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lvhamsters 12-19-2012 12:18 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 379524)
oh hay look
a lot of f-words

i hate myself
i'm fucked up
i hate myself
fuck feeling (my version of) okay i hate it
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ud4HuAzHEUc
today—or was it yesterday—it crossed my mind to kill myself because everyone else would be better off without me
i'm not actually going to do it but

sometimes i want to burn it all down and build myself up as a new person but i don't know how and i can't find anything to burn down
and i'm so sick of this
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_iCtpuQvydk

i actually have no idea if people at school actually like me or if it's all one elaborate joke, let's humour the homeschooled kid

and my dad just asked when the last time i ate was (hahaha like you fucking care)
i said lunch
/fucking…idon'tevenknowwhat

I HATE MYSELF

No No No D: D: D:
LST you are amazingly awesome and epictastical!!!!! Of course all of the people from your school like you, how can they not? From your personality you are an awesome person :3
I don't know what I can say to help you, but just stay strong, keep eating, and push all of the bad thoughts to the back of your mind and keep all of the good ones at the front. I know way easier said then done, but it will help :3
~glomps you~ If you ever need help or . . . well anything, just email me :3

TheAshWolf 12-19-2012 12:21 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 379524)
oh hay look
a lot of f-words

i hate myself
i'm fucked up
i hate myself
fuck feeling (my version of) okay i hate it
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ud4HuAzHEUc
today—or was it yesterday—it crossed my mind to kill myself because everyone else would be better off without me
i'm not actually going to do it but

sometimes i want to burn it all down and build myself up as a new person but i don't know how and i can't find anything to burn down
and i'm so sick of this
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_iCtpuQvydk

i actually have no idea if people at school actually like me or if it's all one elaborate joke, let's humour the homeschooled kid

and my dad just asked when the last time i ate was (hahaha like you fucking care)
i said lunch
/fucking…idon'tevenknowwhat

I HATE MYSELF

Okay, so... for the record, I listened to those songs. Unlike probably most of the people on here who come across a link to a song, I actually listened read the lyrics AND listened the music all the way through instead of skimming through the lyrics and moving on. You know why I did that? Because, I want to know exactly what you're trying to convey through that link. I'm putting actual effort and patience into this. Why is this so important? WELLLL, considering I think my heart rate just doubled since I read your post, and my hands are shaking, I think me sitting through and actually comprehending two songs and a quote is pretty good. XD XD DX DX ._.

Anyway.

I totally know how you feel about wanting to just kill off your current self and just make another, better you. I've actually done that many, MANY times. Sometimes I think I'm a flipping Time Lord from all the times I've died and totally completely reinvented my personality. But, the thing is, I'm still just a teen, so, I'm hardly ever satisfied with who I am, and that seems to be the trend with all teens. What you need to do is this: If you want to reinvent yourself, I say, go ahead. In fact, I want you to do that, because I can't stand to see you look at yourself like this. O_e But, when/if you accomplish that, don't be surprised if your newish self isn't 100% perfect in your eyes. The point of remaking yourself is making yourself into someone who you can at least tolerate--maybe even have some respect for, NOT to be all ZOMG-I'm-Eclipse-Silver-and-Evil-Kineval-combined-I'm-100%-awesome! *sincerely hopes you remember Vaaren Salvation enough to know who Eclipse is* <:^J You know? Just...just...jkabskjfbakjbf. Okay.

Start with your viewpoint, if you want to burn yourself down and start again. Take the Lorelai approach (*isn't expecting you to understand that reference*)! If something someone does to you that's a bit petty but still upsets you, don't get angry. Be amused. Laugh at the person! Don't let their actions govern your mood. Or, if you just want to feel again, take the time to slow down. On a non-busy day (winter break is coming up, you should have plenty), just go for a walk or something. Eat a candy bar and take ten minutes to do it. Or, if you want a different approach, do something TOTALLY DIFFERENT. Take another route to get to somewhere! Walk backwards over the course of one day! Go to a totally different library or park or whatever! Say hello to every freaking person you see and say "screw it" to anyone that thinks you're insane! Jump in a freezing pool of water! ANYTHING you've never done before, or haven't done many times. Anything to get your mind to pay attention and FEEL SOMETHING.

...And that concludes Part Two of mah lecture. owo Please allow me to write Part THREEEEE. *flies away*

TheAshWolf 12-19-2012 12:25 AM

Amber: :^| I just wanted to come on here really quick to say something. Tredom? Yeah. I think you broke Ash. XD XD DX DX She's officially stuck in caring-friend mode. If she's smothering you with advice or getting too emotional or talking too much, just know that she'll stop eventually. o_e And she doesn't mean to make you uncomfortable or bored. So...yeah. >_>

LaurenM 12-19-2012 12:30 AM

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 379345)
Why am I all of the sudden listening to all these 1990s-2000s hard rock and metal songs? (Also AC/DC, but that's older rock.)

