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pluzzle 08-24-2014 04:57 PM

no 1 rly? cares??? like im not sayin that to get ppl to care im just statin facts. i dont know why im still alive. delete me

SilverMoon 08-24-2014 05:06 PM

Sometimes I really hate KidPub??? I mean, I thought I liked the people here. Then again, I'm very selfish about the people I like. But it doesn't matter. I used to view this place as a family; now it's just another slap in the face about reality and how far from 'socially acceptable' I am. I guess I'm only capable of liking a few people. It's better than real life here, but sometimes not. I liked my summer camp better. Idk. Maybe I should leave.

SilverMoon 08-24-2014 05:09 PM

But I just feel so powerless and why do I need to want to feel better than everyone and why do I need to have the upper hand on people and why do I like fear as a form of power and why do I like being above people like wtf why don't I get any respect and why is my idea of respect so twisted. Why am I a hypocrite and why do I demand respect when I don't respect anyone but I don't want to change it I just want my respect wtf I'm not even a good person anymore

SilverMoon 08-24-2014 05:10 PM

I hate feeling so helpless

SilverMoon 08-24-2014 05:12 PM

and I just hate people okay
I start school tomorrow am I gonna give people a chance? Haha fuck no
Screw it I don't want to associate with anyone new
I don't need to have an open mind sometimes
fuck it all

cloudwriter 08-24-2014 06:03 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by SilverMoon (Post 557898)
and I just hate people okay
I start school tomorrow am I gonna give people a chance? Haha fuck no
Screw it I don't want to associate with anyone new
I don't need to have an open mind sometimes
fuck it all

I get what you're feeling bro
about people and everything, but honestly, if you don't talk to anyone and make new friends school is kinda miserable.
I started Wednesday and I have three classes with absolutely no friends and all of the popular people. So far I've been sitting in these said classes silently, feeling miserable and hating school '
but then I started talking to some people and it's slowly getting better
so give people a chance ^_^

meerkat 08-24-2014 06:06 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by SilverMoon (Post 557898)
and I just hate people okay
I start school tomorrow am I gonna give people a chance? Haha fuck no
Screw it I don't want to associate with anyone new
I don't need to have an open mind sometimes
fuck it all

literally how i'm feeling.
if someone smiles at me in the halls, i smile back, but other than that there's not much actual interaction.
i'll try to stay out of everyone's way and see how it goes, i guess.

Ember 08-24-2014 06:17 PM

I kind of hate my friends?

And they did nothing wrong I just... I can't stand them and I just want to be alone and I don't know what I want I just feel so... Empty and I hate it. I hate feeling nothing. And I feel like a terrible person because my friends have done nothing wrong they are just so juvenile and obnoxious and I just get so irritable around them and I don't want to feel this way I don't want to be a stuck up b***** but I can't stand them. I just can't stand them. I feel like I'm not good enough for them and at the same time they aren't good for me. I don't know how I feel and underneath it all there is just this undercurrent of complete, stifling apathy. The apathy is what hurts the most. Because it is just nothingness. I can't breathe and I can't feel and I almost want to put myself in situations that will hurt me so I can feel something. But my life is just boring, it's just nothingness and I have to read this stupid book for English and all I want to do is escape into words of a real book rather than a book on Grammar but I can't until I finish this stupid book and this sounds really petty.
I'm just tired and empty and I feel like things aren't changing fast enough. I'm sick of my house I'm sick of where I live I'm sick of this emptiness. And I'm growing up too fast and I don't know what to do. My problems are really petty and I'm sorry.

Ember 08-24-2014 06:18 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by SilverMoon (Post 557898)
and I just hate people okay
I start school tomorrow am I gonna give people a chance? Haha fuck no
Screw it I don't want to associate with anyone new
I don't need to have an open mind sometimes
fuck it all

My feelings exactly.

cloudwriter 08-24-2014 06:19 PM

Watch me screw this up royally, make it so awkward, or say something accidently offensive
but I'm so fricking happy right now
and I know that's going to all crash down sooner or later and that's scary as heck


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