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TheAshWolf 06-06-2012 01:43 AM

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Originally Posted by Sandy (Post 293852)
I changed to "we" because I'm referring to my parents. XD They've blown so much money on art stuff for me. Sorry for not mentioning, you must have thought I was talking in neologisms. XD DX
Yeah, I guess, and if I went to an art school for college then I'm sure they would have some kind of employment plan set in place. And I could always apply for a crummy side job to make ends meet and stuff.
And no, of course it wouldn't. 8D But... I don't know if you remember this or want to hear it but remember when I had a little spat with LJM on A/N while I was trying to help her sort through her "schizophrenia"? She accused me of being overly analytical, like I was just watching her like a puzzle instead of a person, like a math equation. I've been turning that over in my mind too... Does that mean something?
I'm a lot different than I was back when I was having... difficulties... and I know that I'm stronger (like someone else on WB was saying, it's puberty) and won't flip out over seeing stuff, which I never really did in the first place. Being shown pictures of crime scenes, ripped-up bodies, talking to and watching people who are dangerous...? I don't think that overly scary, I've never been one to shy away from intimidating people. And plus, Criminal Minds most likely, no, most definitely blows things right out of proportion, because dealing with killers and "L, I AM JUSTICE!" is not necessarily what forensic psychologists do, sometimes they can be in legal things with custody battles and such, I would think, if one of the parents was abusive kind of thing and dealing with juvenile delinquency. I don't think forensic psychology would be any gloomier than funeral planning or putting makeup on dead bodies, which I don't find gloomy at all. I mean, it's just a dead body, not the apocalypse of all joy and happiness.

neologisms. That's the word. I couldn't remember what it was called. XD
Yeaaaaahhhh. I was like, "e_0 Um, okay, POV change...that's...not...troubling.....maybe she just means her parents? @_@"
Derp on my part.

0_0 I don't think it means anything. She was just upset at how you were talking to her. Nothing more.

All I can say at this point, Cass, is that you should do whatever you like the best. <:^J You haven't made some huge commitment to drawing. And even if you DO end up as a forensic psychologist, that doesn't mean you have to stop drawing altogether. You could still do comics and graphic novels and paintings and stuff in your spare time. Maybe even sell some stuff through dA.

MaryElizabeth 06-06-2012 01:50 AM

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Originally Posted by BlueMi (Post 293952)
Oh. My. God. My brother is being SUCH a little a-hole. >_<

My dad just got back from a business trip, and he brought back a video game that he bought for us, and my brother's throwing a hissy fit because it isn't a game that he likes.

HONESTLY.
Dad didn't have you give you ANYTHING, ****. You should be pleased enough just because he's back. Screaming and crying? You're being a baby and a jerk.

Been there. :rolleyes:

BlueMi 06-06-2012 07:31 PM

HGSVAUBSDKV. I really don't want to bother anyone with my stupid crappy crappity life, but I need to get this out.

No one really cares about or notices me. When I try, I just feel stupid and people stare at me. When I don't try, I'm not noticed at all. I try everything. Bright colors, wacky hairstyles... I try so hard to be social and make new friends, but it's like no one cares about me. Even the people I consider my friends don't care about me. I was sitting amongst my friends when I stayed in for recess to do art the other, and I was literally crying (into my arm, so you couldn't see my face but I was shaking), and everyone was so wrapped up in their own stuff that no one even noticed that I was crying.

NO ONE FREAKING CARES ABOUT ME.

Plenty of people would consider me a friend, but I bet a million bucks there isn't one person in the world who would consider me their best friend. I don't have a best friend. I have friends, but no one who REALLY cares. They hang out with me for like a year, and then I get boring.

Am I just a toy? A plaything? Is that it?
IS THAT WHY ONE ONE EVEN NOTICES WHEN I'M OPENING CRYING RIGHT IN FRONT OF THEM?

And peoples' attitudes towards me aren't helping either. I'm a failure of a human being.

AlgebraAddict 06-06-2012 07:36 PM

You are depressing even me, Pokey.

Keep your chin up and be awesome. That's my only advice. And seriously, if I saw my friend crying, I would pretend to ignore them just to avoid the awkwardness of asking.

BlueMi 06-06-2012 07:38 PM

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Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 294686)
You are depressing even me, Pokey.

Keep your chin up and be awesome. That's my only advice. And seriously, if I saw my friend crying, I would pretend to ignore them just to avoid the awkwardness of asking.

But that's the thing. No one even saw me. No one even bothering looking my way. -.- But thanks...

nngo 06-06-2012 07:40 PM

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Originally Posted by BlueMi (Post 294678)
HGSVAUBSDKV. I really don't want to bother anyone with my stupid crappy crappity life, but I need to get this out.

No one really cares about or notices me. When I try, I just feel stupid and people stare at me. When I don't try, I'm not noticed at all. I try everything. Bright colors, wacky hairstyles... I try so hard to be social and make new friends, but it's like no one cares about me. Even the people I consider my friends don't care about me. I was sitting amongst my friends when I stayed in for recess to do art the other, and I was literally crying (into my arm, so you couldn't see my face but I was shaking), and everyone was so wrapped up in their own stuff that no one even noticed that I was crying.

NO ONE FREAKING CARES ABOUT ME.

