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Read_Write 12-18-2012 11:32 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 379483)
so, a few days ago, my friend found a post of mine that was about my sexuality. it wasn't clear and i told her i would tell her later, but I never did because i don't think im ready to come out yet. however she keeps bugging me and she doesn't understand why i can't tell her but i can tell a bunch of people on the internet... at the same time im not ready to tell her i'm bisexual and i'm confused on what to do.

I have a friend that is bi too. She likes... two of my other friends? Anyway, she told me because I'm calm and I don't care. You already said your friend wouldn't care.
I think you should tell her, and she proabably won't think of you as weird. If you don't feel comfortable telling her, that's fine.
Don't worry. If she's a true friend, she'll be there for you all the way.

Oh, and if you are suffering from it or are depressed, just think of the best memory in your life. Always think of that. Or just cling on to a tiny thread of hope. That's what I do; the person I like probably doesn't like me. You'll be okay. I'm sure of it.

L.S.Trendom 12-18-2012 11:37 PM

oh hay look
a lot of f-words

i hate myself
i'm fucked up
i hate myself
fuck feeling (my version of) okay i hate it
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ud4HuAzHEUc
today—or was it yesterday—it crossed my mind to kill myself because everyone else would be better off without me
i'm not actually going to do it but

sometimes i want to burn it all down and build myself up as a new person but i don't know how and i can't find anything to burn down
and i'm so sick of this
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_iCtpuQvydk

i actually have no idea if people at school actually like me or if it's all one elaborate joke, let's humour the homeschooled kid

and my dad just asked when the last time i ate was (hahaha like you fucking care)
i said lunch
/fucking…idon'tevenknowwhat

I HATE MYSELF

Read_Write 12-18-2012 11:49 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 379524)
oh hay look

i hate myself
i hate myself
today—or was it yesterday—it crossed my mind to kill myself because everyone else would be better off without me
i'm not actually going to do it but

sometimes i want to burn it all down and build myself up as a new person but i don't know how and i can't find anything to burn down
and i'm so sick of this

i actually have no idea if people at school actually like me or if it's all one elaborate joke, let's humour the homeschooled kid

and my dad just asked when the last time i ate was (hahaha like you even care)
i said lunch
/idon'tevenknowwhat

I HATE MYSELF

L.S.T.!!! WTH ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT!?!? EVEN IF YOU ARE NOT LIKED AT SCHOOL, EVERYONE ON KP CARES ABOUT YOU! WHAT WOULD KIWARA DO WITHOUT YOU!? YOU ARE NOT COMMITTING SUICIDE OR CUTTING OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT! Mister, you are in BIG trouble!!! WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT!? YOU BETTER TELL ME THIS IS A JOKE!!!

Lily09 12-18-2012 11:52 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 379496)
My bi friend told me that he has a small crush on me and I am (as far as I know) straight and not bi, and it didn't make things awkward, so there's definitely hope. /shrugs
(or maybe that's me being odd but whatever hope is good.)

Quote:

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 379504)
Lily...you're what? 12, now, according to your WB bio. You shouldn't be worrying about this. You're barely on the brink of adolescence. You don't have to tell your friend anything. You don't have to wonder what your orientation is. I don't, you don't, pretty much none of us KPers have to.

We're kids. KIDpub, people, KIDpub. Are there teens on here? Yes, clearly. There are lots of teens on here. But we're all still developing as individuals. We shouldn't think we have to decide what we are just because we see someone else is deciding, or because it's the norm, or because it's suddenly being accepted. We shouldn't think that what we say we are now is what we'll be for the rest of our lives. People change. Kids and teens change the most, but so do adults.

The point I'm getting at is...don't rush yourself. <:^J Don't worry about this. Do whatever makes you comfortable. But I think you're putting unnecessary stress on yourself.

Quote:

Originally Posted by Read_Write (Post 379520)
I have a friend that is bi too. She likes... two of my other friends? Anyway, she told me because I'm calm and I don't care. You already said your friend wouldn't care.
I think you should tell her, and she proabably won't think of you as weird. If you don't feel comfortable telling her, that's fine.
Don't worry. If she's a true friend, she'll be there for you all the way.

Oh, and if you are suffering from it or are depressed, just think of the best memory in your life. Always think of that. Or just cling on to a tiny thread of hope. That's what I do; the person I like probably doesn't like me. You'll be okay. I'm sure of it.

Thank you guys :3 I love you all for being supportive of me.

Quote:

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 379524)
oh hay look
a lot of f-words

i hate myself
i'm fucked up
i hate myself
fuck feeling (my version of) okay i hate it
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ud4HuAzHEUc
today—or was it yesterday—it crossed my mind to kill myself because everyone else would be better off without me
i'm not actually going to do it but

sometimes i want to burn it all down and build myself up as a new person but i don't know how and i can't find anything to burn down
and i'm so sick of this
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_iCtpuQvydk

i actually have no idea if people at school actually like me or if it's all one elaborate joke, let's humour the homeschooled kid

and my dad just asked when the last time i ate was (hahaha like you fucking care)
i said lunch
/fucking…idon'tevenknowwhat

I HATE MYSELF

1. no. okay no, people would not be better without you. okay, you're just pure awesomeness and pretty much everyone on KP looks up to you and i know you said you wouldn't do it, but you can't think like that, isaac, you can not.
2. i don't know, that's always the hardest part, trying to find something and recreate yourself, but hang in there okay.
3. i don't know what to say, but if it's a joke f**k them.
4. please eat please you need to.
5. don't, you're an amazing person.

