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DragonRider 01-14-2013 04:13 PM

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Originally Posted by cheezemziez (Post 407423)
Dude, you are not allowed to effing die. >_>
None of you are. EVER!
I'm kidding, we all have to die someday. But it'd great if you could postpone the date a little, you know what it does to the traffic.

/SherlockMycroftreference *squee*

Lily09 01-14-2013 04:31 PM

If I die, Cheeze and Emma and Rebecca and Lauren would know from my Facebook.

Lily09 01-14-2013 04:32 PM

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 407456)
If I die, Cheeze and Emma and Rebecca and Lauren would know from my Facebook.

Other than Facebook, the only way you'd know is if i committed suicide and post my suicide note.

Lily09 01-14-2013 04:34 PM

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Originally Posted by cheezemziez (Post 407200)
You are important, Lily. You're very important. You've helped so many of us on just WB alone, and you are our friend. It would matter to us if something happened to you.

Quote:

Originally Posted by DragonRider (Post 407377)
How did I just see this now?
Lily, you are so important to so many people, even if you don't realize it. It would take me YEARS to get over if you did, as I think everyone else you know would. You are NOT clingy. *hugs*
Don't, Lily. Please. *hugs some more* You are awesometastical person. Seriously. It is hard to compete with your awesomeness. *doesn't stop hugging*

Thank you and thanks to anyone else who responded.

DragonRider 01-14-2013 04:44 PM

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 407460)
Thank you and thanks to anyone else who responded.

No problem. We're all here for you.

Also, could you tell Litzy I ninja'd her friend request? I SENT IT FIRST. *evil laugh* ^_^

Lily09 01-14-2013 04:46 PM

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Originally Posted by DragonRider (Post 407468)
No problem. We're all here for you.

Also, could you tell Litzy I ninja'd her friend request? I SENT IT FIRST. *evil laugh* ^_^

XD yeah, sure, I will.

Lily09 01-14-2013 04:49 PM

She said she is looking forward to accept it ^_^

We have 30 minutes of school left though.

L.S.Trendom 01-14-2013 04:54 PM

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Originally Posted by LaurenM (Post 407131)
I wonder how we'd know if one of us died.

I've thought about that, actually…
but I think I'm pretty much set because my mom runs a blog that I'd think she'd post something about my death on, and a few people on KP know of the blog, so.
Quote:

Originally Posted by cheezemziez (Post 407395)
Mostly when people who are active online die, their friends or relatives use their online accounts to deliver the news.

Not if none of them know :p
Quote:

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 407458)
Other than Facebook, the only way you'd know is if i committed suicide and post my suicide note.

that's not an if
it's a no
it's not happening

TheAshWolf 01-14-2013 07:43 PM

so walking is apparently better for depression than meds are
i don't walk much since its hard to, here
i just tried to go on a walk during the warmest part of the day, which was right before sunset
it was still 45 F, which is pretty freaking COLD if you're used to constant 80+ weather like me
i was out for about 40 minutes
and i feel like this right now:

http://media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lwziwefzb91qegw8v.gif

darn it, heater, work better...

TheAshWolf 01-14-2013 07:47 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by LaurenM (Post 407131)
I wonder how we'd know if one of us died.

i keep notes in different places (desktop, inbox, random places in my room) that say if I die or whatever, for someone in my family to log on to my profile on here and post something saying that i died and also say what happens at the end of my stories and stuff so i don't leave my readers hanging.

...so, yeah.

meep.

TheAshWolf 01-14-2013 07:48 PM

SPEAKING OF not knowing...anyone heard from Kay? i sent her a message a few weeks ago, but she hasn't responded...

L.S.Trendom 01-14-2013 07:51 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 407708)
so walking is apparently better for depression than meds are
i don't walk much since its hard to, here
i just tried to go on a walk during the warmest part of the day, which was right before sunset
it was still 45 F, which is pretty freaking COLD if you're used to constant 80+ weather like me
i was out for about 40 minutes
and i feel like this right now:

http://media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lwziwefzb91qegw8v.gif

darn it, heater, work better...

wait… are you on vacation or something?
and why are you not using capital letters?
and are you depressed right now? D:

L.S.Trendom 01-14-2013 07:56 PM

and, no, I haven't seen Kay in quite a while…

CACrools 01-14-2013 08:06 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 407708)
so walking is apparently better for depression than meds are
i don't walk much since its hard to, here
i just tried to go on a walk during the warmest part of the day, which was right before sunset
it was still 45 F, which is pretty freaking COLD if you're used to constant 80+ weather like me
i was out for about 40 minutes
and i feel like this right now:

http://media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lwziwefzb91qegw8v.gif

darn it, heater, work better...

