Oh no honey, that sucks ;n; i hope the rest of your day went better.
Your mom will chill eventually, plus getting back to school will get you away from that environment and summers almost over!

oh btw how are the meds going if you don't mind me asking? Everything good? (You can email me if you don't want to talk about it here, or just ignore me if I'm prying lol )

ive been refusing to take them so yeah that's been weird. my parents are mad about that though so idk. and I still have over a month of summer left (school starts again September 8th I think)
but also now I'm seeing a therapist and that's awful and I have to keep going because I really want to try and study abroad and I was going to start that this summer but my mom told me I wasn't pretty enough to get in to the program and that even if I did get in I wouldn't be allowed to go because I'm not mentally stable enough. so while theres nothing I can do about not being pretty enough if I want a chance at being allowed to try next summer (which will be a lot harder because i'll be older) I will have to meet her bullshit "mentally stable" guidelines which so far seem to be that I have to be on meds for a while, that I can't ever be sad, anxious, or "lazy", that I don't have any scars which is bullshit because I never told her about mine and she never confronted me about them besides from yelling over completely unrelated things, and that I have to be going to therapy for over a year. and I don't know if its even possible for me to continue therapy once I go back to school

when you wake up and your throat feels so weird so you go back to sleep thinking it'd go away and you wake up with a deeper voice. help. I sound like Ty from Grossology now. (doesn't need advice for this I just wanted to let it out :C)

O SNap IM A seniOR MEMBER NOw :oOooo

My best internet friend started annoying me so much now.

After a fight with her friends that came out of no where because I thought they were acting drunk, she kept on trying to apologize and why does she need to, idk.


The last time we spoke was today and rn. She started trying to apologize when I was in the middle of a roleplay. When I told her to go away she said "make me".

I said the only thing I can do is block her for a while because I'm not in the mood. And she said "If you block me I'll unfriend you." I didn't respond. Since I wasn't in the mood and she already knew that she decided to make me even more angry and unfriend me. Idk why?? She's just being retarded for a minute because she wants to keep idiots on her friends list and never have someone just like her on there? I shouldn't call her my bff anymore smh her new friends have made her an idiot just like them.

Waiting and possibly frustration
 

this is only because Luna is on but not posting on my nes... *hintity hint hint hint*

Hey friend! I don't mean to be that person, but I'd really appreciate it if you refrained from using the word 'retard'. Thank you!

On account of your frustrations... have you told her that she doesn't need to apologize? She might have thought you were still mad and was only trying to make up for it. Admittedly, her timing could've been better but sometimes inconvenient things happen. A calmer way to have dealt with the situation may have been to tell her that you're busy at the moment and that you can talk later rather than just 'go away'.
Anyways, if you really value the friendship, try talking it out. It may not work out, unfortunately these things sometimes happen. But it's worth a shot, isn't it? Strong friendships are built off of mutual understanding, and it'll never get better if you don't talk it out and explain how you feel.
Welp, that's my thoughts on the matter. I hope I helped some/wasn't being too terribly annoying. Have a nice day!

my hands are shaking for no reason and also I have the random urge to self harm lol. Can't concentrate on the fanfic I'm reading but don't want to slep

Thanks X3

We soon became bffs again after this X).

Ena ena ena you're fab you're awesome why do you wanna self harm??