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HeatherB 03-10-2013 06:12 PM

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Originally Posted by soph-soph27 (Post 436972)
Good to know that I'm not alone with my close to insanity. I mean about the laughter. That's always there. You know, I feel so normal, but I wonder if I'm not going slightly clinically insane. It's kind of a scary calm.

Yeah. Yeah, I know what you mean.
(but i don't exactly feel that way)
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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 436936)
Yeah, I think that's a fairly good description, sorta…
*hugs*
Thanks.

Okay, good. I'm sorry for all the metaphor shit, it's just how I try to understand things-- give them distance from myself so I pretend like I don't have the same issues and it's really about THIS because look isn't it THIS so much like (that) but don't talk about (that) because it's really just THIS and THIS is normal.
You're welcome.
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Originally Posted by CACrools (Post 436974)
I'll just die here, in the corner... at least I won't have to worry about grades any more. eff you Chinese. I hope you die a slow and painful death. OH WAIT, YOU CAN'T because you are a stupid virtual class. why do you have to be so effing stupid. I CARE NONE for your stupid tests, and your god-awful oral exams. so just eff off, because I'm ready to die now...

Don't feel that way--not about Chinese (I feel that way about Chinese too frankly) but the death part. *glomps*

L.S.Trendom 03-10-2013 06:13 PM

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 436969)
god i screw everything up

No, you don't.

CACrools 03-10-2013 06:17 PM

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 436984)
Don't feel that way--not about Chinese (I feel that way about Chinese too frankly) but the death part. *glomps*

Thank you... I have to do a stinking Virtual class and it's just sh*tty, absolutely crappy. I don't learn well that way, whatsoever. I thought they learned that last year when I totally botched Algebra Virtually...

HeatherB 03-10-2013 06:17 PM

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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 436989)
No, you don't.

Au contraire.

soph-soph27 03-10-2013 06:18 PM

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 436984)
Yeah. Yeah, I know what you mean.
(but i don't exactly feel that way)

Okay, good. I'm sorry for all the metaphor shit, it's just how I try to understand things-- give them distance from myself so I pretend like I don't have the same issues and it's really about THIS because look isn't it THIS so much like (that) but don't talk about (that) because it's really just THIS and THIS is normal.
You're welcome.

Don't feel that way--not about Chinese (I feel that way about Chinese too frankly) but the death part. *glomps*

Yeah. Heather, it's like living under a camera. Suddenly I feel incredibly paranoid, because nothing is safe...nothing is safe, nothing is right, everything is WRONG. EVERYTHING IS WRONG, and it will stay wrong because I can't do it. I don't even know what IT is but I know that I can't do it.

HeatherB 03-10-2013 06:19 PM

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Originally Posted by CACrools (Post 437000)
Thank you... I have to do a stinking Virtual class and it's just sh*tty, absolutely crappy. I don't learn well that way, whatsoever. I thought they learned that last year when I totally botched Algebra Virtually...

Any time. I've never taken virtual classes but my grandparents (who are, surprise, Chinese) forced Chinese classes on my cousin and me for like three years and I only barely got out of that. But my experiences with learning foreign languages are honestly some of my worst experiences. .-.

cheezemziez 03-10-2013 06:20 PM

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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 436978)
I am. I don't think how anyone else couldn't realise the same thing, if they knew the things that make me think that…
Thank you.

You won't always be f***ed up, then. Maybe they would think so, maybe they wouldn't. But no matter what this hypothetical person thinks, they are just one hypothetical person.

L.S.Trendom 03-10-2013 06:20 PM

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 437002)
Au contraire.

Well, if you screw everything up, then so do I.

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Originally Posted by cheezemziez (Post 437007)
You won't always be f***ed up, then. Maybe they would think so, maybe they wouldn't. But no matter what this hypothetical person thinks, they are just one hypothetical person.

*hopes so*
I really don't see how said hypothetical person wouldn't think so, too.