Because. Most of those songs are angry.

And I'm angry.

e__e

The alternative is going outside and bashing rocks with a hammer. Since I doubt that's very safe, I'm going to stick with listening to Everclear and Green Day and My Chemical Romance and Three Days Grace and Blink 182 and a bunch of other bands I usually don't listen to or have never listened to before.

....That awkward moment when you're wearing headphones and the music is up so loud that you don't even notice the phone is ringing until the song ends and you hear this voice talking to the answering machine and you're like... "What? Who's that? Is there someone in my house?! ... OH, no, that's just the phone. Wow. Idiot."

At first, they used to make me even madder when I listen to them, but it always helps nowadays and makes me feel nice. I listened to them once when I had a mood swing of sullen-ness and recovered soon.


Quote:

Originally Posted by nngo (Post 379383)
I've never considered them as angry music, 'specially not blink-182. I tend to be happier when I listen to then. You could also try Nirvana and the Used (maybe the not-so-heavy ones), those are quite nice too. Bashing rocks with a hammer rarely does release stress or anger but instigate more of it, especially when the rock you are bashing does not break. You could possibly stab an orange, though.

That awkward moment when you're wearing headphones and answering a phone call and your music is blaring through the speaker thingy.

That tumblr thing 'alternatives to cutting' or whatever it's called has stabbing an orange in it. I really considered trying it.

Quote:

Originally Posted by GabiDi (Post 379421)
I just feel really weird lately.
Unsatisfied with my friends, unsatisfied with not having a boyfriend, awkward and cold and just... not right. Like I was putting on mascara this morning and kind of just looked at myself in the mirror and realized, Why am I doing this? Everyone knows I'm wearing makeup. Everyone knows I'm not NATURALLY pretty, I'm not even pretty wearing this, I'm average at best... and my day kind of went downhill after that. And this sounds weird but I've been taking a lot of bathes, like hour-long bathes each day, because it just warms me up and I surround myself with like good-smelling perfume or whatever and I curl up in a ball and just kind of want to stay in there because when I leave, I'm just cold again, and I don't mean that literally although that's true too, I just want to stay there and not move or see anyone and just... lose all feeling except warmth because that's the only way I get it.
I'm centered around temperature right now... it's weird.

But I think you're really pretty...I saw your deviantID.
Quote:

Originally Posted by MaryElizabeth (Post 379435)
*cracking up at gif*

The thing is, I like a guy who apparently has no chance with any other girl. Am I really that unattractive and horrible that I can't be with someone who no one else likes besides me?

Sorry, not trying to make you my therapist. xD

You aren't horrible, though that might be the first impression. Does he like you?
Quote:

Originally Posted by Caleigh (Post 379446)
Exactly, but she's always like, "Well we've been best friends for seven+ years." And I just want to scream, "THAT WAS THE PAST! WE AREN'T IN ELEMENTARY SCHOOL ANYMORE!!!" >.<

My friend has your exact same problem. I'm not in the same school as her any more, and my other friend in primary school is being a right bitch, she says.

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 379484)
hallppppppp

Tell her why. Like how talking to people face to face is much more awkward and self-conscious than typing it out to people on the Internet who don't know you personally and can't really judge you.

TheAshWolf 12-19-2012 12:40 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 379524)
oh hay look
a lot of f-words

i hate myself
i'm fucked up
i hate myself
fuck feeling (my version of) okay i hate it
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ud4HuAzHEUc
today—or was it yesterday—it crossed my mind to kill myself because everyone else would be better off without me
i'm not actually going to do it but

sometimes i want to burn it all down and build myself up as a new person but i don't know how and i can't find anything to burn down
and i'm so sick of this
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_iCtpuQvydk

i actually have no idea if people at school actually like me or if it's all one elaborate joke, let's humour the homeschooled kid

and my dad just asked when the last time i ate was (hahaha like you fucking care)
i said lunch
/fucking…idon'tevenknowwhat

I HATE MYSELF

I'm 100% sure that everyone at school is NOT getting together to play some sort of elaborate joke on you, Tredom. <:^J I mean, seriously. >_> Kids can barely get together and cooperate long enough to do a stupid short science experiment and glue some paper and crude drawings and charts to a piece of cardboard for a silly science fair, LET ALONE collectively decide to "humor the homeschooled kid". O_O *le fail attempt at humor/lightening up the situation* <:^D

But, seriously, now. ._. I don't see a single thing about you that would make people not like you. I'm dead freaking serious, here. Usually everyone has some kind of quirk or habit or whatever that most people don't like, but if you have one, man, you've hidden it well, 'cuz I don't see it. If you're thinking about your shyness, then, calm down. I think it's safe to say that most people would chose to hang out with a shy person compared to an overbearing person. SO. ^_^ Yeah.

