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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 590738)

i know nobody's gonna love me cause im trans

and i know some of yall dont think sex is a big deal but my thoughts are frequently hypersexual and

i'm so so so scared i'm never gonna find anyone that i'm both sexually attracted to and romantically attracted to and they are attracted to me both ways as well

idk if i'm still demiromantic

but i'm so scared nobody i'm attracted to will find me attractive just because i'm trans. and also because i'm trans but i don't fit expectations. i'm a trans guy who also happens to be feminine and i'm so scared nobody will find me attractive because of that .

hi um

first of all a disclaimer: i identify as bisexual because i'm not like gender blind per se, but i am also attracted to folks not in either box. so I guess I'm technically pan in that respect. generally when I talk about bisexual folks, I mean bi or pan.

-first of all just as a bi cis girl, I just wanted to say that I find you hella attractive in every way possible because you're brave and smart and beautiful and really really fucking cool. of course you are into your fellow dudes, of which I am not, but my point is that from a bi/pan perspective, a trans guy who happens to be feminine can totally be attractive as fuck. i'm just taking shots in the dark here, but I'd guess that there are a bunch of gorgeous bisexual boys that are going to fall head over heels for you in every way possible... that's not even counting all the gay boys that are gonna fall for you as well.

i'm cisgender and of course I don't know how you must feel, but from an outside perspective, Elliot, you are kind of a super duper attractive human bean and you're also hella brave and an amazing writer and brilliant with makeup and tbh I do not have the time to list all the reasons why you are fabulous so yeah

when you just get really irrationally pissed at a friend but you're in school so you can't leave and you have the last class of the day

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Originally Posted by otaku (Post 590762)

when you just get really irrationally pissed at a friend but you're in school so you can't leave and you have the last class of the day

dude i relate so much jfc

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Originally Posted by otaku (Post 590762)

when you just get really irrationally pissed at a friend but you're in school so you can't leave and you have the last class of the day

I feel this. But I can't escape people until Thanksgiving and it's awful

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Originally Posted by Frostblaze (Post 590729)

no

nonononono stormy please oh my god i'm so sorry i left you alone i thought you were okay...i was such a fool. i should've checked up on you. is there anything i can do? anything at all? shitshitshit i emailed you today i was afraid this was going to happen.

please listen to me.

don't do this im begging you. im so glad youre alive, im so glad it didn't work. please don't do this to yourself you don't deserve to die!!! look, things are hard, and they suck, but it will get better. i promise you. there are so many people who love you: your grandparents, your dad, your sister, your brother, tyler joseph, josh dun, me, swallowtail, alaska, jesse, snow, hazel, your teachers, your therapist, your classmates, your pets. your mom would not want you to do this. please be okay. please stay alive and stay safe. there is a God out there who loves you and wants to know you. there is a God who sent his son to die for you. you are worth dying for. he would've done it just for you and no one else. please come find me whenever you need me, because i'll be here. i'm not going anywhere, i promise. i'm going to try. we both are. that's all we're going to do, right? please don't be scared to come to me. i will listen and i will help in any way i can. i will stay up with you all night if i must.

Stop. Don't you dare blame your self for any of this. This is not your fault. If I ever do kill myself, you must know that no matter what you did or did not do, it was not your fault. I love you too much, and I NEVER want you to feel like you did anything to cause any of this. Come on, I feel like we should have seen this one coming. I knew it was going to happen. Just a matter of time. Just one more straw. It happened. At least I haven't cut myself in some time.

Swallow~
Thank you so much you have no idea how much this means to me. I love you so much.

Everyone else~
I love all of you so much, thanks for trying to make me feel better

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Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 590763)

dude i relate so much jfc

I'm just so tired and stressed right now that anything can set me off and she practically lights a match like once a day and it's not her fault but it ticks me off so much

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Originally Posted by Swallowtail (Post 590764)

I feel this. But I can't escape people until Thanksgiving and it's awful

I feel. I have a four day weekend this week and I'm glad because i need to be away from others. I am antisocial and mostly introverted and I get drained.

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Originally Posted by otaku (Post 590773)

I'm just so tired and stressed right now that anything can set me off and she practically lights a match like once a day and it's not her fault but it ticks me off so much

I feel. I have a four day weekend this week and I'm glad because i need to be away from others. I am antisocial and mostly introverted and I get drained.

yeah I know somebody who makes me honestly want to throw both of us out of a window so I totally get it
just try not to let her affect you and i know that's super hard but try not to give her that power over you. fuck her, you DESERVE to feel happy and peaceful.

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Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 590775)

idk like we're good friends, she's been my closest for a long time, but recently she's been getting on my nerves a lot idk what it is tbh
honestly it's really mostly me i get affected more by really little things that a lot of people wouldn't notice. But thank you, I do try.

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Originally Posted by otaku (Post 590776)

aw i understand
there's nothing worse than when your closest friend is the one pissing you off or as was my case, being emotionally abusive.. i think it hurts more that way. hang in there friend

im such a fucking idiot i know i have a project worth two major grades due potentially tomorrow and i could potentially fail because of this when ive been somehow passing up until the last freaking day of this grading period and if i dont pass im ineligible for choir stuff and if i cant do choir stuff then bye bye life no more reason to stick around this is literally everything rn and??? i should do this fucking assignment?? but??? i cant bring myself to get out of bed??? my bag is two rooms away?? i hate myself bye