45 is cold?! Oh gosh, how I wish it was 45... You're in one of the states that got hit by the cold front, didn't you?

Jesse 01-14-2013 08:07 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 407708)
so walking is apparently better for depression than meds are
i don't walk much since its hard to, here
i just tried to go on a walk during the warmest part of the day, which was right before sunset
it was still 45 F, which is pretty freaking COLD if you're used to constant 80+ weather like me
i was out for about 40 minutes
and i feel like this right now:

http://media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lwziwefzb91qegw8v.gif

darn it, heater, work better...

We're gonna get negative eight degrees soon. :/

TheAshWolf 01-14-2013 08:17 PM

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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 407720)
wait… are you on vacation or something?
and why are you not using capital letters?
and are you depressed right now? D:

what? no, i went back to school on tuesday. this is just what the desert i live in is like. bleeping hot in the summer, bleeping cold in the winter (even though it doesn't last very long). it's been getting to be 23 F at night, actually, which hasn't happened since the 80s. all the non-native plants are all either dead or badly damaged from the nightly frost, too...which doesn't help my mood...TREE HUGGER, HERE...derp.

i'm surprised you noticed i wasn't using caps. 0_0 meh, my fingers were numb at first, so i didn't bother with the caps or shift key. now i'm just being lazy and kinda apathetic.

yeah, i've been depressed all day long. the walk actually helped, though. also my dog is comforting me. (he went on the walk, too...gosh, he cracks me up...he totally didn't notice this random cat until we were five feet away from it, and he just went crazy...haha....)

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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 407723)
and, no, I haven't seen Kay in quite a while…

:^/ That's what I figured.
Crap, now I'm worried. D:
I had this dream last night....SIX dreams, actually, all with the same theme...hearts. In each dream, I either (a) I needed an artificial heart, and had to go to this creepy clinic place to learn about and choose which procedure to have done, (b) I already had my heart removed and an artificial one put in, but they wouldn't tell me what they did with my heart once they removed it, so I had to search through this creepy hospital to find it, or (c) someone stole my heart (think Once Upon a Time) and I needed to go find them and steal it back. e_o I seriously woke up after every dream and felt my pulse to make sure I actually still had my heart.
MY POINT: All this creepy random heart business reminded me of Kay. Since, y'know, she's been having all those heart problems and might need a new one in the near future.

Meh. Imma go send her another message.

MaryElizabeth 01-14-2013 08:19 PM

I have terrible social skills, even though I'm an extrovert. I act like I don't care about having little to no friends, but it's not necessarily fun, like when those who have good hearts pity me. It's just lonely, especially when all those other people walk by with five best friends hanging around them.

TheAshWolf 01-14-2013 08:20 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by CACrools (Post 407730)
45 is cold?! Oh gosh, how I wish it was 45... You're in one of the states that got hit by the cold front, didn't you?

yep. x_x

Quote:

Originally Posted by Jesse (Post 407732)
We're gonna get negative eight degrees soon. :/

O_O Holy mother of sanity...

MaryElizabeth 01-14-2013 08:21 PM

I used three-fourths of today's 750 words to write out a fantasy of my first day at Interlochen. :P There was momentary happiness, but when I finished...Look, I'm not depressed, just a little...tired.

CACrools 01-14-2013 08:27 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 407742)
yep. x_x



O_O Holy mother of sanity...

Be thankful that it's not in the single digits...

TheAshWolf 01-14-2013 08:31 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by CACrools (Post 407746)
Be thankful that it's not in the single digits...

trust me, i am. O_O

CACrools 01-14-2013 08:35 PM

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 407748)
trust me, i am. O_O

So, besides being cold, how are you?

