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rebecca 06-15-2014 11:58 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 541805)
I have never been angry enough to hurt someone (other than myself) before. This is an interesting feeling. I would really enjoy taking the person and throttling them right now. Or just saying stuff I know would completely destroy them.

Let's write a letter because I can't find the thread where you write letters to people.



Ahem.


Dear C,

Just to clarify, I'm not bringing you to summer camp. I don't want to ever see you again, but honestly I don't care and I'll be fine with returning to school. You think I'm taking a year to homeschool for your benefit? I'm not. And honestly, I don't give a shit whether you want me back or not. Your opinion is something I give less than nothing about. I know you think I should respect what you think because you're my "best friend", but guess what darling, you're not. You're a fairweather friend- oh, are you not acquainted with that term? It's someone who is your bestest friend and wonderful and loves you to death when it's all sunny and happy, but as soon as storm clouds gather and you actually need them, no matter how much you think they cared about you, they're gone. That's you. Believe me when I say that you "giving me space" to "deal with my problems" is not how it's going to work. You want to ignore me for a summer so I can get through the stormy weather? That's fine, but don't expect me to take you back. If you are going to be my best friend when I'm perfectly fine and healthy, you are going to be my best friend when I'm not because that's what best friends are, and you my dear are not one. Is that how you think relationships work? Funny, I've regarded you as some kind of best friend in the whole world bla bla for almost seven years, and I knew you were a pain in the ass, but I never could have imagined you'd do this. Was this the plan? Is this how all your relationships are going to work? Yeah, I know I have stuff to deal with. Right now I'm going to therapy for self harm and depression and being borderline suicidal and hallucinatory and trying to recover from fucking anorexia, but you are not supposed to ditch me while I'm working out my shit and then take me back when I'm okay. I could deal with you ignoring my problems or telling me you didn't want to think about them because they were depressing, but this is too far. Of course I'm hurt that you abandon me when I most need you, but I could deal with that if you weren't fucking stupid enough to think we can resume our friendship as normal. Sorry, but if you gave a shit about me, you wouldn't be scared of "catching" something from me. Do you really think friendship works like that? I always stood by you, always, always, and now you just ditch me with a snap of the fingers and the words "I really can't be friends with an anorexic person, so you need to get better so that we can get back to bffls". You know what caused my eating disorder? Body image, and I got a big part of that from you. You bitched about your body constantly, and I assumed that then I was fat, which led to me quietly skipping lunch, and then breakfast, and then dinner, and then all of a fucking sudden I was ninety pounds and purging what little food I had and I could barely walk and then you started taking notice because you didn't want to be friends with an anorexic person. And then when you realized that I wasn't going to snap my fingers and all of a sudden be okay, you decided to leave me while I worked out my problems. I know you don't want to be the best friend of an anorexic. I don't want to be an anorexic, for that matter, but what you are trying to do is inexcusable. I thought you were my friend. I thought you were my goddamn best friend and you think I'm crazy but this is not. fucking. acceptable. Best friends do not leave their best friends when they most need them and then take them back when they are okay, and maybe it hasn't entered your thick skull, but your leaving in no way helps my chances of recovering from any of this. I was your best friend, even though you ridiculed me for being smart and had no faith in me when I sang. I got you a fucking kidpub account which I am damn glad you never use because this is the one place where I have people who don't decide to leave me because I'm depressed or anorexic or whatever the fuck is wrong with me this time. I was always fucking there for you and you had a family with my family and when everyone else hated you I stood by you and now you have lost all that. So you know what, fuck you. Fuck you fuck you fuck you.

What BookKitty said.
You need people as fabulous as you are to teleport over and decapitate that person. No, I am not volunteering. Even though, with my exams over, I do have a lot of time on my hands...

NO. NO KILLING. NO STABBY STAB STABBING. NO. IT'S NOT SOCIALLY ACCEPTABLE TO MURDER PEOPLE.

Sorry about that. I was just getting certain homicidal impulses. They should pass.

I'm going to be on KP a lot more now so if you need to summon me for serious talks, you can. I'll be here for you. You're freaking awesome. People like that don't deserve you as a friend. I mean, I'm not saying I automatically do as that is slightly too arrogant, but I'm considerably better given that I don't nope out on people. Shit. This has deteriorated. Give me one moment to think of a conclusion.

I can't think of a conclusion without repeating myself. Let's just pretend I did. Or something like that. Whatever. Concluded. I think. I'm out.

Puckbrina159 06-15-2014 11:59 AM

So I've kind of been off and on with KP. Summer vacation just started for me and it's probably going to be like that all summer.

But I have some feelings bottled up that I kind of want out. So here we go.

I feel like such a bitch when I think about T. I feel heartless. Like I'm not human. The way I'm sure I made her feel makes me feel like I am a massive fking bitch. I was going to leave a note with my number in her locker so that she could text me and we could at least text about it. Until I apologize to her I will continue to feel this way. I know I will.

E is really opening up my eyes to the monster I used to be. Either she's still upset with me and she's just not telling me (which I would understand completely) or she's literally trying to give me a taste of my own medicine. I really appreciate all she has done for me this year and all the happiness she gave me.

I sent a long sentimental text message on the last day of school to my main group of friends telling them how much I love them and how they helped me immensely when I needed it the most. Only one of them took it seriously which I guess I expected. The one that took it seriously is the one that I had/have a crush on and I thought I was over it, but us telling each other we love each other kind of re kindled my crush. I don't know how to feel about that. She's so sweet and kind and beautiful and I haven't stopped thinking about her saying that my text made her cry and then saying that she loved me and missed me already. I could keep talking about her for eternity but I'll just save you the pain of reading it and stop here.