TheAshWolf 12-18-2012 11:58 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 379524)
oh hay look
a lot of f-words

i hate myself
i'm fucked up
i hate myself
fuck feeling (my version of) okay i hate it
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ud4HuAzHEUc
today—or was it yesterday—it crossed my mind to kill myself because everyone else would be better off without me
i'm not actually going to do it but

sometimes i want to burn it all down and build myself up as a new person but i don't know how and i can't find anything to burn down
and i'm so sick of this
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_iCtpuQvydk

i actually have no idea if people at school actually like me or if it's all one elaborate joke, let's humour the homeschooled kid

and my dad just asked when the last time i ate was (hahaha like you fucking care)
i said lunch
/fucking…idon'tevenknowwhat

I HATE MYSELF

Dangit, Tredom, you just...you don't get it, do you? How many times am I going to have to flock to your side when you get like this for you to notice? <:^/ You better have enough emotion left to understand and appreciate what I'm about to tell you, because, guess what? This is kind of ridiculously hard for me to tell a friend (still not 100% sure why that is, but, that's a topic for another day), but...dangit, can't you see that I love you? Can't you see that everyone on this site loves you? Everyone else WOULDN'T be better off without you!!! ;w; Please, please don't EVER consider suicide ever again. You're one of the few things about this site that seems...how do I put this...normal. Safe. Reliable. I mean--that logo in the corner will always be there. I hate the font more than I can describe, but that nice red, light blue, green, dark blue, orange, magenta-purple combination will probably always be there, and I like seeing it. If one day, it were to disappear with no explanation, I'd be upset. I'd miss it. Now, if I care about a stupid logo that freaking much, what do you think I'd do if you just stopped coming on here because you killed yourself? How do you think I--and pretty much everyone else--would feel if we never got to hear you mention The Game, or something funny your pets did, or talk about Supernatural, or make a MCR reference, or post one of your fantastic poems?! Huh? How do you think we'd react to that? Do you know that one of the only reasons I check A/N anymore is because you go on it??? As far as I'm concerned, you're one of the best things to ever happen to this site.

And that's the end of me discussing ONLY the point of you thinking that "everyone" would be better off without you. O_O Give me a minute to reply to the rest of your post, please, Isaac, my friend.

Lily09 12-19-2012 12:02 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 379544)
Damnit, Tredom, you just...you don't get it, do you? How many times am I going to have to flock to your side when you get like this for you to notice? You better have enough emotion left to understand and appreciate what I'm about to tell you, because, guess what? This is kind of ridiculously hard for me to tell a friend (still not 100% sure why that is, but, that's a topic for another day), but...dangit, can't you see that I love you? Can't you see that everyone on this site loves you? Everyone else WOULDN'T be better off without you!!! Please, please don't EVER consider suicide ever again. You're one of the few things about this site that seems...how do I put this...normal. Safe. Reliable. I mean--that logo in the corner will always be there. I hate the font more than I can describe, but that nice red, light blue, green, dark blue, orange, magenta-purple combination will probably always be there, and I like seeing it. If one day, it were to disappear with no explanation, I'd be upset. I'd miss it. Now, if I care about a stupid logo that freaking much, what do you think I'd do if you just stopped coming on here because you killed yourself? How do you think I--and pretty much everyone else--would feel if we never got to hear you mention The Game, or something funny your pets did, or talk about Supernatural, or make a MCR reference, or post one of your fantastic poems?! Huh? How do you think we'd react to that? Do you know that one of the only reasons I check A/N anymore is because you go on it?

And that's the end of me discussing ONLY the point of you thinking that "everyone" would be better off without you. O_O Give me a minute to reply to the rest of your post, please, Isaac, my friend.

tttthhhiiiissss because its true.

Sandy 12-19-2012 12:03 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 379524)
oh hay look
a lot of f-words

i hate myself
i'm fucked up
i hate myself
fuck feeling (my version of) okay i hate it
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ud4HuAzHEUc
today—or was it yesterday—it crossed my mind to kill myself because everyone else would be better off without me
i'm not actually going to do it but

sometimes i want to burn it all down and build myself up as a new person but i don't know how and i can't find anything to burn down
and i'm so sick of this
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_iCtpuQvydk

i actually have no idea if people at school actually like me or if it's all one elaborate joke, let's humour the homeschooled kid

and my dad just asked when the last time i ate was (hahaha like you fucking care)
i said lunch
/fucking…idon'tevenknowwhat

I HATE MYSELF

Seriously man... email me. :I I mean, I dunno, maybe I could help you out somehow.

