You're just going to have to make your sixteenth year awesome, I guess. *shrug*

Well, I guess I need advice on how not to tear my Qipao/Cheogsam ._.

My dad thinks I have a crush on Stewart-and-Russell. Which is annoying.

They are six inches shorter than I am, are identical twins (Russell's bangs are fluffed up, though, so you can tell the difference), and are two extremely likeable guys. But not that kind of likeable.

He thinks you have a crush on BOTH of them?

I think it's hilarious how some people can talk crap about others, but when someone says something hurtful to them, they go off on this rampage saying how much everyone hates them, blah blah blah. :rolleyes:

I feel so...superficial. Obsessed with my image.
I wear makeup, I do my hair, I buy pretty clothes. I always try to look my best. I feel good when I feel pretty but sometimes it's like it's not enough... there's always someone prettier than me.
It might all be because Purple (code name) goes out with all those girls and they're beautiful, they are absolutely freaking beautiful and it's like, why would anybody choose me over them? No one would. No one would.
It's not like I'm ugly, I know I'm not ugly. I'm okay looking. On some days I feel really pretty. My family and friends call me beautiful.

But it's never ENOUGH. And then I hate myself for wearing makeup and doing my hair and stuff...

A while ago, I was at someone's house. And I'd just gone swimming, so my hair was all thick and curly, and my bangs were all over, and I wasn't wearing makeup and I was just wearing basketball shorts and a tank top and I knew I didn't look good but I felt so accepted. So...good. At ease in my own body and how I looked... like I knew that these people weren't judging me.
I've been trying to create that feeling ever since but I don't know HOW, and it sickens me that I have to rely on other people to feel good about my looks.

Jesus... I feel like a little teenaged b**** but there you go.

Hm... I feel like I know who you are talking about.
If not, ignore this. xD

Hm, I think I know who you think I'm secretly talking about. xD

Then I find that hilarious too... :P

imlosingallmyfriends.