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bookworm1999 11-25-2012 04:55 PM

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Originally Posted by Caleigh (Post 367536)
Guys, my second yearaversary is in 20 days!!! :O

Good for you!

Rockshadow 11-25-2012 04:59 PM

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Originally Posted by Caleigh (Post 367579)
I feel lonely...like no one is truly my friend, even though I know that's not true. I have at least one true friend, but I ditched her because I thought I was so much better than her, but I over the weekend while I've been sick, I've realized what a b**** I've been recently. I mean, who just ditches their best friend like that? I thought I had a group of friends who would never leave me, but that's a lie. I don't know who to trust anymore and I'm about to start crying like a little baby because I don't even know who I am anymore. I thought I was the funny girl who made everyone laugh, but I DON'T FREAKING KNOW. My friend has said some pretty hurtful stuff to me, and when I confronted her about it, she said she would stop. Within a week the insults were back and I don't know how much longer I can take it.

Talk to your other friend that you ditched. Tell her that you were wrong and that you miss her and love her. :)
Ditch the friends who hurt you. Trust me. It will all get better in the end. I'm always here for you, remember that.

maxi 11-25-2012 05:17 PM

I may not be on KidPub since I am writing a brand new book and I will give updates about it every post I post.

bookworm1999 11-25-2012 05:35 PM

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 367576)
Heyo! I'm pluzzle, but my friends call me Charli!

Nice to meet you, I like zat name :)

Jesse 11-25-2012 05:47 PM

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Originally Posted by maxi (Post 367630)
I may not be on KidPub since I am writing a brand new book and I will give updates about it every post I post.

Wait... I thought you were trying to only to write three books at a time.

And how can you post something if you're not on KP?

But goodbye. D': We'll miss you!

soph-soph27 11-25-2012 06:29 PM

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 367227)
I'm planning on leaving WB soon. I mean, I've already pretty much left the mainsite. My name's logged in, but I rarely even do anything. *shrugs* Just hang out on WB.
There's always some good members in the new generation.
Sure, Sagar and SS and all the other 09'ers are gone, but LST came in 2010 and so did Kay(but she left) and Sandy.
Some people in 2011, I mainly talked to LJM(who is also from 2009) and LST and some others.
And now it's 2012, where KidPub seems to being going downhill, but hey there's nngo. She's not like a lot of the newer members that just seem to want, "your story is amazing blah blah!". She's really cool. I know I'm forgetting a lot, but I'm just naming the people off the top of my head that I talk frequently.

I've felt like there were people that were at the top like LST, TheAshWolf, WolfWriter, and Sandy. Popular for amazing stories, being mature, and being amazing KidPubbians.
And then there's people who are also at the top-ish but slightly less below like nngo, wildwolf, maxi, AA. They mainly got popular from good stories, being mature, being awesome, and posting on Writers Block alot.
Then there's people like you and I(I think I'm over here?) and HeatherB and meerkat and Owen who are pretty well known and people will stop by to say, "Hello, how are you doing?" and have a conversation. We get here for good stories, but maybe we came in when our generation is dwindling or when the times were bad so our stories didn't get noticed. We post on WB pretty frequently and we're awesome, just like the majority on KidPub.
Then there are the newer generation, who nobody on WB really recognizes because we're mostly from 2010 or 2011. Most of them are okayish but we don't know them too well.
Sounds a lot like highschool right xD Well, at least that is how I class KPers. But don't worry, just hang on in there and talk to people.


I think that sounds like a perfect way of classing KPers. :D

I'm proud to be worth starting a conversation with. xD

DragonRider 11-25-2012 07:46 PM

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Originally Posted by soph-soph27 (Post 367982)
I think that sounds like a perfect way of classing KPers. :D

I'm proud to be worth starting a conversation with. xD

...How would I be classed?
Feel free to be as blunt as you want.

soph-soph27 11-25-2012 07:53 PM

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Originally Posted by DragonRider (Post 368192)
...How would I be classed?
Feel free to be as blunt as you want.

Wow, you only joined this year? You seem really mature for that. One of the people who others recognize, but you might want to make yourself known more. You are mature, and you post often, but spread yourself out.

HeatherB 11-25-2012 09:13 PM

DAD. I FUCKING HATE YOU. You don't understand me, so PLEASE stop trying. I do not have an 'attitude.' You made me fucking CRY. And then you say I have an 'attitude' that needs to 'stop.' Well, fuck you. I don't know what you're talking about. You could have the decency to explain yourself, but you just say, 'Look at the problem. Tell me how to solve it' when I've been TRYING to tell you for the past five minutes. It's really not that hard to understand that I'm just a fucking WRECK right now and that I REALLY hate myself, but I don't know what else to do. Please just stop. The silent treatment, while not better than most things, is better than this.

