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Originally Posted by Athenabrain1 (Post 558872)

you don't mess things up
I promise
you're amazing and everything you never thought you were
you deserve all the attention you desire because you're really really worth it
you don't scare people
I promise okay

thanks <33

you know what forget this

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Originally Posted by lvhamsters (Post 558857)

Tomorrow's day one of school and I just spent an hour listening to Mayday Parade and crying because my worst fear is being alone and having people leave me and that's exactly what's happening this year. It's been bad in the past years but this year will be the worst. Even my best friend of 13 years will be leaving. Everyone. I refuse to take this lightly as everyone says. "Everyone leaves eventually" or "its part of life". It's true but I'm sick of people saying it so lightly. It does leave emotional scars and it hurts. And everyone's leaving at once.
Being alone is the worst.

Aww dear *hugs* *hands cookie*
I know exactly how you feel, I do. And I'm not naïve enough to think that anything I can say can make any of this better for you, but I just want you to know that you're an amazing person and anyone would be lucky to be friends with you. Keep your chin up <3 Maybe there'll be a new person in your classes and you'll become best friends, or maybe there's someone out there feeling exactly like you at the moment. Just know that life is a balance and you can't have the good without the bad and vice versa but in the end, eventually everything will even out <3

i can verbalize my thoughts and feelings alone in my room but I can't write them down
and when i start thinking about that and it in general i can't say it or even think it anymore it's just a swirling mass in my head
are these even my feelings
i'm so confused
what's going on

why can't i write
why can't i be acknowledged
why can't i go anywhere
why can't i have dreams
why can't i know where i'm going, too
why can't i know anything
why can't i have a concrete feeling
why can't i think
why can't i
why can't i
why can't i

why can't i cry anymore
doesn't crying make it feel better
forget never shedding tears for another person
forget it's wrong to openly cry honest tears

don't some say that if a person can't cry, they are weak
am i really that weak?

today went worse than I originally thought. There's no one in any of my classes that I'm friends with or that I want to be friends with. They're the one's who don't care about education and spend the entire class periods being bullies or disrupting class. The only friend I have at school right now abandoned me at lunch so now I'm just gonna spend lunch time sitting in the library. Loneliness is just worse when you remember the feeling of having someone there for you. It's also worse when your surrounded by people who have people there for them and they notice that your alone and assume that something must be wrong with you for you to not have friends. I'm already quiet and can't make friends easily at all. They just make it worse. Anyways I cane home upset and my mom actually noticed so I told her about it and she said she'll put me in online school. She called my best friend's mom to ask about online school (cause my friend doest go to the high school either because of that) and I guess her mom must've told her what's going on and she sent me a really nice text and I can't stop crying because I realize now that from here on nothing will ever be the same. We're going to lose touch eventually and after 13 years she wont be my friend anymore. It'll be like that with everyone who goes to a different school now. Now I wish I hadn't wished my life away and that I had treasured the time I spent with my friends more. So guys, don't wish your life away. Thats the worst thing you can possibly do. Ever. Sorry for this long rant. Its just been a horrible day and I needed someone to tell.

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Originally Posted by cloudwriter (Post 558891)

Thank you so much for taking your time to say that c: sorry I can't seem to come up with a better reply than this :c