Read_Write 12-19-2012 12:05 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 379544)
Damnit, Tredom, you just...you don't get it, do you? How many times am I going to have to flock to your side when you get like this for you to notice? You better have enough emotion left to understand and appreciate what I'm about to tell you, because, guess what? This is kind of ridiculously hard for me to tell a friend (still not 100% sure why that is, but, that's a topic for another day), but...dangit, can't you see that I love you? Can't you see that everyone on this site loves you? Everyone else WOULDN'T be better off without you!!! Please, please don't EVER consider suicide ever again. You're one of the few things about this site that seems...how do I put this...normal. Safe. Reliable. I mean--that logo in the corner will always be there. I hate the font more than I can describe, but that nice red, light blue, green, dark blue, orange, magenta-purple combination will probably always be there, and I like seeing it. If one day, it were to disappear with no explanation, I'd be upset. I'd miss it. Now, if I care about a stupid logo that freaking much, what do you think I'd do if you just stopped coming on here because you killed yourself? How do you think I--and pretty much everyone else--would feel if we never got to hear you mention The Game, or something funny your pets did, or talk about Supernatural, or make a MCR reference, or post one of your fantastic poems?! Huh? How do you think we'd react to that? Do you know that one of the only reasons I check A/N anymore is because you go on it??? As far as I'm concerned, you're one of the best things to ever happen to this site.

And that's the end of me discussing ONLY the point of you thinking that "everyone" would be better off without you. O_O Give me a minute to reply to the rest of your post, please, Isaac, my friend.

This is totally random, but I did not know his name was Isaac. O.o
I have an Isaac in my reading class... but he... nevermind.

L.S.Trendom 12-19-2012 12:13 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Read_Write (Post 379536)
L.S.T.!!! WTH ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT!?!? EVEN IF YOU ARE NOT LIKED AT SCHOOL, EVERYONE ON KP CARES ABOUT YOU! WHAT WOULD KIWARA DO WITHOUT YOU!? YOU ARE NOT COMMITTING SUICIDE OR CUTTING OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT! Mister, you are in BIG trouble!!! WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT!? YOU BETTER TELL ME THIS IS A JOKE!!!

pssst you should probably delete/white out that quote 'cause of the cursing :P
thanks.
Quote:

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 379544)
Damnit, Tredom, you just...you don't get it, do you? How many times am I going to have to flock to your side when you get like this for you to notice? You better have enough emotion left to understand and appreciate what I'm about to tell you, because, guess what? This is kind of ridiculously hard for me to tell a friend (still not 100% sure why that is, but, that's a topic for another day), but...dangit, can't you see that I love you? Can't you see that everyone on this site loves you? Everyone else WOULDN'T be better off without you!!! Please, please don't EVER consider suicide ever again. You're one of the few things about this site that seems...how do I put this...normal. Safe. Reliable. I mean--that logo in the corner will always be there. I hate the font more than I can describe, but that nice red, light blue, green, dark blue, orange, magenta-purple combination will probably always be there, and I like seeing it. If one day, it were to disappear with no explanation, I'd be upset. I'd miss it. Now, if I care about a stupid logo that freaking much, what do you think I'd do if you just stopped coming on here because you killed yourself? How do you think I--and pretty much everyone else--would feel if we never got to hear you mention The Game, or something funny your pets did, or talk about Supernatural, or make a MCR reference, or post one of your fantastic poems?! Huh? How do you think we'd react to that? Do you know that one of the only reasons I check A/N anymore is because you go on it??? As far as I'm concerned, you're one of the best things to ever happen to this site.

And that's the end of me discussing ONLY the point of you thinking that "everyone" would be better off without you. O_O Give me a minute to reply to the rest of your post, please, Isaac, my friend.

i mean… i can believe you guys love me and at times i think i can glimpse why, but i just… don't agree. i feel like i half-fall apart too much and maybe eventually i'll fully fall apart
and, just so you know, i wasn't actually considering it. it just… sort of crossed my mind.
thank you. a lot. :'3
Quote:

Originally Posted by Sandy (Post 379548)
Seriously man... email me. :I I mean, I dunno, maybe I could help you out somehow.

I've been planning on it… just haven't gotten around to it yet. :/

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 379539)
1. no. okay no, people would not be better without you. okay, you're just pure awesomeness and pretty much everyone on KP looks up to you and i know you said you wouldn't do it, but you can't think like that, isaac, you can not.
2. i don't know, that's always the hardest part, trying to find something and recreate yourself, but hang in there okay.
3. i don't know what to say, but if it's a joke f**k them.
4. please eat please you need to.
5. don't, you're an amazing person.

1. my family probably would. no one to cause them hell. i mean, yeah, the grieving and shit, but…
3. i really don't think it is, i don't see why they wuold go to that effort, but sometimes i get kind of paranoid and i don't know
4. i am. a bit at least. that's part of why i hate myself. i should go on a bloody diet, haha.

and thank you all.

Read_Write 12-19-2012 12:16 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 379552)
pssst you should probably delete/white out that quote 'cause of the cursing :P
thanks.

I deleted all the cursing from yours in case my parents see this (XD haha if you do see this mom and dad) but mine didn't really have a cursing... I think... oh well, I'll white it anyway. :P


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