Isaac, listen to me. There's no shame in crying in front of anybody. Your friends understand that you're struggling; I doubt they minded that their nights got a little interrupted. Besides, you're worth a lot to both of them! I'm REALLY glad you didn't scratch, and I'm glad you and Sam both have that promise to help keep each other safe. That's sooo kind of you to do!!

That's a really terrifying thought, I know. That you might not ever get better and things will feel bad constantly. But, buddy, I know you know this already, but, I'll say it anyway--worrying about that WON'T help you any. If anything, worrying about that will just make things worse. Please, please try not to think about such poisonous what-ifs like that! It's hard, I know--I struggle with totally impossible what-ifs all the time and needlessly freak myself out. It's a tough habit to break. But I know you're strong enough to fight it. You that you CAN get better, and you WILL get better. You've already made a LOT of progress!!! Don't overlook that. Just...remind yourself that you can't see the future. Deal with life one day at a time. The past is gone, and the future isn't here yet. It's like driving a car, man--you can't always be just looking in the rear-view mirror, or you'll crash. And you can't keep looking ahead at roadsigns or down at maps, or you'll crash. While it's wise to plan ahead and make sure you're on the right track, focusing on what's going on right now is the most important thing.

Let yourself cry if you feel like you're going to. But, please, don't think you'll feel this bad forever. You won't. I promise you, you'll feel better and get better, at least a little bit. <3

Hey, man, loneliness is horrible and I totally understand why that made you want to cry. And there's nothing wrong with crying, regardless of what triggered it or where you were. I do that sometimes, too--something will just make me feel isolated and I'll have to clench my jaw and force my mind onto other things or I'll just start bawling in public. And I've done that before, too. And it sucks. I'm sorry you have to deal with that feeling, too. <:^/ Just remember that, in a sense, you're not really alone. You've got KP, and there are TONS of people who are dealing with loneliness, too. Probably more of the kids at your school are dealing with it than you realize.

o man... im sorry u have to deal with that too man

im crying again

hs starts in 15 days and i havent finished my hw yet also i really hope i have E in my geom class. L wont be in there bc shes taking algebra but like last year, the second day was terrible and i couldnt breathe that well bc i kept panicking bc i didnt know shit abt math. im hoping E will be in geom with me this year bc i really dont want to repeat tht. im just scared that ill be super panicky in school again sob

also idk how to come out to teachers and students?? i did it in 8th grade (only students tho) but idk its just major stressing me out but like havig ppl call me elliot and use he/him/his for me is something that will also help alleviate stress. so i mean i guess i just have to get it over with quickly and then it will be better in the end. like i mean i kind of have to. it would be a lil strangee if i went by my birth name and she/her/hers pronouns and then JUNIOr/SENIOR year, deep voice and traditionally masc. face. coming out is just stressful ;-;

ugh someone please tell me that high school isnt as bad as ppl make it out to be. someone say i wont fail my classes and i wont get harassed for being trans and SOMEONE SAY THAT SCHOOL WONT CAUSE ME A LOT OF ANXIETY LIKE IT DID FOR THE PAST THREE YEARS SOB

AA, you know my opinion of your writing is pretty high.
Of course I'll buy it.
And I probably won't give it to my friends because I want to keep it all to myself.

do you have your schedule yet? you could email your teachers telling them about the roll, and that you have a preferred name etc. i think tell students as you meet them and stuff, you pass rly well so.

idk i've been in HS for two years but y'all start in what?? year 9?? you'll be ok! i promise !!!

(*bear hugs*) (*sincerely hopes I didn't contribute to the reasons you're crying*)

You wanna talk about it? Vent a little? c^:> I'm always willing to listen if you ever want to. (*gives you a box of chocolate and some tissues*)

no i get mine on the first day i am So Sad also i want vegan ice cream to help me feel better but i dont want to do more dishes sob

thank u !!

I seriously don't understand what the heck homework during break is for. Like??? We're supposed to learn at SCHOOL?? NOT DURING A VACATION? Doesn't that defeat the purpose?!

There are plenty of resources available if you're nervous about how much you understand. YouTube is actually surprisingly helpful, I've found. There are a bunch of different explanation videos (basically mini lessons) on there for practically all math topics. They're paced pretty good, too. Also I'm sure your friend would still help you out even if they're not in your class. Right? ^_^ In any case, I hope everything goes well for you in Math!! (I'm horrible at Algebra but good at Geometry so I totally know how you feel.) Just try not to worry, okay? Focus on what you have to accomplish now and enjoy your last few days of break.

