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Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 528458)

*hugs* I know cancer is a bitch and i know that doesn't cover it at all but it's okay and it will be okay I promise *hugs for infinity*

my friend is in the fuckin hospital right now and her heart's already stopped twice and fuck holy shit
and fuck we haven't even been friends that long but jesus and what about thomas and sam

if she's not ok i s2g im just gonna fuckin dig up some more blades

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 528447)

not EVERYONE does. and please don't call it 'just' depression. it's a serious mental illness. sometimes your mind doesn't ALLOW you to live your life happily, no matter how hard you try. and depression at its worst is when you don't even try anymore. you physically and mentally /can't/ do anything. of course logically you know that you're human and prone to mistakes and stupidity and weight issues etc., but that doesn't mean we aren't very hard on ourselves about it and it doesn't mean that we can control how positive our self image is. we all have reasons for hating ourselves. it's not /just/ 'my life sucks' or 'i wish i was hotter.' it's that with a million other things we're afraid to say lest people see us for the true monsters of humanity that we think we are. depression is hatred. depression is knowing that you are the worst. depression is hating yourself. depression cannot be controlled easily. depression isn't just a mood. sorry for ranting at you, but as a clinically depressed person i felt i had to express myself on this one.

thank you so much because its so hard to even feel like im a decent human being.

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Originally Posted by avbhabra (Post 528450)

Don't apologize. Actually, thank you. I'm sorry for saying "just' depressed... probably very inconsiderate of me. But staying around positivity, trying your hardest. Even when you feel like it's so hard and you just want to give up, that's when you should push the hardest. I just hate seeing people who believe that they don't deserve to live a happy life because they have a mental illness, and that mental illness is preventing them from living happily. There are people who have ADHD or Dyslexia and they don't use is as an excuse to be lazy, but they use it as a tool, they strive further. Maybe that means they have to work a lot harder than the average person, but they try. And I think that's the most important thing. I'm not telling you how to live your life, God, no. I don't have the right to do that. But I want you to know that there's always a way. Even when you hate yourself. Because everyone's been there. And it's crawling back out of the empty void that's the most important part. It sucks. I can't even begin to imagine you guys are going through. But there's a way. There's always a way. Always.

abt the adhd and dyslexia bit: newsflash not every person with a mental illness is like that.
im so sick of hearing it gets better i just wanna hear its okay to not be okay. because my anxiety and paranoia hasnt gotten any better, just worse. thanks though.

no no no no no no no no I wish I could do something from here and saying sorry won't really do anything.

but i'm sorry.

because it's all i can do or say and I really hope she gets better. i can't even begin to understand what you're going through but please. omg i don't even know what to say. i've never really known anyone with cancer and no. no blades. please. and there's absolutely nothing i can do from here but i hate seeing you guys in pain just please. no.

isaac: oh my gosh im rly sorry i hope shes okay dude

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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 528460)

Oh my gosh, Tredom, I'm sooo, so sorry about your friend!! D: I really do hope she'll be alright! Keep us updated on how she's doing, alright?

thanks guys

and wait shit ok forgot to mention can u guys not quote that post

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 528462)

thank you so much because its so hard to even feel like im a decent human being.

abt the adhd and dyslexia bit: newsflash not every person with a mental illness is like that.
im so sick of hearing it gets better i just wanna hear its okay to not be okay. because my anxiety and paranoia hasnt gotten any better, just worse. thanks though.

Yeah, I know that. But I don't even understand what people go through everyday when they have mental illnesses so please excuse my naivety. I just... I don't know. I mean, we've all felt pain like that. Loneliness, hating ourselves, wishing everything would just be perfect. And when I compare my problems to yours... I feel like a wimp. Because you guys are so strong and I see you coming on here everyday (or often, anyway) and you put up with all the stupid stuff in life and I complain about stupidest things. And every day you're here I know you're OK. Actually, maybe not OK. But you're still here. And I feel so stupid but you guys actually let me see what you go through. And what sucks the most is people who just think that what you put up with is just nonsense. Because, in all honesty, that's what I thought before I met you all. And you guys... I don't know, educated me in a way nobody else every could. As sappy as it sounds, thank you. So I'm so sorry for whatever I've ever said or done to offend you because I honestly wish I could do something. I feel so useless just sitting here and not being able to help you guys.

I just hate that I can't do anything.

and she's fucking signing packets to leave the goddam hospital

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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 528475)

and she's fucking signing packets to leave the goddam hospital

@isaac: oh my god i'm so sorry i really hope she's okay *hugs u really tight*

oh my god, i hope she's okay isaac *hugs*

SO i had a meeting with my co ord today and she addressed it with the girl and stuff. she called my mum about it