And please don't get me started on the eating thing again, buddy. ;w; This is coming from the girl who practically gave teenagers the title of "bottomless pits," so, that COULD be why I can't understand how you're going so long without eating. I can't think about ANYTHING but food when I'm hungry. And, (this is just a theory, here, buddy, but), maybe part of why you feel so bad is because you physically aren't getting what you need to be happy and healthy? As corny as it sounds--healthy goes hand-in-hand with happy, even if you have depression or any number of mental issues. And, if anything, eating would at least take that one small thing off your list of things that's wrong. I know you're probably feeling to ill to eat, but at least choke down a cracker or something ever couple hours. Something is better than nothing. <:^J

And I'm sure that deep down, your father DOES care about you. But, sometimes, people are just too messed up to show it, and sometimes don't even know HOW. Just keep in mind that he hasn't abandoned your family, he at least acknowledges your existence and that yes, you are his son. Because if he REALLY didn't give a ****, he would have shown it and left a long time ago. AND he DID care enough to ask you about your eating habits, even if it was brief and didn't seem like much. <:^) This is coming from a person who HAS actually been totally abandoned by multiple family members, so, please don't try to question my credibility on this one. XD

TheAshWolf 12-19-2012 12:44 AM

Point is, Tredom, I care. x_x I'm sorry I went flying off the handle like that. (I'd give anything to go back to being numb like you are--because, once you get so numb that think pain and anger is better than feeling nothing at all...after you feel that relentless pain and anger for a while, you miss being numb...but it IS a bit of a springboard for happiness if you're sane enough to know what pain is acceptable and what isn't [i.e. physical harm VS facing someone who's been treating you like dirt for years]. <:^J)

Just...kjsbfjkbsfkjb. Oh gosh. x_X Where did the last hour ago?

Just feel better, okay? Don't make me go crazy like this again...XD XD DX DX

maxi 12-19-2012 12:47 AM

._. I wish I wasnt so shy.

TheAshWolf 12-19-2012 12:55 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by maxi (Post 379567)
._. I wish I wasnt so shy.

Shy people are like the kind of chocolate candy with tinfoil wrappers. At a glance, they may seem dull, simple, and tasteless, but once you git rid of the wrapper (their initial shy nature), you realize their beauty and sweetness isn't skin-deep--it starts just beneath the surface and then goes all the way to their hearts. ^_^

*is now a bit insane, so don't be surprised of that blurb right there made no sense at all! 8D*

*also would prefer if no one quoted this post just in case I want to delete it later when I'm sane again... ._.*

maxi 12-19-2012 01:06 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 379571)
Shy people are like the kind of chocolate candy with tinfoil wrappers. At a glance, they may seem dull, simple, and tasteless, but once you git rid of the wrapper (their initial shy nature), you realize their beauty and sweetness isn't skin-deep--it starts just beneath the surface and then goes all the way to their hearts. ^_^

*is now a bit insane, so don't be surprised of that blurb right there made no sense at all! 8D*

*also would prefer if no one quoted this post just in case I want to delete it later when I'm sane again... ._.*

But, Ash, I'm a different shy person and when I am shy, I never want to be around any of my friends ever again. ._. I hate how people think I am the off one out because I am the odd one out but...I hate myself for not contributing to things that I should be contributing to. >_< I hate it so much how stupid I am and how stupid I am to myself for being so immature...I'm not a sweet person; I'm not a nerd; I'm not violent...I don't know what I am...people don't know what I am, either.

Owen-L 12-19-2012 01:07 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 379524)
oh hay look
a lot of f-words

i hate myself
i'm fucked up
i hate myself
fuck feeling (my version of) okay i hate it
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ud4HuAzHEUc
today—or was it yesterday—it crossed my mind to kill myself because everyone else would be better off without me
i'm not actually going to do it but

sometimes i want to burn it all down and build myself up as a new person but i don't know how and i can't find anything to burn down
and i'm so sick of this
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_iCtpuQvydk

i actually have no idea if people at school actually like me or if it's all one elaborate joke, let's humour the homeschooled kid

and my dad just asked when the last time i ate was (hahaha like you fucking care)
i said lunch
/fucking…idon'tevenknowwhat

I HATE MYSELF


Don't hate yourself. D: You're an awesome person and everyone on this site cares about you even though it's through the internet; that's how great you are!

Don't get pissed about school - it's only a short time in your life, and soon enough, you'll be out of it. :P

If your dad doesn't care about you, why care about him, or even bother to listen to what he says?

Soon enough, things'll be better. :p

Ugh. I'm no good at advice, but I hope I helped. >.<


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