Lily09 11-25-2012 10:11 PM

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Originally Posted by soph-soph27 (Post 367982)
I think that sounds like a perfect way of classing KPers. :D

I'm proud to be worth starting a conversation with. xD

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Originally Posted by DragonRider (Post 368192)
...How would I be classed?
Feel free to be as blunt as you want.

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Originally Posted by soph-soph27 (Post 368206)
Wow, you only joined this year? You seem really mature for that. One of the people who others recognize, but you might want to make yourself known more. You are mature, and you post often, but spread yourself out.

With me and soph, but you're getting up there.

DragonRider 11-26-2012 08:02 AM

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Originally Posted by soph-soph27 (Post 368206)
Wow, you only joined this year? You seem really mature for that. One of the people who others recognize, but you might want to make yourself known more. You are mature, and you post often, but spread yourself out.

I have studied the peculiar species often called KPians, and have adapted my ways so they do not notice I am not one of them.
Day 332: They still do not know they have a traitor in their midst!
...just kidding.
OR AM I.
Me? Mature? Pff.
OK. Will do! *le stretch over KP* I WILL COVER EVERYTHING.
I've barely posted any stories, but that's because I had WB for AGES.
*points* I blame Owen.

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 368307)
With me and soph, but you're getting up there.

Danke. *bows*

DragonRider 11-26-2012 08:06 AM

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 368264)
DAD. I FUCKING HATE YOU. You don't understand me, so PLEASE stop trying. I do not have an 'attitude.' You made me fucking CRY. And then you say I have an 'attitude' that needs to 'stop.' Well, fuck you. I don't know what you're talking about. You could have the decency to explain yourself, but you just say, 'Look at the problem. Tell me how to solve it' when I've been TRYING to tell you for the past five minutes. It's really not that hard to understand that I'm just a fucking WRECK right now and that I REALLY hate myself, but I don't know what else to do. Please just stop. The silent treatment, while not better than most things, is better than this.

Aw, Heather! *hugs* Sit down with him, and explain how sometimes he needs to stop and actually LISTEN to you. Could your mum help for stuff, or is she the same?
GAH. I feel useless...

bookworm1999 11-26-2012 02:43 PM

Feelings get the best of you, but they really shouldn't. Not everything anyways, like the fact that I FEEL like every one of my friends on here are irritated with me in some way or another, or that I FEEL like i'm useless during language lessons because I always don't know the answer to my own questions but every one elses. I want my feelings to burn and die, the negative ones anyways. It's just hard. Hard to ignore them when I really want to turn to crying :( I realize there a lot of bigger problems than mine but it's a venting thread, ihave the freedom right?

cheezemziez 11-26-2012 02:44 PM

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 368264)
DAD. I FUCKING HATE YOU. You don't understand me, so PLEASE stop trying. I do not have an 'attitude.' You made me fucking CRY. And then you say I have an 'attitude' that needs to 'stop.' Well, fuck you. I don't know what you're talking about. You could have the decency to explain yourself, but you just say, 'Look at the problem. Tell me how to solve it' when I've been TRYING to tell you for the past five minutes. It's really not that hard to understand that I'm just a fucking WRECK right now and that I REALLY hate myself, but I don't know what else to do. Please just stop. The silent treatment, while not better than most things, is better than this.

Wait until he's calmed down, then try to talk to him in a placating way. Gradually shift the focus of the competition to his reaction, and suggest very subtly that he jumped to conclusions a bit fast.

cheezemziez 11-26-2012 02:48 PM

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 36798)
I'm planning on leaving WB soon. I mean, I've already pretty much left the mainsite. My name's logged in, but I rarely even do anything. *shrugs* Just hang out on WB.
There's always some good members in the new generation.
Sure, Sagar and SS and all the other 09'ers are gone, but LST came in 2010 and so did Kay(but she left) and Sandy.
Some people in 2011, I mainly talked to LJM(who is also from 2009) and LST and some others.
And now it's 2012, where KidPub seems to being going downhill, but hey there's nngo. She's not like a lot of the newer members that just seem to want, "your story is amazing blah blah!". She's really cool. I know I'm forgetting a lot, but I'm just naming the people off the top of my head that I talk frequently.

