Excited/Happy
 

My and my 2 brothers and sister made a survival realm in Minecraft. It is soooo much fun! :) :) :) :)
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It's not just a matter of trusting yourself but testing your abilities - Joseph Sugarman

that is awesome!! my and my siblings also have a survival server and it slaps!

we just started on saturday and the nights are soo hard, but at night we meet together and hunt them. It is fun. :D :)
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It's not just a matter of trusting yourself but testing your abilities - Joseph Sugarman

We are going on vacation and I am really excited!

Anxiety :D
 

Soooo.....





MY TEACHER IS NOW GOING TO START CHECKING MY INTERNET HISTORY AND HE'S GONNA-

I think I'm overreacting, all I have to do is just restrict my searches to other things, and he might find this post but that's okay.

Yikes!
I am home schooled, so as long as I get my work done, I am good

Iodghjodsgououisdgjoipdsfjiofapsd

What?
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It is not a matter of trusting yourself but testing your abilities - Joseph Sugarman

oh crap my head hurts

oh no. what kind of head hurt is/was it? like a migraine?

yeah it was unfortunately :(

oh no i hate those!! pls tell me you have good exedrin or something to help you

I don't have any :(

sleep is a good headache curer.

so today I discussed with my school's co-principal about how I got hit two times in my seventh grade year. there was no proof to confirm the second hit, but both hits hurt a lot. the first hit hurt a bit more, though. I never received an apology for the first hit, but eventually I received one for the second.
my worst fear is that I deserved those two hits in the end, though.

por lo general no one deserves to be hit.

Not sure if you just wanted to let it out or to be responded to but i have so many followup questions

yes snow? I'm up for any response :D

how could you have possibly deserved to get hit?? also what happened leading up to these situations??

For the second, I accidentally called a girl Joey instead of Zoey.
I really don't want to talk about the first.

It's time to stop. I had to go to school despite the sheer amount of rain and snow in said area.

it's TIME to STOP school districts!! when will you learn that your actions have consequences

ok that was an accident. absolutely you did not deserve that one. geez homie

/hug i hope things resolve somehow

yo thanks snow :D
*hugs back*

a few moons ago
 

I was in 7th grade. things were getting bad, I was getting bullied. I decided I wouldn't eat breakfast nor lunch.
this went on for 5 months until I decided to eat both again.

why the hell do I keep waking up at 7:00 am
its not school for a few weeks
WHY
why do I not sleep late like everyone else
ugh

(sorry, I just needed to get that all out. it's early in the morning and I'm tired as heck.)

have you ever been roasted (with words)
 

My brother philp has a way with words and he's been teasing me for like forever. so, yeah. Iv'e realized that he gives me so many weapons.
when im out on the outside life which is awful at roasting, i have so many weapons.
i always thought i was bad at roasting but then i actually realized i was great when some boys insulted my frend and it turned into a boy v girl fight. I absulutly roasted them.
So on here, you can insult me as much as you want. It won't offend me.
I mean seriously.
Philp once called me "Little Skidmarks"
Our whole family started laughing

i'm scared rn
I feel like the best moments of my young life are going to fade away as soon as I hit 13 and I absolutely hate that fact. I want to stay young. I want to keep being Elizabeth, someone who writes and loves splatoon with a burning passion.
and last but not least, I WANT TO NOT HAVE TO BE 13 IN 111 DAYS

eh, you'll still be young even when you hit your 20s. It's after that when you start to really feel old. I'm not even 20 yet and I'm regarded as a youngster since everyone else I hang out with are much older than me.

you are gonna change drastically tho. but it'll be interesting to look back at your past self