HeatherB 03-10-2013 06:20 PM

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Originally Posted by soph-soph27 (Post 437003)
Yeah. Heather, it's like living under a camera. Suddenly I feel incredibly paranoid, because nothing is safe...nothing is safe, nothing is right, everything is WRONG. EVERYTHING IS WRONG, and it will stay wrong because I can't do it. I don't even know what IT is but I know that I can't do it.

*hugs* I think you can do, it though.
For me it's different, obviously. It's not under a camera so much as in front of a mirror. Everything I do is reflected back and it's all distorted so I don't know what's the truth and what's the lie but I do know that I'm the one who's distorting the mirror and I don't know whether that's because I distort everything or because I can't handle knowing which is which or both.

soph-soph27 03-10-2013 06:23 PM

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 437009)
*hugs* I think you can do, it though.
For me it's different, obviously. It's not under a camera so much as in front of a mirror. Everything I do is reflected back and it's all distorted so I don't know what's the truth and what's the lie but I do know that I'm the one who's distorting the mirror and I don't know whether that's because I distort everything or because I can't handle knowing which is which or both.

Gosh, a camera and a mirror. What an effed up pair of friends we are. One reflects, one records, and and when you look at the recording you don't see anything, and reflections aren't permanent.

HeatherB 03-10-2013 06:24 PM

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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 437008)
Well, if you screw everything up, then so do I.

How so? I'm just more litter on this planet and do you ever feel like a plastic bag drifting through the wind hell yes I do because I'm a plastic bag that's been so full of everything for so damn long and now it's scattering and scarring everywhere and everything and I don't know what to do about it so I just drift on the wind hahaha Im trying to make lyrics of a Katy Perry song into a metaphor for myself this wont end well

CACrools 03-10-2013 06:25 PM

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 437005)
Any time. I've never taken virtual classes but my grandparents (who are, surprise, Chinese) forced Chinese classes on my cousin and me for like three years and I only barely got out of that. But my experiences with learning foreign languages are honestly some of my worst experiences. .-.

I'm ready for next year... I ACTUALLY GET A TEACHER FOR CHINESE...

HeatherB 03-10-2013 06:25 PM

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Originally Posted by soph-soph27 (Post 437012)
Gosh, a camera and a mirror. What an effed up pair of friends we are. One reflects, one records, and and when you look at the recording you don't see anything, and reflections aren't permanent.

This is all true.
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Originally Posted by CACrools (Post 437016)
I'm ready for next year... I ACTUALLY GET A TEACHER FOR CHINESE...

Well, that's good.

L.S.Trendom 03-10-2013 06:28 PM

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 437015)
How so? I'm just more litter on this planet and do you ever feel like a plastic bag drifting through the wind hell yes I do because I'm a plastic bag that's been so full of everything for so damn long and now it's scattering and scarring everywhere and everything and I don't know what to do about it so I just drift on the wind hahaha Im trying to make lyrics of a Katy Perry song into a metaphor for myself this wont end well

I'm really good at f***ing things up, but even I don't believe I mess everything up, so you definitely don't either.
You're not litter or a plastic bag. You're a diamond, a star, a bright spot in the world that helps make life worth living. *hugs*

soph-soph27 03-10-2013 06:30 PM

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 437017)
This is all true.

Well, that's good.

ʇ,uɐɔ noʎ ʍouʞ noʎ uǝɥʍ uoıʇsǝnb ʇɐɥʇ ʞɔsɐ uǝʌǝ noʎ op ʎɥʍ ou ʇɥbıɟ ı ʇ,uɐɔ uɐǝɯ ı ʎɐʍ puɐ ʇı sı ןןǝɥ ǝɥʇ ʇɐɥʍ puɐ ʎɐʍʎuɐ buıןɐǝʇs ʇı sı ןןǝɥ ǝɥʇ ʇɐɥʍ os ǝɔɐןd ʇsɹıɟ ǝɥʇ uı buıɥʇʎuɐ pǝǝu ʇ,upıp ı ʇnq buıɥʇʎɹǝʌǝ buıןɐǝsʇ puɐ ǝɯ buıʇɹnɥ s,ʇı ʇnq uoıʇɔǝʇoɹd ɹoɟ ʇı pǝǝu ı ǝsnɐɔǝq ʎɐʍɐ ob ʇ,uoʍ ʇsnظ ʇɐɥʇ ǝɹɐɯʇɥbıu ǝןqıɹɹoɥ sıɥʇ ǝʞıן s,ʇı ǝdɐɔsǝ ı ʇ,uɐɔ ʎɥʍ buıuǝddɐɥ sı ʞɔǝɥ ǝɥʇ ʇɐɥʍ