I've felt like there were people that were at the top like LST, TheAshWolf, WolfWriter, and Sandy. Popular for amazing stories, being mature, and being amazing KidPubbians.
And then there's people who are also at the top-ish but slightly less below like nngo, wildwolf, maxi, AA. They mainly got popular from good stories, being mature, being awesome, and posting on Writers Block alot.
Then there's people like you and I(I think I'm over here?) and HeatherB and meerkat and Owen who are pretty well known and people will stop by to say, "Hello, how are you doing?" and have a conversation. We get here for good stories, but maybe we came in when our generation is dwindling or when the times were bad so our stories didn't get noticed. We post on WB pretty frequently and we're awesome, just like the majority on KidPub.
Then there are the newer generation, who nobody on WB really recognizes because we're mostly from 2010 or 2011. Most of them are okayish but we don't know them too well.
Sounds a lot like highschool right xD Well, at least that is how I class KPers. But don't worry, just hang on in there and talk to people.

If you do leave, then we'll miss you loads. You're awesome. But it's your choice ultimately.

What category would I fall into? I've only been here for a few months, so yeah...

DragonRider 11-26-2012 03:03 PM

Honestly.
Lily, don't leave.
DON'T.
EVER.
LEAVE.
*glare*

Lily09 11-26-2012 03:34 PM

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Originally Posted by cheezemziez (Post 368416)
If you do leave, then we'll miss you loads. You're awesome. But it's your choice ultimately.

What category would I fall into? I've only been here for a few months, so yeah...

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Originally Posted by DragonRider (Post 368429)
Honestly.
Lily, don't leave.
DON'T.
EVER.
LEAVE.
*glare*

Cheese: me and soph and dragon.
Dragon: I probably won't leave until LST leaves.

DragonRider 11-26-2012 03:36 PM

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 368475)
Cheese: me and soph and dragon.
Dragon: I probably won't leave until LST leaves.

At least one year, then...
Enough time to persuade you to remain for eternity.

cheezemziez 11-26-2012 05:03 PM

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 368475)
Cheese: me and soph and dragon.
Dragon: I probably won't leave until LST leaves.

Yay.

Well, by that time, DR probably will have tracked you down and attached your consciousness to the internet.

soph-soph27 11-26-2012 07:26 PM

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 368475)
Cheese: me and soph and dragon.
Dragon: I probably won't leave until LST leaves.

When LST leaves will be the day I die.

11-26-2012 07:57 PM

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 368307)
With me and soph, but you're getting up there.

Uh...what 'category' would I be in? XD I love how we're all asking where we stand on KidPub. :p

lvhamsters 11-26-2012 07:58 PM

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Originally Posted by soph-soph27 (Post 368569)
When LST leaves will be the day I die.

I think all of kidpub will go through a drastic depression O_O

Lily09 11-26-2012 08:03 PM

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Originally Posted by Caleigh (Post 368588)
Uh...what 'category' would I be in? XD I love how we're all asking where we stand on KidPub. :p

Well, you used to be where AA and nngo are now, but you haven't been on in a while, so I guess with me and dragon? I missed ya.

11-26-2012 08:10 PM

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 368594)
Well, you used to be where AA and nngo are now, but you haven't been on in a while, so I guess with me and dragon? I missed ya.

Yeah...I took a break for a while because of some personal issues, but I'm back now... :) Don't know for how long, but definitely past my second yearaversary.

lvhamsters 11-26-2012 08:10 PM

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 368307)
With me and soph, but you're getting up there.

What category do you think I would be in? o_o ~feels awkward~ XD

Rockshadow 11-26-2012 08:45 PM

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 368594)
Well, you used to be where AA and nngo are now, but you haven't been on in a while, so I guess with me and dragon? I missed ya.

What about me? :)

CACrools 11-26-2012 08:48 PM

And me? *madladfddkl;af, ten character rule*

soph-soph27 11-26-2012 08:51 PM

XDD Everyone is interested.

lvhamsters: With Lily, me and Dragon.

CACrools: With us as well, but a little less well known?

Rockshadow: Probably around where AA is?

CACrools 11-26-2012 08:56 PM

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Originally Posted by soph-soph27 (Post 368624)
XDD Everyone is interested.

lvhamsters: With Lily, me and Dragon.

CACrools: With us as well, but a little less well known?

Rockshadow: Probably around where AA is?

But I'm a newbie (I haven't had my year-aversary yet.)

soph-soph27 11-26-2012 08:57 PM

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Originally Posted by CACrools (Post 368626)
But I'm a newbie (I haven't had my year-aversary yet.)

And? So? What's your point?

