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Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 504060)

hey honey

grades don't matter

what your mom thinks doesn't matter

and it's okay

just do what you can

and don't push yourself

and it's okay to give up on stupid things

but not life

and not you

thank you sweetheart
i really dont deserve that

because hey guess what
i blew off the essay in favor of watching glee
and now im gonna do it tomorrow morning
and during my lunch period at school
and ill have no sources
and no nothing to help me
im really fuckin dumb
now off to pretend like im printing something and then finally i get to go to bed

lmao i can already see it all my grades are dropping slowly but steadily my report cards will get lower and lower and eventually my parents will confront me and i will have nowhere to go nowhere to run nowhere to hide and no more excuses to make and will be confronted by myself with what a shitty person i am

what the fuck am i doing with my life
im a stupid fucking inconsiderate overreacting BITCH
what the fuck
im just so sick of being myself

oh my fug nanowrimos already

i haven't written in over three months i am ashamed

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 504067)

*whispers* if youre such a shitty person then why do i think you're so great and why do i love you so much
*hugs* school sucks

Whelp.
I was just talking to my counselor today about how I haven't really been "feeling the heat" for volleyball tryouts and then BAM THERE IT IS. RIGHT HERE. I feel like I'm going to vomit and cry at the same time.

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 504067)

But you're not a shitty person

And i know it doesn't feel like it

but no one gives a shit about grades

i mean

they're numbers and letters that you get in high school when you write down crap on paper

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Originally Posted by Arin (Post 504268)

oh my fug nanowrimos already

i haven't written in over three months i am ashamed

I felt the same way at the beginning of the month. xD

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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 504271)

*whispers* if youre such a shitty person then why do i think you're so great and why do i love you so much
*hugs* school sucks

idk man love is weird thoughts are weird
*hugs back* indeed it does

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Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 504285)

but my parents give a shit about grades very much
and i want my grades to be good for them
so that theyre not mad at me
bc theres nothing worse than people being mad at me
so

i grew up being told i could be anything i wanted, but thats the biggest lie we grow up with. because i was born a girl i /have/ to be a straight cis girl. i /have/ to wear makeup and be ladylike. im not allowed to stand up for my or anyone elses rights. wearing a waistcoat and tie and black trousers at an event where all other girls are wearing long dresses and all the boys are wearing jeans shouldnt be a reason to make me feel bad - yet of course, it does. and when i ran across the room to change the song when blurred lines started playing i shouldnt have been booed and called a feminazi and told to stop being such a femenist because feminism is a 'ridiculous and useless cause'. and i shouldnt be forced to behave ladylike and not be such a geek simply because i am physically a girl. and i hate it when everyone constantly makes sex references or talks about flirting and 'getting the d' jfc you can see its making me uncomfortable dont fucking /continue/. stop judging me on how i look. how about you actually get to fucking know me before you start all your biased comments. fuck you all i hate you why do i know so many shitty people.
dad, this is directly aimed at you: shouting at me and telling me i could only be a straight cis girl after i tried to tell you im an ace enby doesnt fucking help. and dont tell me to stop being a feminist because it was getting 'over-the-top' - youve never experiences sexism or been sexually harrassed like ive been. you dont fucking know anything about me. i hate you and your judgemental small mind so fucking much.
and mum: im not 'taking advantage' of nice teachers who let me off homework - i actually cant do the work. dont tell me im a liar and that stress is good for me - you dont fucking know me and i fucking hate you too.
wow this evening was okay at first now i just want to die.

also im not only in a lot of emotional pain but also guess what fucking eds is acting like a complete bitch today so i feel like my body has shattered and its beyond the normal pain why the fuck am i so damaged ive taken a painkiller but its not working and im crying because no matter how i lie down there is pain somewhere im not going to be able to sleep tonight i guess yay
i need a real hug so badly rn but that would hurt more ugh fuck you body fuck you ehlers-fucking-danlos syndrome i wish i wasnt such a waste of space

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 504364)

idk man love is weird thoughts are weird
*hugs back* indeed it does

but my parents give a shit about grades very much
and i want my grades to be good for them
so that theyre not mad at me
bc theres nothing worse than people being mad at me
so

yes there is something worse than people being mad at you

you being mad at you

just don't let that ever happen

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Originally Posted by DragonRider (Post 504378)

oh my god I'm so sorry *hugs* yes people are bitchy and sexist to everyone who doesn't conform. but if you don't, that doesn't mean that you are a waste of space. in your case it means you're freaking awesome. but as I know, when you're awesome, people will give you crap because they're afraid of you and how much you can accomplish. Don't take it personally.