I honestly don't expect anyone to read that. Maybe it's how I'll post everything nowadays.

HeatherB 03-10-2013 06:30 PM

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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 437021)
I'm really good at f***ing things up, but even I don't believe I mess everything up, so you definitely don't either.
You're not litter or a plastic bag. You're a diamond, a star, a bright spot in the world that helps make life worth living. *hugs*

Thank you. Oh but please not a diamond because that reminds me of that trashy Rihanna song and I just--no thank you. xD *hugs back* *feels a little better*

avbhabra 03-10-2013 07:09 PM

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 436969)
Tell me about it... *sympathy ice cream* I was diagnosed with bronchitis yesterday.

god i screw everything up

Nothing much to say. I've been singing all day long. And I sang. And I sang. And I sangs some more. Until my throat hurt like crazy. D: I can barely talk. :( But it's OK, I'm Spiderman, I can live. xD

Sorry, Random Spasm, I get those...xD

avbhabra 03-10-2013 08:07 PM

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 437131)
help me

i am scared of myself

You shouldn't be!! You're strong, pluzzle, you can do it. YOU CAN DO IT!!!! *hugs* I'm not good at comforting people. >_<

LaurenM 03-11-2013 05:52 AM

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 437005)
Any time. I've never taken virtual classes but my grandparents (who are, surprise, Chinese) forced Chinese classes on my cousin and me for like three years and I only barely got out of that. But my experiences with learning foreign languages are honestly some of my worst experiences. .-.

I don't even know why I'm born Chinese. I'm so bad at it that it's embarrassing.

BearWithAStrawberry 03-11-2013 04:36 PM

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Originally Posted by LaurenM (Post 437319)
I don't even know why I'm born Chinese. I'm so bad at it that it's embarrassing.

Ditto.
SO.
BAD.
AT.
CHINESE!!
(I have to take it)
WHYYYY?????????
/claws arms/
WHHYHYYYY??????
Isn't Ni Hao enough??!?!?!?!?!

TheAshWolf 03-11-2013 05:03 PM

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Originally Posted by BearWithAStrawberry (Post 437385)
Ditto.
SO.
BAD.
AT.
CHINESE!!
(I have to take it)
WHYYYY?????????
/claws arms/
WHHYHYYYY??????
Isn't Ni Hao enough??!?!?!?!?!

*groans* I'm the same way with Spanish. x_x *headdesks* WHY DO THERE HAVE TO BE MASCULINE AND FEMININE NOUNS? A chair and a book and all other inanimate objects do not HAVE a gender, so, why are we assigning them one? ._. And conjugating verbs...uggghhhh...it's so hard...

L.S.Trendom 03-11-2013 05:55 PM

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 437395)
*groans* I'm the same way with Spanish. x_x *headdesks* WHY DO THERE HAVE TO BE MASCULINE AND FEMININE NOUNS? A chair and a book and all other inanimate objects do not HAVE a gender, so, why are we assigning them one? ._. And conjugating verbs...uggghhhh...it's so hard...

hey at least there's not like eight genders, like in… German, I think? *optimism* :p

cheezemziez 03-11-2013 06:33 PM

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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 437407)
hey at least there's not like eight genders, like in… German, I think? *optimism* :p

Nein, Deutsch hat drei.

cheezemziez 03-11-2013 06:36 PM

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Originally Posted by LaurenM (Post 437319)
I don't even know why I'm born Chinese. I'm so bad at it that it's embarrassing.

