Stephiey |
06-23-2013 10:22 AM |
ughhh i don't know what's wrong with me. like, i'm usually fine and happy and dandy but then someone will say something mean and it's just like BAM DEPRESSIOOOONNN... like... am i just a hormonal teenager? i have these periods of sadness and depression and stuff but then i'll get over it and i don't know if i'm overreacting or if somehow my mind finds the idea of me being depressed attractive because it's so overhyped in our society and i'm lonely and want attention buuut.. but... yeah.
and when i'm really really sad i'll get so cold and i'll get a ton of goosebumps and it scares me a lot because i don't know why i do that.
and i'm in china right now visiting family and i spend so much time on the computer because i want to write and i miss america and they probably think that i'm some sort of unsocial freak or something.
my sister is always the good one in our family, the one who is better at dancing and piano and violin and EVERYTHING. like when my mom was showing our dance recital video to our family, she cut me out of most of it saying that since my sister was short she could find her better. and it was so obvious that she was being unfair that my grandma said "oh, but stephanie's good too, right?"
/rant over
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