ohhhhhhh dear god last night was BAD
my mom took away my music
i'm not allowed to listen to it anymore
and i seirously don't know why
like
what?
it's not a distraction
it helps me focus
ughhhhhhhh


as;ldghasd;g music is kind of the only thing i've been living off of i reallyreallyreally don't wnat to not listn to it i need it

YouTube, then?

I WISH I DIDN'T LIVE SO FAR AWAY CAUSE I'D SING TO YOU
but i do so i can't
D:

I love everything and hate everything at the same time.

Meep.

No no no no Pluzzle, PLEASE don't. You are a brilliant person and you are worth so much and please don't. It's all okay, you deserve to live, you just have to get through these rough patches. The good things that you've done on KP alone outweigh anything you could have done. And it wouldn't matter if you had actually done something truly terrible, because no-one has enough faults that they should stop existing rather than carrying on, and fixing things. You are completely amazing and epyk and screw them for being insensitive.

Too scared to do anything incase someone thinks it's wrong. Missing out on opportunities that probably won't come up again. Dammit. That's it.

And you'll make through many other nights. Be optimistic and eat chocolate.

I have a gigantic zit on my face.

CURSE YOU HORMONES.....

I'm not sure whether to laugh at my dad's very straight-forward screaming "I WILL NOT DISCUSS IT WITH YOU!" or to shove him out of the window.

Well, this is not a vent because I am feeling absolutely fine emotionally, but it's a kind of observation again, but this one could quite possibly be upsetting. I guess I'll put it in white in case anyone doesn't want to read it. I am so going to regret posting this. I don't mean to offend or disrespect anyone.

It kind of seems like society is trying to make us unhappy and misfortunate. There's this idea that richer, luckier, happier people are not as good people as the poor, unhappy and unlucky.
In primary school, my headteacher gave an assemblies about praying, and the Bible, and God. She told us a story about two men who were praying in the same church. One man was very fortunate. He was wealthy, and had a loving family, and he was thanking God for his kindness and generosity. The second man was an ex-criminal of some kind, and he was apologising to God, and praying for forgiveness and asking for a better life. Our headteacher told us that God favoured the second man over the first, despite telling us less than a week ago that God loved everyone equally. But I digress. She told us that God preferred him because he was unhappy, but still prayed.
People using guilt trips heavily imply that less fortunate people are better and more morally right. While this is often true, because of the emotional and physical strength and endurance needed to go through the suffering, they are not better people because they are less fortunate. People react to situations differently. There are people who would be amazing and strong through hard times, and there are people who would get angry and hateful and horrible if presented with the exact same situation. In the same way, lucky people can be positive and help others, or mock the less fortunate and abuse their supposed superiority.
When people die, especially in tragic circumstances such as random murders and suicide, everyone is suddenly praising them, and saying that they were wonderful, and the best. Even the kids who were bullied by everyone, and thought of as useless and stupid, thus forcing them into taking their own lives, are remembered by the very people who abused them as brilliant and whatnot. Why couldn't you have told them that when it could have saved them? Maybe because they feel guilty for being alive, maybe they feel sorry for the one who died, maybe they're showing respect to the dead, or maybe they do actually think that in dying, the deceased has risen above and beyond the living, that they are automatically better than everyone else. It's almost as if they think that dying in tragedy makes you a better person.
But it doesn't. You are still the same person as you were when you were alive. So to everyone reading this: You are wonderful, brilliant, intelligent, amazing, and so many other things, and you don't need to suffer for people to think that. No-one who is sentient is faultless. But no-one deserves suffering, and feeling sorry for them won't help them either.