scary. I'm so glad I did it now!! ALSO I have a boyfriend who makes my life very smiley and sweet. We were best friends before he asked me out, so we already knew everything about each other which made things really easy and comfortable. (side note: he calls me bean and I call him puff and if that isn't thE MOST ADORABLE THING YOU'VE EVER HEARD)

okay. yeah. that's my life recently. it's very exciting. I'm gonna stick around for a little while and try to catch up and see what's been going on lately!! Love you guys, sorry I disappeared <3

oh, stop that. none of that. you are strong. suicide is a very triggering thing already, and for someone who's lost someone to it and is thinking about it, it's even worse. frankly, i'd be worried if you weren't triggered by that. it's all right to be sensitive to some things. darling, that's a sign of strength.

here, i want you to listen to "tangled in the great escape" by pierce the veil, and think of me. it's about self-harm...a lot of that band's songs are, in fact.

I don't know if I can hold on any more. I've gone insane. I would explain, but I cant relive it right now. Man, that's a great song. I really like it.

hey, i know that you wanna hear from madie, but i just wanted you to know that we all believe in you and believe that you can hold on. i'm sorry your life is being sucky, but remember that it's not always going to be. please hold on.