CACrools 11-26-2012 09:04 PM

Oh, I read it wrong. My bad.

lvhamsters 11-26-2012 09:08 PM

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Originally Posted by soph-soph27 (Post 368624)
XDD Everyone is interested.

lvhamsters: With Lily, me and Dragon.

CACrools: With us as well, but a little less well known?

Rockshadow: Probably around where AA is?

WHOO ^o^ ~does little dance~

Lily09 11-26-2012 09:34 PM

Yeah, most people are in the third section.

shadowtide 11-26-2012 09:50 PM

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 368658)
Yeah, most people are in the third section.

Out of curiosity, what would I be?

lvhamsters 11-27-2012 12:30 AM

Darnet, I have so many feelings and I just can't all type them out! It's not that simple.
Overall I'm hurt and angry.
I'm sick of being compared to those who are better than me. Everyone compares me to my best friend; even my family. I'm sick of it. I'm not like her. At all. In fact, we're pretty much complete opposite, and personally, I'm fine with that! I have my own talents and she has hers!
My dad: "Oh, you know, A must've been practicing basketball all summer long, unlike you. No wonder she's so good. You shouldn't have quit the team." Well, guess what. I quit because of everyone comparing my skills to her, not to mention I just lost interest in basketball. I make my own choices, and you forcing me to make the team ain't gonna work. But that's not what this is about. It's about being compared.
I'm also hurt because my best friend trusts complete strangers instead of me, her best friend. She's even said it plain out in front of me. Her best friends are even online, and it's not a very trustworthy website. But A, if you ever read this, just know you've hurt me more than you can think.
Whenever I try to vent to you, you cast it away and immediately go to your own feelings without as much as saying a word about me. Now I don't want to be selfish, I just want you to listen to me once and a while. Everyone tells me I should tell you what I think, but they don't see I can't do that. We've been friends for over 11 years and I don't want to ruin that. And if I tell you anything that's in any way mean I'm scared your going to cut yourself. Your very sensitive, A. But your only sensitive to yourself, not of others. Such as right now, your being kind of a jerk. Your always trying to one up me. Like I told you I'm tired of comparison just now. And then you say, "Oh, no worries. My families all like WHY CANT YOU BE MORE LIKE L."
You don't get it do you!? You're not helping me! you're making it worse!!! JUST STOP.
You've made me cry in stress and hopelessness to many times now. Please stop . . .
And P, I miss you so much. I hate how our parents both told us that we'd never see each other again and we couldn't talk over the internet, through mail, or over the phone. No contact whatsoever. I miss all of the awesome times we had, such as when we hid in the bucket of pillows at wal-mart and jumped out and scared people. That was awesome, and I know this just sounds like jibber jabber, but it's so important to me. P, I miss you so much and I love you like a sister. I really wish you were here . . . .
And I know some people think that when someone leaves you get over it eventually, though it may take lots of time. But really, that pain is always there.
I'm crying right now because I'm sick of it all. I want to get away. I wish Kidpub was an actual building, or a school or something. Everyone here is so nice and we're all friends. Yeah, we occasionally get in fights, but we all get over it. Not only that, but everyone is always there for you and supportive. And just that is an amazing thing to have in a friend. Thanks everyone <3

lvhamsters 11-27-2012 12:44 AM

Gosh darnet, A! CURSING ME OUT ISNT HELPING.

EmmaR 11-27-2012 12:47 AM

I don't like to be physically limited.

maxi 11-27-2012 01:52 AM

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TheAshWolf 11-27-2012 03:23 AM

...........Did you just put me in the same category as LST and Sandy? O_O

Um, no. Just no. No. No no no no no, no no, no, no. XD I would love that to be true, but it's just...not. o_o

Yes, at one point, my book got a somewhat unusual amount of attention. But that was a long time ago. Back when I posted a chapter nearly ever week. Back when I'd actually keep my promises of when I'd post. Back when I didn't get Writer's Block every other day. Back before my life got ten times harder, and stress nearly killed my writing ability. ._. Back when I actually got detailed feedback. Now, when I manage to post, only a few people comment. Hardly any of them have CC. I need CC. That's the only reason I've been able to grow as a writer. My readers have been driving me to write better since I joined this site. But now...there aren't many telling me what's acceptable, and what's not. I see people click on my posts. The most recent chapter I've posted has been clicked on 110 times as of this moment. And yet, only 3 people commented. Don't get me wrong--I value those three comments like each was made of solid gold. But isn't that a bid odd to you? 110 reads but only 3 comments? And none of them gave me any suggestions or told me where the weak spots are. And it's 100% impossible that that chapter was perfect and didn't need CC. I can't grow at a steady rate if I don't get more feedback. ;w; I can't make my editing deadline if I don't know WHAT to edit.

