No. NO. NOOOOOOOOOO. *hugs*

I wish I could meet you in real life because you sound like a cool friend and I feel bad for the people that don't appreciate you enough. I'm serious, you are an awesome person and, maybe they don't need to know everything you're going through right away, but they need to step up an realize how wonderful of a person you are. It's not your fault they can't understand, so please hang in there (and keep yourself safe, okay. no infections or too much pain - i don't fully understand your situation either, but I just want you to be...okayish if you can manage that.)

What happened? D: you should definitely go and talk to those one and a half people right now since you feel like that. If they don't know already, you should tell them how your feeling. I think it could really help to just get a hug from someone you love v.v i really don't know what to say :( just please please please stay strong for as long as you possibly can :c it's possible time will heal what's happened....if you ever need to talk just message me on skype!!! Stay strong and remember we're always here to talk to you <3

What happened? D:

I just had a shitty day. Caught up in something that is long gone history, school stress, general pissed off-edness. I'm kind of feeling better now though.
Thanks for asking. :)

I'm really sorry :c that sucks. But hey, school's almost over and hopefully you can get away from whatever is making you angry ^^ as for the history, sometimes it comes back and bites you but it will go away soon enough v.v until then just hang in there!! Glad your feeling betterish!!
No problem ^^

im sad and i hate myself
i wish i knew unconditional love
like fuck so many people talk about it and like what's it like that sounds so nice
but nah i'm probably just gonna flail through life and maybe think i can make it a few times
but no then things are going to fall apart
i'm going to lose everyone
i'm going to fuck everything up
i'm going to be alone
i won't have any family to return to, 'cause there is literally no emotional connection between us let alone unconditional love
i'm gonna keep going for a while, thinking maybe things will get better
and then they're not
and then i'm gonna kill myself
and no one will even really notice
or maybe i'll become an even worse person but ill retain enough morals to off myself
but literally i can't really see myeslf dying of natural causes, just suicide

(*too lazy to multiquote and shit*)
(*hugs everyone very tightly*) ily guys. please try your hardest to make it through whatever you're going through with as few scars as possible. please try not to relapse. listen to music that will make you feel better. watch a cute movie or tv show. stay strong, friends <33 i love all of you and want you to feel better and will do whatever i can to help. (*hugs again and gives cookies and blankets to everyone and drags you into pillow fort of happiness*)

((also if u want something to make you smile, u should watch ouran high school host club bc it's a delight and a jewel in the world of anime and also very fluffy and has never failed to make me smile so))



((((inothernewsifeelshittynothingunusualtherehahah ahanvmsorryillshutupnow))))

It's okay to be sad. It's okay to make mistakes. But, Isaac...you shouldn't hate yourself!!! I can totally understand how you're afraid of losing people. I've lost more people in the last few years than I have lost in all the previous years combined. And it hurts like hell. The knee-jerk response is to assume you'll always be alone, and that you'll always lose people. But, buddy...that isn't true, at all. You still have your friends, even though you may have lost one. Remember, you said that there's still more than one person you can say "I love you" too!!! And that means you're NOT alone!!! Even if you didn't HAVE that person, you're STILL not alone. There are many, MANY people who love you. Even if you don't love them back, they're still there, and desperately want you to be happy. I understand how you feel, but, you don't need to feel like this. You CAN and WILL feel better.

Things may fall apart now and then. But, you've lasted this long...don't give up, now!!! Remember how good you've felt in the past few months! You CAN and WILL succeed in life, if you just give yourself the chance. Don't deny yourself of your entire LIFE, please...please, don't. ;__; Try to remember that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. You feel horrible now, but, you'll feel better if you give it time. You WON'T always be alone, I promise you that. And, even if you were alone (which you're not), you can still live and enjoy yourself without a ton of other people around you. I know that sounds hard to believe, but, it's entirely possible. BUT, like I said, you WON'T be alone, and you're NOT alone right now.

Please, don't think about death right now, if you can resist. Being unable to believe you'll die of natural causes does NOT mean you should/will die another way.

You WON'T become a worse person!!! You're beautiful and kind and loving and caring and funny and smart and fantastic to begin with. That's how LITERALLY EVERYONE on here sees you, and I'm sure that's how your friends and parents see you, too! The thing about people though, is that they can change. No matter the issue, no matter what's happening, people can choose to give themselves another chance. Please, Isaac....I love you, and so does a TON of other people. Please don't do this to yourself. It's okay to be upset, it's okay to cry, it's okay to feel numb or sad or angry. But, just, please...don't do anything rash. Give it some time, please.

me
NO DIE
NO DO NOT
NO LIERALL THRJKDN NO
jesus christ thank god they didn't chase you. i hope you and your friend are okay :c

i don't see why i shouldn't though. i'm still broken and fucked up and empty and i still fuck up and i'm still a shitty stupid person
(me and sam are still friends just… i think we're gonna take a break. and no more saying i love you which sucks bc that's like literally my favorite thing ever)

but like literally my entire plan for life is based on running away from adult life how am i gonna survive and succeed
tbh the fact that it's a permanent solution sounds kinda nice tho
i could see myself ending up alone though. i'm going to travel a lot. so i'll be way far removed from any friends i had. so. i don't think i could enjoy myself for long without friends, even if i wanted to

i'm tired of not thinking about things though i feel like i have to confront all of this.

i feel like i'm already starting to become a worse person tbh. for example what happened with sam and other morally not good decisions. haha one time my parents literally said "why don't you try caring about people as much as you care about books". my parents don't see me like that. p sure my mom just sees me mainly as something to control.
if by rash you mean suicide then yeah i won't.

thank you omg *tackle hugs*