Don't. I'm still living in constant fear of someone discovering the scars. There's almost no way to hide them and it's generally horrible.

thank you for your help, guys.

I cannot even BEGIN to describe my anger and frustration. Why in the name of sanity are all my plans falling apart????

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...Do you ever wish your month/week/day/life had a restart button, like your computer? That way, all the little stupid things that don't work can get fixed and you can have the chance to do other things over again. That would be extremely helpful.

What if you make other mistakes in your restarted month/week/day/life?

Fugging hell volleyball is a struggle.
I will not WILL NOT I SAY be on jvc again next year
I will seriously sell my soul if it will get me into JV

Mistakes are to be expected, but, if there are too many, I'd just restart it again. XD I dunno. This isn't supposed to be logical, this is just how I feel at the moment, y'know? :P

mama we all go to hell

She asked three times.

It was confiscated.

But it's one of my things (by things I mean idiosyncrasies) that no one can touch my special notebooks without permission. I don't even like my parents going through my school work, so how do they think I feel having something this important taken away?

i'm writing this letter
and wishing you well

why the hell is my sister the one that gets to stay home when I'm the one that's had cramps all day yesterday and this morning? Guys when I have to deal with this shit for a week straight every month I don't think I can handle it.