Im Mad Rn
I Just Broke Something Again Why Do I Have To Keep Breaking Thngs Why Am I Like This I Keep Messing Up Just When Things Get Better I Mess It Up For Myself

im angry right now. angry at myself. I want to scream but my voice is still raw. I thought I had it all cleared out, but something awful began today. there are two scratches on my leg, and I caused this.
my life is still beginning, I think. I'm 12 years old, almost 13, and I don't know jack about reality. you're supposed to have a crisis at 20, for crying out loud. in the end, the internet is just a place where people talk smack about each other.
and it sucks that it has to be brought to reality. it sucks that I'm not the person I appear to be-this sweet and friendly writer that has NO PROBLEMS OF HER OWN AND THAT'S ALL JUST A FACADE AND I WANT TO BE SWEET AND FRIENDLY AND I WANT TO RIDE BIKES AND DRAW AND DRINK MANGO SMOOTHIES AGAIN PLAY SPLATOON WITH SO MANY AMAZING PEOPLE AND I WANT TO WATCH SPLATOON ANIMATICS BECAUSE I LOVE THEM. LAST BUT NOT LEAST, I WANT TO BE WITH YOU ALL FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE, PLAYING SPLATOON AND BEING IN NEW YORK, TOKYO, OR ANYWHERE ELSE.
splatoon- and you guys- are the only reason I want to be here. I love you all.

disclaimer: not a licensed therapist

Sometimes for reasons beyond human comprehension, our emotions expand beyond what our bodies can safely hold. It's like steam in a teakettle or mentos in a shaken coca-cola. You need to find an outlet, a SAFE outlet, for your rage and pain, because it is normal, and while it usually becomes less intense as you get older, it never actually goes away.

Things that have helped me in the past:

-run. sprint around the block.
-scream into a pillow. or just actually scream.
-punch something and/or kick something. like a tree or a fence or a mattress.
-sing/write. put words to what's racing through your body at breakneck speed.
-listen to music that helps put what's inside you...outside you?? like, you don't want to listen to ONLY sad music if you're sad, because then you might just stay sad. I've found Twenty One Pilots helpful for processing feelings when it's all too much.
-distract yourself. we can't always run from our emotions, but sometimes delaying processing until we are safer is not a bad idea. TV, YouTube, read something.

Also, right now, I can really relate to feeling like the image you're putting out to the world doesn't match your experience within. (I am in college, and my Golden Child reputation/energy is becoming impossible to maintain!) It's especially hard when you, as a rule, don't want to be dishonest. But if there's one thing that's gotten better societally, it's realizing that The Kids Aren't Alright. Every single God-loved one of us has an issue of some kind. Every single one of us is struggling against ourselves every day. I know this to be true for myself.

Confiding about how dark you feel on the inside to people you can trust has, in my experience, been the best solution.

Because once you let the light shine into those parts of you that you are afraid of, they aren't as dark.

Kind of like how 'fear of a name increases fear of the thing itself'? All these terrifying thoughts and emotions that we experience cannot, by themselves, condemn us. They are part of being human. Shine a light on them, let the truth shine on them, and they become less powerful. They lose their hold on you.

Thus why I'm really glad you posted that, Elizabeth.

I assume you're already talking to somebody, but if you're hurting yourself, I highly recommend professional help.

Love you, kiddo. Stay safe out there.

omg snow. thank you so much I'm actually feeling a lot better now. this really brightened up my day. love ya too!!!

okay. omg today is my finals for reading. I'm not bad at reading finals but I'm still scared, if anyone has their finals as of recently I wish ya'll the best of luck.

I don't have my finals, but I do have end-of-year testing for the 6th grade. I'm in 6th.

finals are coming up for me! mostly why i haven't been around much. been trying to write papers

I feel that. It be like that fr

omg I still remember the first time I found the Living Tombstone's remix of Jump Up, Super Star and I'm crying. it's like 2018 all over again

Sad :(
 

So I have a person I'm chatting with over email, and she hasn't emailed me in just over two months, and I don't know why. :(

holy crap Elizabeth your friend is literally in front of you don't cry right now you cannot cry you just CANNOT CRY. DON'T CRY. DON'T CRY.

What happened? Is Maria at your house? WHAT IS IT?! I NEED TO KNOW!!!