I know the feel, bro. After over five years of Chinese schooling, my abilities extend to being able to converse vaguely with other Chinese-English kids in my class and creating amusing mistranslations of people's names. Go me.

cheezemziez 03-11-2013 06:37 PM

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Originally Posted by cheezemziez (Post 437418)
Nein, Deutsch hat drei.

(No, German has three)

HeatherB 03-11-2013 06:51 PM

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Originally Posted by soph-soph27 (Post 437024)
ʇ,uɐɔ noʎ ʍouʞ noʎ uǝɥʍ uoıʇsǝnb ʇɐɥʇ ʞɔsɐ uǝʌǝ noʎ op ʎɥʍ ou ʇɥbıɟ ı ʇ,uɐɔ uɐǝɯ ı ʎɐʍ puɐ ʇı sı ןןǝɥ ǝɥʇ ʇɐɥʍ puɐ ʎɐʍʎuɐ buıןɐǝʇs ʇı sı ןןǝɥ ǝɥʇ ʇɐɥʍ os ǝɔɐןd ʇsɹıɟ ǝɥʇ uı buıɥʇʎuɐ pǝǝu ʇ,upıp ı ʇnq buıɥʇʎɹǝʌǝ buıןɐǝsʇ puɐ ǝɯ buıʇɹnɥ s,ʇı ʇnq uoıʇɔǝʇoɹd ɹoɟ ʇı pǝǝu ı ǝsnɐɔǝq ʎɐʍɐ ob ʇ,uoʍ ʇsnظ ʇɐɥʇ ǝɹɐɯʇɥbıu ǝןqıɹɹoɥ sıɥʇ ǝʞıן s,ʇı ǝdɐɔsǝ ı ʇ,uɐɔ ʎɥʍ buıuǝddɐɥ sı ʞɔǝɥ ǝɥʇ ʇɐɥʍ

I honestly don't expect anyone to read that. Maybe it's how I'll post everything nowadays.

I read that, by the way.
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Originally Posted by L.S.Trendom (Post 437407)
hey at least there's not like eight genders, like in… German, I think? *optimism* :p

In Chinese there are like 46 beginnings and 24 endings and 4 ways to pronounce each combination don't tell me that's not fucked up. xD

soph-soph27 03-11-2013 06:59 PM

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 437435)
I read that, by the way.

In Chinese there are like 46 beginnings and 24 endings and 4 ways to pronounce each combination don't tell me that's not fucked up. xD

Thanks. I think. *strange smile*

BearWithAStrawberry 03-11-2013 06:59 PM

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 437435)
I read that, by the way.

In Chinese there are like 46 beginnings and 24 endings and 4 ways to pronounce each combination don't tell me that's not fucked up. xD





I hate those little slashie things that tell you how to pronounce it.
Whut do dose even mean????????
I just th ink of some english word that it rhymes with

avbhabra 03-11-2013 07:01 PM

I think I'm sick... and I feel awful. :(

cheezemziez 03-11-2013 07:08 PM

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 437435)
I read that, by the way.

In Chinese there are like 46 beginnings and 24 endings and 4 ways to pronounce each combination don't tell me that's not fucked up. xD

THERE ARE SO MANY INDIVIDUAL CHARACTERS THAT NO ONE IN THE HISTORY OF EVER HAS LEARNT THEM ALL. And no one ever will. Chinese is a mountain I cannot climb. (oh, the irony)

HeatherB 03-11-2013 08:13 PM

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Originally Posted by cheezemziez (Post 437460)
THERE ARE SO MANY INDIVIDUAL CHARACTERS THAT NO ONE IN THE HISTORY OF EVER HAS LEARNT THEM ALL. And no one ever will. Chinese is a mountain I cannot climb. (oh, the irony)

I KNOW RIGHT. (haha)
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Originally Posted by BearWithAStrawberry (Post 437444)
I hate those little slashie things that tell you how to pronounce it.
Whut do dose even mean????????
I just th ink of some english word that it rhymes with

There're the first, second, third, and fourth tone markings.
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Originally Posted by avbhabra (Post 437449)
I think I'm sick... and I feel awful. :(

*hugs* I'm sorry! Feel better soon...