TheAshWolf 01-14-2013 08:38 PM

...

i'm broken.
they broke me.
(not like crushed broken, or like a broken horse or whatever, but like...pushed a wind-up toy off a table broken.)
that's why i've been acting so strange.
that's why i go from angry to apathetic to depressed in minutes.
i thought i was fixed, yesterday, since i actually felt happy.
now i feel bad again.
...
.....
........meh.
i think i just need a hug. cyber hugs are nice and all, but i feel like i need a real hug.
but there's no one to hug.
._.
then again, a hug might not help...i seriously feel like the song Lonely right now.

bleh.

TheAshWolf 01-14-2013 08:39 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by CACrools (Post 407750)
So, besides being cold, how are you?

meh, i don't know. mixed feelings.

CACrools 01-14-2013 08:44 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 407754)
...

i'm broken.
they broke me.
(not like crushed broken, or like a broken horse or whatever, but like...pushed a wind-up toy off a table broken.)
that's why i've been acting so strange.
that's why i go from angry to apathetic to depressed in minutes.
i thought i was fixed, yesterday, since i actually felt happy.
now i feel bad again.
...
.....
........meh.
i think i just need a hug. cyber hugs are nice and all, but i feel like i need a real hug.
but there's no one to hug.
._.
then again, a hug might not help...i seriously feel like the song Lonely right now.

bleh.

*hugs* or hug yourself, that always helps me a bit...
Quote:

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 407756)
meh, i don't know. mixed feelings.

Hey, on a weather note, in the summer, we have 100* days occasionally, and now we have like 5* days... you aren't as bad as WI...

L.S.Trendom 01-14-2013 08:44 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 407738)
what? no, i went back to school on tuesday. this is just what the desert i live in is like. bleeping hot in the summer, bleeping cold in the winter (even though it doesn't last very long). it's been getting to be 23 F at night, actually, which hasn't happened since the 80s. all the non-native plants are all either dead or badly damaged from the nightly frost, too...which doesn't help my mood...TREE HUGGER, HERE...derp.

i'm surprised you noticed i wasn't using caps. 0_0 meh, my fingers were numb at first, so i didn't bother with the caps or shift key. now i'm just being lazy and kinda apathetic.

yeah, i've been depressed all day long. the walk actually helped, though. also my dog is comforting me. (he went on the walk, too...gosh, he cracks me up...he totally didn't notice this random cat until we were five feet away from it, and he just went crazy...haha....)



:^/ That's what I figured.
Crap, now I'm worried. D:
I had this dream last night....SIX dreams, actually, all with the same theme...hearts. In each dream, I either (a) I needed an artificial heart, and had to go to this creepy clinic place to learn about and choose which procedure to have done, (b) I already had my heart removed and an artificial one put in, but they wouldn't tell me what they did with my heart once they removed it, so I had to search through this creepy hospital to find it, or (c) someone stole my heart (think Once Upon a Time) and I needed to go find them and steal it back. e_o I seriously woke up after every dream and felt my pulse to make sure I actually still had my heart.
MY POINT: All this creepy random heart business reminded me of Kay. Since, y'know, she's been having all those heart problems and might need a new one in the near future.

Meh. Imma go send her another message.

Oh… I assumed that you were somewhere else and the cold was depressing you xP
D:

I was actually kind of surprised at first, so…

aw, I'm sorry D: I wish I could make you feel better… *Hugs* I'm glad your dog is helping.

:/ I really really hope she's okay…

Quote:

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 407754)
...

i'm broken.
they broke me.
(not like crushed broken, or like a broken horse or whatever, but like...pushed a wind-up toy off a table broken.)
that's why i've been acting so strange.
that's why i go from angry to apathetic to depressed in minutes.
i thought i was fixed, yesterday, since i actually felt happy.
now i feel bad again.
...
.....
........meh.
i think i just need a hug. cyber hugs are nice and all, but i feel like i need a real hug.
but there's no one to hug.
._.
then again, a hug might not help...i seriously feel like the song Lonely right now.

bleh.

maybe you are broken.
but you're still amazing despite that.

:/

christinamoore 01-14-2013 09:07 PM

I am frustrated.
First, I arrive back at school last night to a freezing room and no hot water.
Second, I realized I forgot to pack towels, soap and my Pajamas.
Third, I read my syllabi today and I'm like freaking out with all of the reading...
I'm in a literature class on top of two intro classes, a history class and a presentations class...
Aaaaaaaaa!!
Also I really am worried about someone.

