Totally posted this on the wrong thread. XD AHAHAHAHHAHAA.

Depressed. Whoop.
 

Eh, so yeah. -_______-

I'm pretty sure I'm depressed. I took a lot of those tests online and according to most of them, I have "Moderate-severe depression". And that does not sound good.

So let me esplain (as Ricky Ricardo would say):

So first, with my family. The big problem is my mom. I just... ugh. It's really hard for me to talk about it. She literally gets mad at me everyday, and sometimes for the smallest things. I feel like she's just waiting to find the smallest thing to get angry at and then KABLOOEY. And it's just so obvious that she loves my sister more than me. She even told me once. There's just been so many hurtful things that she's told me in her anger that, even though she might not have meant all of them, still hurt me. She's said that she's given up on me, that she wouldn't even like me if I wasn't her daughter, and that I'm a stupid/worthless/dumb pig. She's even hit me a couple times and pinched me and all this. She always compares me to my friends and my sister, so much that after a while I wish that I could be someone else's kid. I literally spend most of my nights crying myself to sleep. And the worst part is that I believe her. I literally think that I'm the worst daughter/sister that anyone's ever gotten and that I don't deserve them.

Next thing is... uh... well, it's kind of awkward. You see, ever since I was a little kid, I've dreamed about the day that I would fall in love and find a boy who likes me for who I am. And that belief's never gone away. I'm not really sure why I'm so obsessed with falling in love and stuff but maybe it's because I don't get enough love from my family? I'm not sure. But, I've just gone through a lot of heartbreak and stuff lately... so... yeah. And one of my friends is going out with this uber sweet guy and just seeing her gushing on and on about him makes me feel depressed and lonely.

Last thing is that I don't have anyone to tell this to. My family, oh gosh, would probably send me off to some therapist or something and I. Do. Not. Want. That. Last thing I want is to be known as That Depressed Kid. My friends all know me as that uber derpy/hyper/cheerful/fun kid so if I even don't talk for a little, they're all like "ERMERGERSH STEPHANIE WHAT'S WRONG?????". I do have this one friend who's super super sweet and is like the best venter ever, but I've gotten this habit where I don't want to tell anyone about my problems because I don't want to be a burden.

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Can you please, please, PLEASE HELP?????? I just feel so lonely and depressed and nothing makes me happy anymore. Thanks.

You have auditory hallucinations?

I'm moderately proud of myself. I got a 31 composite on the ACT ^.^
(or at least I was like vaguely proud until I was around my family then it just faded to numbness)

>_< I'm so stressed. I can't find my calculator and I have a math test tomorrow. What do I do?????? :confused: We're using pi and I need. it. :(

(I'm going to pretend to understand that) Yay! Congratulations!
pridefulness is good. don't let them get you down.

They live in Alaska. :/

Use 22/7 if worst comes to worst. Ask another student not in your class if you can borrow theirs. Or ask the math teacher is she/he has a stash of them in a drawer somewhere. Many teachers do.

Never be afraid to speak your emotions to your friends. That is what they are for. They will completely understand.
Second, if you are being hit, you should probably find an authority. Once is one thing, but several times is unthinkable. Even a teacher could help.
Third, about that boyfriend, falling in love thing. Everyone has that dream.... EVERYONE. (I mean, guys think about girls, but you know what I mean.) Just don't sweat it, love will find you sooner or later, and never in the way you anticipate it. So if you don't automatically befall for someone, don't worry, you will find him sometime.
Never feel alone, you have friends and peers that adore and care for you, so just embrace it. Remember.... KP is always there, and we will always be listening.

Hope that helped,
Have a blessed day...
-Alex

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