Plenty of people would consider me a friend, but I bet a million bucks there isn't one person in the world who would consider me their best friend. I don't have a best friend. I have friends, but no one who REALLY cares. They hang out with me for like a year, and then I get boring.

Am I just a toy? A plaything? Is that it?
IS THAT WHY ONE ONE EVEN NOTICES WHEN I'M OPENING CRYING RIGHT IN FRONT OF THEM?

And peoples' attitudes towards me aren't helping either. I'm a failure of a human being.

No. You are a person. We care. You're not a failure, you survived, didn't you? You're not failing anything. You don't need people to notice you, not the people who don't care. You don't have to do all that to get a best friend. I'm positive you'll find a best friend in your school, but maybe you're not looking in the right place. Best friends just come to you. And here on Kidpub, we're your friends too, just over the Internet. Just remember, please, that we do care.

AlgebraAddict 06-06-2012 07:44 PM

God, you are depressing, Pokey! Keep your chin up! You'll find someone, and in the meantime, just blame it on the hormones when you get depressed. :) You're great, so keep going.

Sandy 06-06-2012 08:26 PM

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Originally Posted by BlueMi (Post 294678)
HGSVAUBSDKV. I really don't want to bother anyone with my stupid crappy crappity life, but I need to get this out.

No one really cares about or notices me. When I try, I just feel stupid and people stare at me. When I don't try, I'm not noticed at all. I try everything. Bright colors, wacky hairstyles... I try so hard to be social and make new friends, but it's like no one cares about me. Even the people I consider my friends don't care about me. I was sitting amongst my friends when I stayed in for recess to do art the other, and I was literally crying (into my arm, so you couldn't see my face but I was shaking), and everyone was so wrapped up in their own stuff that no one even noticed that I was crying.

NO ONE FREAKING CARES ABOUT ME.

Plenty of people would consider me a friend, but I bet a million bucks there isn't one person in the world who would consider me their best friend. I don't have a best friend. I have friends, but no one who REALLY cares. They hang out with me for like a year, and then I get boring.

Am I just a toy? A plaything? Is that it?
IS THAT WHY ONE ONE EVEN NOTICES WHEN I'M OPENING CRYING RIGHT IN FRONT OF THEM?

And peoples' attitudes towards me aren't helping either. I'm a failure of a human being.

Bro... I know that feeling, but I'm sure you just need to open your eyes.
Sometimes I feel like that and it hurts, and it feels good to wallow in my self-pity but it's silly and it's not going to make me feel better in the end. I used to get lonely like that and wonder if I would ever be someone's "best friend". And then I remembered that I didn't particularly care, and that's what snapped me out of it.
Maybe you feel like nobody notices BECAUSE you are openly crying.
People don't want to be with someone who will make them sad or make them hurt--a common misconception with the "I'm sad, someone has to come save me" theme that many people, mostly girls, live under. You have to realize that what people are searching for when they look for friends is someone who is strong, stable, and a good time. Deep down, they ALL want someone to save them from their own problems, and I'll bet you that at least one of your friends feels the same way you do right now.
How can people notice you if you're crying when everyone else is crying too? People don't fall for a person's frown. They fall for a person's smile.
You've got to push past this and realize that no, chances are, not a lot of people care about you, and only a couple of people would give their life for you (depending on the size, closeness, relations of your family and close friends), but you have to accept that because no one else has a flock of people eager to be sacrificed for that person. Maybe you're not really wanting to be noticed, maybe it's something deeper than that that you don't know about. Or maybe it's just mood swings.
Whatever it is, I know how you feel, and it'll fade in a little while, just push through it. :)

Lily09 06-06-2012 09:39 PM

Can't write anymore.
Just depend on music constantly, until I go deaf. And I can't even fill the room with total music, I can only use earbuds. Sucks.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nejTnJt-nmw
*warning: f word in beginning*
It feels like there's very little desire to write anymore. When I do, it turns out really morbid or just an angsty rant with no talent. It seems like writing doesn't even MATTER anymore. Just music, and I can't even share that with anybody but one of my friends (who I'm pretty sure is tired about me texting lyrics and links) because I'm pretty sure nobody in my family likes rock or metal. So I'm stuck listening to Sick Puppies, Three Days Grace, Egypt Central, and Shinedown on my own.
MEH.

Sandy 06-06-2012 10:49 PM

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 294840)
It feels like there's very little desire to write anymore. When I do, it turns out really morbid or just an angsty rant with no talent. It seems like writing doesn't even MATTER anymore. Just music, and I can't even share that with anybody but one of my friends (who I'm pretty sure is tired about me texting lyrics and links) because I'm pretty sure nobody in my family likes rock or metal. So I'm stuck listening to Sick Puppies, Three Days Grace, Egypt Central, and Shinedown on my own.
MEH.

Same here man. It's kind of strange, but I'm a little used to it. All I seem to care about is forensics and psychology. ._.
No one else in my family likes angsty rock and metal, escept for my dad, who seems to like every other metal band other than the ones I like, whom he has reserved a special hatred for. (He hates the Three Days Grace voice... TIME FOR HIM TO DIEEEEEEEE)
It's okay, I'm stuck listening to those exact same bands plus KoRn (ESPECIALLY KoRn) all on my own, have been for about two years now.
;_;
Ah well.
(By the way, I don't know if I've asked you this already but have you heard "Bully" by Shinedown?)


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