L.S.Trendom 01-14-2013 09:09 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by christinamoore (Post 407777)
I am frustrated.
First, I arrive back at school last night to a freezing room and no hot water.
Second, I realized I forgot to pack towels, soap and my Pajamas.
Third, I read my syllabi today and I'm like freaking out with all of the reading...
I'm in a literature class on top of two intro classes, a history class and a presentations class...
Aaaaaaaaa!!
Also I really am worried about someone.

aww, I'm sorry about the first two D:
I think you can handle the classes. I haven't talked to you a lot but you definitely seem smart and awesome.
I hope they're okay…

christinamoore 01-14-2013 09:18 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 407022)
Does anyone else feel like they are unimportant?
Like, you have people that honestly DO care somewhat about you. You mean at least a little bit in someone's life, but if you passed, they'd be over it in a few months. You mean something, but you never mean enough. You never affect the person at all. You don't mean as much to them as they did to you. You aren't someone's lifeline. You are just some clingy person who is desperate for someone to care. You're not a big part of anyone's life. Just a background character. It's not like they'd care too much if you die.

no lily stop it dont think like this


Lily you are amazing and you deserve to live.
Do your best to not think like that.
Try writing down the good things of every day in a journal or something. I know that helps me, try looking at the small great things (that we always seem to overlook) like the beauty of nature you get to see every day etc.

christinamoore 01-14-2013 09:23 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 407780)
aww, I'm sorry about the first two D:
I think you can handle the classes. I haven't talked to you a lot but you definitely seem smart and awesome.
I hope they're okay…

Thanks.
I just think of everything as this big huge mass of things I have to do and well, that is scary...
I'm told to break it down in my head but I have no idea how to do that, I've tried but it just is really hard for me for some reason.

I hope they are okay too...

TheAshWolf 01-14-2013 11:03 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 407759)
Oh… I assumed that you were somewhere else and the cold was depressing you xP
D:

I was actually kind of surprised at first, so…

aw, I'm sorry D: I wish I could make you feel better… *Hugs* I'm glad your dog is helping.

:/ I really really hope she's okay…


maybe you are broken.
but you're still amazing despite that.

:/

O_O Okay, so, I just watched this short film thing (lol I dunno, I blame Vsauce for showing it to me), and the first lyrics of the song that played during the credits was "synthetic heart...with a lifetime guarantee..." THE UNIVERSE LIKES MESSING WITH ME, DOESN'T IT? XD XD DX DX o_e

Anyway.

*glomps* You...you're just....you're the best, Tredom. ;w; Thank you so much.

Sandy 01-14-2013 11:35 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 407754)
...

i'm broken.
they broke me.
(not like crushed broken, or like a broken horse or whatever, but like...pushed a wind-up toy off a table broken.)
that's why i've been acting so strange.
that's why i go from angry to apathetic to depressed in minutes.
i thought i was fixed, yesterday, since i actually felt happy.
now i feel bad again.
...
.....
........meh.
i think i just need a hug. cyber hugs are nice and all, but i feel like i need a real hug.
but there's no one to hug.
._.
then again, a hug might not help...i seriously feel like the song Lonely right now.

bleh.

Oh, Ash... <:^C Oh, Ashley, Ashley, Ashley...
I wish I could find something to say to you. I wish I could find some way to make you feel better, to make you feel less alone--because in the end, we're all shattered in different places of our hearts--but I honestly have no idea. If this were real life, this would be when I give up on words--I really don't use them a lot in real life--and give you a hug.
Whatever sadness you're feeling, Ash, I'm feeling it too.
(Oh gawd, suddenly I sound like Charlie. ._. Never mind... er... this is why I don't talk in real life. *facepalm*)
Maybe not to the same extent, but as much as I can over the internet.
I really don't know what to say or how to react, though; I wish I did.

I guess all I can do is do my best to make you feel like you're not alone. I'm always having weird dreams like the ones you mentioned. I can't tell you the countless times I'm sure I need a new "heart", which I've known for a long time, or when I've needed a new mind. Ugh... I... I don't know. I should probably just click "submit reply" and leave it at that. I'll respond to your emails; I hope I can help somehow, even just a little bit.