Hey, I'm sorry you're stressed about that, too. I honestly can't think of any advice since I've never been in that situation. (Sorry.) But, again, I hope it works out for you, whatever you decide to do. <:^D

I really hate my sleep schedule and my inability to go to sleep at a normal hour.

OTL

im going into an IB school so yeah thats why i have summer hw. ;-;

ill probably give those videos a shot!! and yeah if i have to, ill ask my friends for help. or we can just be confused together lol.

thank you (:

same i go to bed at like 3 am or later. its almost 1 am here ;-; music helps me sometimes. also idk if this would work in the summer, but if ur house is cold enough, maybe put your blanket in the dryer just to warm it up? idk sorry i dont have any other tips. *hands u warm milk or somethin*

im starting high school today

Ayyyy congrats Maggie
Also even though the sleep schedule sucks it's fun and there are twelve billion opportunities for your young impressionable future
On an unrelated note I'm going to be a sophomore in less than a week and I'm still nervous about it?

Hey. Hey, listen. High school isn't as bad as people say. You won't get harassed, because nobody will give a crap. Maybe after school, go around to your teachers and explain to them? Or, you could say when they call you for roll- "I'd appreciate if you call me Eli and use he/his pronouns with me." I can't be in your situation, so no, I can't sympathize with you on the field of being trans. And I do understand that it's not easy, even if I'm not in your situation. Because revealing any big truth makes someone vulnerable, peels away a layer of tough skin to reveal how tender anyone is. You won't fail your classes, you're miles more clever than any other eight graders I know and love.
I can't promise that it won't cause you anxiety, maybe cause it caused me to be anxious, but as you know, I'm hotheaded and easily distracted.
Depending on what kind of anxiety you mean, I'm not sure. I love everything about you, and maybe that's why we're friends? At least I hope we are. I would wish you good luck, but you don't need it.

I will.
Have fun pulling your shit together.
(IT'S SO HARD I'VE BEEN EDITING FOR A WHOLE YEAR)
You will. Things change if you wait. Hang in there joan sry not sry

hey it's ok we all cry sometimes i'm shit at telling you it's ok aren't i
I don't know we don't have high school over here I guess you just have to get on with it asap good luck *hugs*
Me too. I sleep at four every morning and wake up at twelve :'(

I was playing basketball with my cousin, who loves basketball. Eventually we started talking about my basketball team. He said that he could easily beat all of them. I asked why because all of my team girls are amazing at playing, and a year older then my cousin, as well as taller. He kept on giving vague reasons like "I've been playing for seven years" (of which I responded that my friend Z had been playing for 8 years) and "Basketball is my passion" ("It's also my friend's passions") Finally, he stopped playing and said, "No offense, but I think that boys are better at sports then girls." I stopped playing, picked up my shoes and my hat, which I had taken off, and walked away. He still hasn't apologized or anything. And seriously, that kid! He made a similar comment to that one day right before a big game of mine.

And this other boy that we do conditioning with, he was ref-fing for us and his friends were laughing at him abd saying that this is what he would be doing for the rest of his life "Ref-fing girl's basketball," Har har har. It just is so stupidly SEXIST and it just.. Urgh

shitshitshitshit
school starts on wednesday i'm not ready i'm so scared i don't think i feel any more confident than when i left which is bad i was going to get better this summer i was going to be able to handle this but i can't i'm so scared

No don't worry it will be okay *hugs* you are wonderful and everyone will love you I promise

i couldn't help it, oh well

Never mind what I said about you ignoring my text for a day.
You ignored it for, what, three whole days?
I still remember the Jolly Ranchers I gave you on the last day of school I had with you before I moved.
I only gave them to you. Snuck them in, because no candy was allowed in school.
What did I get in return?
Seeing you give one to your best friend.
You've changed so much.
You started to curse, which I never expected from someone like you.
I see your messages in the public chatroom for our friends.
You keep cursing like it's fun.
I remember the day you wouldn't speak to me because I didn't give you a cupcake.
That was in first grade.
I remember how you would go around telling teachers we were related.
You never cursed in front of me.
And I'm scared now.
If someone like you can change so much,
How much will I change?

So school is next week. At my school they do this dumb Lunch A/B/C thing where they split you up based on your fifth period. Last year I didn't even have time to be nervous about it because I didn't even know until we got our schedules, and my best friend and I had lunch together.

But this year I'm terrified

I realized that you have two types of friends in this world: real friends and school friends. Real friends you talk to on a regular basis and see during the summer and do lots of things with. School friends you pretty much only see/talk to at school, but you don't text/do anything outside of school with them.