Lily09 03-11-2013 08:25 PM

Thai has those little slashie thingymajiggies too >.> my relative tried teaching me once but i just got impatient because i can barely speak it fluently how am i supposed to write it.

avbhabra 03-11-2013 09:18 PM

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 437487)
I KNOW RIGHT. (haha)

There're the first, second, third, and fourth tone markings.


*hugs* I'm sorry! Feel better soon...

Tankeh. :p

avbhabra 03-11-2013 10:07 PM

I was feeling mad. Very mad. Extrememly mad. *take a deep breath* I'm fine now. Fine. Yeah, I'm good. I think. I hope. I'm fine. I'm good. Just great, thanks. Sorry, I had to let it out. I barely feel anything anymore. I never really get mad but tonight was an exception. Where I got really mad. Painfully mad. But I'm fine. *sighs* I'm good.

BearWithAStrawberry 03-11-2013 11:18 PM

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Originally Posted by avbhabra (Post 437549)
I was feeling mad. Very mad. Extrememly mad. *take a deep breath* I'm fine now. Fine. Yeah, I'm good. I think. I hope. I'm fine. I'm good. Just great, thanks. Sorry, I had to let it out. I barely feel anything anymore. I never really get mad but tonight was an exception. Where I got really mad. Painfully mad. But I'm fine. *sighs* I'm good.

i feel for you.
i repetitively banged my self against a wall until i couldn't feel my body anymore.
it felt good

TheAshWolf 03-12-2013 12:44 AM

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Originally Posted by soph-soph27 (Post 437024)
ʇ,uɐɔ noʎ ʍouʞ noʎ uǝɥʍ uoıʇsǝnb ʇɐɥʇ ʞɔsɐ uǝʌǝ noʎ op ʎɥʍ ou ʇɥbıɟ ı ʇ,uɐɔ uɐǝɯ ı ʎɐʍ puɐ ʇı sı ןןǝɥ ǝɥʇ ʇɐɥʍ puɐ ʎɐʍʎuɐ buıןɐǝʇs ʇı sı ןןǝɥ ǝɥʇ ʇɐɥʍ os ǝɔɐןd ʇsɹıɟ ǝɥʇ uı buıɥʇʎuɐ pǝǝu ʇ,upıp ı ʇnq buıɥʇʎɹǝʌǝ buıןɐǝsʇ puɐ ǝɯ buıʇɹnɥ s,ʇı ʇnq uoıʇɔǝʇoɹd ɹoɟ ʇı pǝǝu ı ǝsnɐɔǝq ʎɐʍɐ ob ʇ,uoʍ ʇsnظ ʇɐɥʇ ǝɹɐɯʇɥbıu ǝןqıɹɹoɥ sıɥʇ ǝʞıן s,ʇı ǝdɐɔsǝ ı ʇ,uɐɔ ʎɥʍ buıuǝddɐɥ sı ʞɔǝɥ ǝɥʇ ʇɐɥʍ

I honestly don't expect anyone to read that. Maybe it's how I'll post everything nowadays.

O_O How in the world did you do that?

(LOL, the advantage of having a laptop: you can turn it upside down to read stuff. XD)

Anyway. :^I

I'm not entirely sure what's wrong, but I really really hope things get better for you soon, soph. :(

LaurenM 03-12-2013 12:56 AM

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Originally Posted by BearWithAStrawberry (Post 437385)
Ditto.
SO.
BAD.
AT.
CHINESE!!
(I have to take it)
WHYYYY?????????
/claws arms/
WHHYHYYYY??????
Isn't Ni Hao enough??!?!?!?!?!

We just say 'hi'.