I know there is a commenting famine sweeping through KidPub. No one is immune to it, no matter how long you've been on here, how good or "popular" your writing is, or how many people you know.

I've never felt that I was "popular." I still can't believe that I have actual fans. I have readers, yes, and I love every one of them, but I can't bring myself to call them fans. I've never felt that my story was good enough for that. Good is relative. I tell my story to you guys, and some people like it. That makes me happier than you will ever know. You all honestly do not know how your nice comments have kept me sane, especially now that my personal life is more difficult that it used to be. And yet, I know there are people who do not like my book. And I'm perfectly fine with that. And I remember my classmates...how they teased me...saying I was living in a stupid, worthless, made-up world...saying that my characters were unrealistic and stupid...saying I was stupid for making them up. That hurt. I pretended to ignore them, but it still hurt. I've long since forgiven them for it, but it still hurts me to remember. At least I can always look back on those six kids...they sat with me at recess and listened to my story, back when it was nothing more than a crappy novella. I owe them so much. They gave me my first bits of CC. One of them was my first honest critic. i miss them, sometimes. I miss all of the readers who I haven't heard from in a while, actually.


...
I know that was a long ramble. x_x I apologize for going off the deep end like that.

My point is...I don't belong in that high category. I never did, not in my eyes. But, if that's how someone sees me, then, okay, I'm very flattered. But that's not where I am now. <:^J I doubt I'll ever get there again...

maxi 11-27-2012 04:16 AM

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 368852)
...........Did you just put me in the same category as LST and Sandy? O_O

Um, no. Just no. No. No no no no no, no no, no, no. XD I would love that to be true, but it's just...not. o_o

Yes, at one point, my book got a somewhat unusual amount of attention. But that was a long time ago. Back when I posted a chapter nearly ever week. Back when I'd actually keep my promises of when I'd post. Back when I didn't get Writer's Block every other day. Back before my life got ten times harder, and stress nearly killed my writing ability. ._. Back when I actually got detailed feedback. Now, when I manage to post, only a few people comment. Hardly any of them have CC. I need CC. That's the only reason I've been able to grow as a writer. My readers have been driving me to write better since I joined this site. But now...there aren't many telling me what's acceptable, and what's not. I see people click on my posts. The most recent chapter I've posted has been clicked on 110 times as of this moment. And yet, only 3 people commented. Don't get me wrong--I value those three comments like each was made of solid gold. But isn't that a bid odd to you? 110 reads but only 3 comments? And none of them gave me any suggestions or told me where the weak spots are. And it's 100% impossible that that chapter was perfect and didn't need CC. I can't grow at a steady rate if I don't get more feedback. ;w; I can't make my editing deadline if I don't know WHAT to edit.

I know there is a commenting famine sweeping through KidPub. No one is immune to it, no matter how long you've been on here, how good or "popular" your writing is, or how many people you know.

I've never felt that I was "popular." I still can't believe that I have actual fans. I have readers, yes, and I love every one of them, but I can't bring myself to call them fans. I've never felt that my story was good enough for that. Good is relative. I tell my story to you guys, and some people like it. That makes me happier than you will ever know. You all honestly do not know how your nice comments have kept me sane, especially now that my personal life is more difficult that it used to be. And yet, I know there are people who do not like my book. And I'm perfectly fine with that. And I remember my classmates...how they teased me...saying I was living in a stupid, worthless, made-up world...saying that my characters were unrealistic and stupid...saying I was stupid for making them up. That hurt. I pretended to ignore them, but it still hurt. I've long since forgiven them for it, but it still hurts me to remember. At least I can always look back on those six kids...they sat with me at recess and listened to my story, back when it was nothing more than a crappy novella. I owe them so much. They gave me my first bits of CC. One of them was my first honest critic. i miss them, sometimes. I miss all of the readers who I haven't heard from in a while, actually.


...
I know that was a long ramble. x_x I apologize for going off the deep end like that.

My point is...I don't belong in that high category. I never did, not in my eyes. But, if that's how someone sees me, then, okay, I'm very flattered. But that's not where I am now. <:^J I doubt I'll ever get there again...

Ashley, I am going to agree. <:^)

People put me in a category where I am also better than people like CT or Kiwara or Pokey...where the heck did that come from? :D Ash, this is going out of hand and people are placing us in different places...

...

...

KP is changing. =__=


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