I pretty much only have two real friends and then a large handful of school friends

And I'm terrified that I won't have lunch with my best friend. I don't want to be that person at lunch who sits alone

Damn it.

Hey, guys!
Sorry for the semi-late reply, but, I have something I'd like to add to this. ^_^

It's great that you both want to show your appreciation for what Jesus did for us! It's critical to our spiritual health that we celebrate this occasion correctly, though. I know neither of you approve of the Pagan aspects of Christmas and Easter, and that's a good thing. But, I think we should turn to the Bible for advice. Researching articles online are helpful, too, but, the primary authority here should be what the Bible says on the matter, don't you think?

2 Corinthians 6:14-17 says, "For what fellowship do righteousness and lawlessness have? Or what sharing does light have with darkness? Further, what harmony is there between Christ and Be′li·al [meaning “Good for Nothing.” A reference to Satan.]? Or what does a believer share in common with an unbeliever? And what agreement does God’s temple have with idols? Just as God said:  “‘...Therefore, get out from among them, and separate yourselves.’" God doesn't want our worship to be mixed with paganism in any way. How can we practice things we know originated with false religions with a clean conscience? While your friend, Elizabeth, was very harsh about this topic, what her point was is very valid. She shouldn't have been so condescending. But, she's on the right track when it comes to Christmas and Easter.

Consider this fact, too: There's no scripture anywhere in the Bible mentioning Easter or Christmas.

However, Jesus DID directly tell us how we should celebrate the ransom sacrifice and his death. Luke 22:17-20 says, ."And accepting a cup, he gave thanks and said: 'Take this and pass it from one to the other among yourselves, for I tell you, from now on, I will not drink again from the product of the vine until the Kingdom of God comes.' Also, he took a loaf, gave thanks, broke it, and gave it to them, saying: 'This means my body, which is to be given in your behalf. Keep doing this in remembrance of me.' Also, he did the same with the cup after they had the evening meal, saying: 'This cup means the new covenant by virtue of my blood, which is to be poured out in your behalf'."

He said nothing about presents or Christmas trees or rabbits and eggs. He directly said, in remembrance of him, we should pass the unleavened bread (representing his body) and a cup of red wine (representing his blood). While we are not required to celebrate the Passover holiday along with that, since that was a separate matter, we should keep this Memorial of Jesus Christ's death (also called The Lord's Evening Meal). If you would like to read more about this, I suggest you look at this article here.

thank you *hugs back* i'm just really scared

i know you can do this you're a wonderful person and i know you can pull through no matter what happens <3

yes you can do it!!!! it's gonna be fine yo!!

(*hugs*) you can do it i believe in you c': now you just need to believe in you okay? we're all here for you <333 good luck i know you can do this (*more hugs and also cookies*)

thank you all so much this means a lot to me <33

Is no one talking about robin williams because I'm very upset right now

I thought watching jumanji was going to make me feel better but it's not

Okay but one of my favorite authors died at the end of july and I was just kind of shocked but didn't react very emotionally and now an actor I really like died AND THIS IS NOT OKAY

oh god I just can't ;-;;;;

I was JUST coming on here to talk about that! D:

I've loved Robin's comedy AND his personality since...since...since I was super little; I can't even remember how little I was when I first saw Jumanji. I've always admired him, especially when I learned how hard of a life he had. His comedy came from his loneliness and pain; he invented characters and personalities in his mind just like I used to do when I was lonely. His brand of humor was so intense and lighthearted. I can't even count how many times I watched both his serious movies and his comedies--he was an incredible artist in so many different ways. I love everything about him and his work. And it...it just...it hit me so hard when I saw the headlines on CNN.

Jumanji...ohhh my gosh, the nostalgia, it hurts.... ;_;

jumanji oh my gosh I remember this I actually haven't thought about it in years omg

The last time I watched it was...like, two or three years ago? But I used to watch it ALL THE TIME when I was little! Have you ever watched Mork & Mindy? I've always thought that show was some of his best comedic work. Along with Mrs. Doubtfire. But, oh my word, that man could do drama SO WELL, too! I know Bicentennial Man was looked down on by a lot of people, but, I really liked it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dTllG2KdPMQ

im nOT OKAY
this was the best part of the movie oh my gosh it's still the best thing ever oh hh h hhh my gosh

also the stampede oh my gosh

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RWwhA2v9UFQ

he was good in dead poets society
sob

I came on KP to see if anyone had said anything about it. It's really saddening. He was a really awesome guy and it's hard to believe that he's gone.

i love that movie so much </3