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Originally Posted by cheezemziez (Post 437420)
I know the feel, bro. After over five years of Chinese schooling, my abilities extend to being able to converse vaguely with other Chinese-English kids in my class and creating amusing mistranslations of people's names. Go me.

Go Cheeze! :D
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Originally Posted by cheezemziez (Post 437421)
(No, German has three)

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Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 437435)
I read that, by the way.

In Chinese there are like 46 beginnings and 24 endings and 4 ways to pronounce each combination don't tell me that's not fucked up. xD

There are nine in Cantonese...but I'd much rather learn Cantonese because we speak in Cantonese. And we have a separate written and spoken language in Guangzhou and Hong Kong and Macau as well! Why can't we just write in the spoken language or speak in the written language in the first place?! Chinese would be so much easier!
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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 437602)
Well then.

*this should be on selfharm/cutting thread but i clicked on this one sorry*

I just cut at school.

I haven't done that before...

I couldn't take it. I excused myself to the bathroom and went to my locker, got the razor, ACTUALLY WENT TO THE BATHROOM and did it.

And my 'friend' just said she wanted a better life - because her computer was frozen.

Excuse me, but - do you hear US complaining (us meaning KP) about self-harming, suicidal thoughts, and /possibly/ (but likely) clinical depression?

Your life is so much worse than ours, isn't it, Sophie? It's so much worse, having your laptop freeze, than eating disorders, mental disorders, and voices in your head?

Ugh. You make me sick.

Sorry I'm complaining... I just wanted to say that. Bleh.

It's okay. Though I do sometimes feel awful when my laptop freezes up, but not as a reason to cut.
Now, to think of it, I don't even know why I cut.

Lily09 03-12-2013 02:36 AM

im scared. im really fucking scared. im scared that you wont be there long enough to see me get better, and if you do leave i dont know what id do without you id probably kill myself. i sound so pathetic and clingy and needy sorrysorrysorrysorrysorry. im three years younger than you and i dont even know you in person but youre the only person i can call a best friend even if im not yours i dont really give a fuck. im just scared youll walk out because what if i dont get better? how long will you be there for me? what if you walk out? i dont know what the fuck id do or who to talk to or fangirl to or talk about my day to, im really fucking afraid and its pathetic, absolutely pathetic.
sometimes i just wish i wasnt dependent that i could live without speaking to anyone because that would save me a lot of trouble
im sorry for sounding so clingy
friends
i hate having friends
even if i dont know them in person

BearWithAStrawberry 03-12-2013 03:18 PM

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 437643)
im scared. im really fucking scared. im scared that you wont be there long enough to see me get better, and if you do leave i dont know what id do without you id probably kill myself. i sound so pathetic and clingy and needy sorrysorrysorrysorrysorry. im three years younger than you and i dont even know you in person but youre the only person i can call a best friend even if im not yours i dont really give a fuck. im just scared youll walk out because what if i dont get better? how long will you be there for me? what if you walk out? i dont know what the fuck id do or who to talk to or fangirl to or talk about my day to, im really fucking afraid and its pathetic, absolutely pathetic.
sometimes i just wish i wasnt dependent that i could live without speaking to anyone because that would save me a lot of trouble
im sorry for sounding so clingy
friends
i hate having friends
even if i dont know them in person




Awe, Lily. I know we aren't really "friends" (are we?), but everybody knows you are amazing and we all want to see you get better.
You are amazing, beautiful, radiant, smart, and an awesome writer!
I made something for you!
Largiloquent
Impeccable
Loving
Yes!!
FISTPUMP!
you can do this, lily!

BearWithAStrawberry 03-12-2013 03:19 PM

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 437667)
Guys.

If y'all have tumblr, blOCK ASMILINGMALICE (no caps though) PLEASE IF THAT IS EVEN POSSIBLE WTF

She is telling everyone to kill themselves, and she is a downright bitch. But seriously... don't listen to her. Some of the older stuff she said I found quite triggering.. :/

Um.
Okay?


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