TheAshWolf 01-14-2013 11:50 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Sandy (Post 407890)
Oh, Ash... <:^C Oh, Ashley, Ashley, Ashley...
I wish I could find something to say to you. I wish I could find some way to make you feel better, to make you feel less alone--because in the end, we're all shattered in different places of our hearts--but I honestly have no idea. If this were real life, this would be when I give up on words--I really don't use them a lot in real life--and give you a hug.
Whatever sadness you're feeling, Ash, I'm feeling it too.
(Oh gawd, suddenly I sound like Charlie. ._. Never mind... er... this is why I don't talk in real life. *facepalm*)
Maybe not to the same extent, but as much as I can over the internet.
I really don't know what to say or how to react, though; I wish I did.

I guess all I can do is do my best to make you feel like you're not alone. I'm always having weird dreams like the ones you mentioned. I can't tell you the countless times I'm sure I need a new "heart", which I've known for a long time, or when I've needed a new mind. Ugh... I... I don't know. I should probably just click "submit reply" and leave it at that. I'll respond to your emails; I hope I can help somehow, even just a little bit.

(On a totally random note, I always feel kind of strange--not bad strange, just...strange--whenever someone on here calls me Ashley, since in recent times everybody on here usually just calls me Ash, and off the computer everyone usually just calls me Ashley. I dunno, it just seems odd how that's worked out...kjbdfkjabkfd POINTLESS RAMBLE. XD Meep. :^I)

No, Cass, it's okay...oddly enough, just knowing that you wish you could help me actually DOES help me. O_0 <:^J

I know I'm not alone...it's just........oh, whatever. It doesn't matter. I'm being too darn dramatic. >_<

Point is, I know I'm not alone. Deep down, I know it, even though I feel really alone sometimes. I have what's left of my family, and I have my KP family. Which includes you. You honestly DO help me a lot more than you know, just by making me laugh and bothering at all to click "Submit Reply" even if you don't know what to say. And hey, don't worry. XD Sounding like Charlie is fine. (SEE? That made me smile when I read that. I haven't smiled at all today.)

maxi 01-15-2013 03:00 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 407754)
...

i'm broken.
they broke me.
(not like crushed broken, or like a broken horse or whatever, but like...pushed a wind-up toy off a table broken.)
that's why i've been acting so strange.
that's why i go from angry to apathetic to depressed in minutes.
i thought i was fixed, yesterday, since i actually felt happy.
now i feel bad again.
...
.....
........meh.
i think i just need a hug. cyber hugs are nice and all, but i feel like i need a real hug.
but there's no one to hug.
._.
then again, a hug might not help...i seriously feel like the song Lonely right now.

bleh.

Why you be writing in lower case? This is not the Ash I know. o_O
;_; You're making me cryyyy.

bookworm1999 01-15-2013 03:18 AM

Ashy!!!!!!!!!!
I don't care if you don't want a cyber-hug, I'm giving you one anyways XD
*glomp*

LaurenM 01-15-2013 09:38 AM

My cough's finally subsided! /touchwood. YAYZ!

AlgebraAddict 01-15-2013 09:42 AM

It's a snow day. :D

TheAshWolf 01-15-2013 12:17 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by maxi (Post 407929)
Why you be writing in lower case? This is not the Ash I know. o_O
;_; You're making me cryyyy.

My fingers were frozen from going on a walk when it was cold, so I didn't bother with the Caps Lock key or the Shift key while typing. Also I was feeling lazy.

Nooooo don't cry!! D: *hugs* I'm okay, now. Just had a bad day. Don't worry. <:^J

Quote:

Originally Posted by bookworm1999 (Post 407945)
Ashy!!!!!!!!!!
I don't care if you don't want a cyber-hug, I'm giving you one anyways XD
*glomp*

Awwww, thanks, Kendra. ^_^ *glomps back*

shadowtide 01-15-2013 12:29 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 407458)
Other than Facebook, the only way you'd know is if i committed suicide and post my suicide note.

*Random addition to conversation from yesterday
I think my sister might log on and say if I died. I'm not sure though, she hasn't been on KP in quite a while.

rebecca 01-15-2013 01:20 PM

Your sister? I heard this one before, but go on, who is she?


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