Sorry this post is kind of stupid but I needed to do that.

mysterygirl 06-15-2014 12:18 PM

Well....I'm really depressed for whoever cares

LaurenM 06-15-2014 12:26 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 541805)
I have never been angry enough to hurt someone (other than myself) before. This is an interesting feeling. I would really enjoy taking the person and throttling them right now. Or just saying stuff I know would completely destroy them.

Let's write a letter because I can't find the thread where you write letters to people.



Ahem.


Dear C,

Just to clarify, I'm not bringing you to summer camp. I don't want to ever see you again, but honestly I don't care and I'll be fine with returning to school. You think I'm taking a year to homeschool for your benefit? I'm not. And honestly, I don't give a shit whether you want me back or not. Your opinion is something I give less than nothing about. I know you think I should respect what you think because you're my "best friend", but guess what darling, you're not. You're a fairweather friend- oh, are you not acquainted with that term? It's someone who is your bestest friend and wonderful and loves you to death when it's all sunny and happy, but as soon as storm clouds gather and you actually need them, no matter how much you think they cared about you, they're gone. That's you. Believe me when I say that you "giving me space" to "deal with my problems" is not how it's going to work. You want to ignore me for a summer so I can get through the stormy weather? That's fine, but don't expect me to take you back. If you are going to be my best friend when I'm perfectly fine and healthy, you are going to be my best friend when I'm not because that's what best friends are, and you my dear are not one. Is that how you think relationships work? Funny, I've regarded you as some kind of best friend in the whole world bla bla for almost seven years, and I knew you were a pain in the ass, but I never could have imagined you'd do this. Was this the plan? Is this how all your relationships are going to work? Yeah, I know I have stuff to deal with. Right now I'm going to therapy for self harm and depression and being borderline suicidal and hallucinatory and trying to recover from fucking anorexia, but you are not supposed to ditch me while I'm working out my shit and then take me back when I'm okay. I could deal with you ignoring my problems or telling me you didn't want to think about them because they were depressing, but this is too far. Of course I'm hurt that you abandon me when I most need you, but I could deal with that if you weren't fucking stupid enough to think we can resume our friendship as normal. Sorry, but if you gave a shit about me, you wouldn't be scared of "catching" something from me. Do you really think friendship works like that? I always stood by you, always, always, and now you just ditch me with a snap of the fingers and the words "I really can't be friends with an anorexic person, so you need to get better so that we can get back to bffls". You know what caused my eating disorder? Body image, and I got a big part of that from you. You bitched about your body constantly, and I assumed that then I was fat, which led to me quietly skipping lunch, and then breakfast, and then dinner, and then all of a fucking sudden I was ninety pounds and purging what little food I had and I could barely walk and then you started taking notice because you didn't want to be friends with an anorexic person. And then when you realized that I wasn't going to snap my fingers and all of a sudden be okay, you decided to leave me while I worked out my problems. I know you don't want to be the best friend of an anorexic. I don't want to be an anorexic, for that matter, but what you are trying to do is inexcusable. I thought you were my friend. I thought you were my goddamn best friend and you think I'm crazy but this is not. fucking. acceptable. Best friends do not leave their best friends when they most need them and then take them back when they are okay, and maybe it hasn't entered your thick skull, but your leaving in no way helps my chances of recovering from any of this. I was your best friend, even though you ridiculed me for being smart and had no faith in me when I sang. I got you a fucking kidpub account which I am damn glad you never use because this is the one place where I have people who don't decide to leave me because I'm depressed or anorexic or whatever the fuck is wrong with me this time. I was always fucking there for you and you had a family with my family and when everyone else hated you I stood by you and now you have lost all that. So you know what, fuck you. Fuck you fuck you fuck you.

YES. FUCK YOU, PERSON. FUCK YOU VERY MUCH.
i would advise you to kill them but...yeah, to be serious...don't. and don't take her back, as you won't. i hope you'll find another best friend who'll turn out a lot better

LaurenM 06-15-2014 12:28 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by mysterygirl (Post 541859)
Well....I'm really depressed for whoever cares

*hugs*
i really don't know what to say ack

AlgebraAddict 06-15-2014 02:06 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by BookKitty (Post 541819)
*huggles* you are right kidpub loves you and we will stand by you no matter what. just promise me one thing babe ;) do not go back to that girl. EVER. i don't know her, but i don't care. you are way too fabulous for that bitch. thanks for sharing by the way. you are very brave to do so. sometimes you need to just let that rant out. feel better now? i hope so. :p

uuuuugh yes thank you that was at like two o clock in the morning when I was writing that and I was about to blow a fuse so yes I feel much better now

Quote:

Originally Posted by mysterygirl (Post 541859)
Well....I'm really depressed for whoever cares

*huggles* it gets better I promise I know it sounds cliche but it's true, promise

Quote:

Originally Posted by LaurenM (Post 541861)
YES. FUCK YOU, PERSON. FUCK YOU VERY MUCH.
i would advise you to kill them but...yeah, to be serious...don't. and don't take her back, as you won't. i hope you'll find another best friend who'll turn out a lot better

I have a best friend ish person who's a sophomore and is like fantastic and always there for me and stuff

Quote:

Originally Posted by rebecca (Post 541855)
What BookKitty said.
You need people as fabulous as you are to teleport over and decapitate that person. No, I am not volunteering. Even though, with my exams over, I do have a lot of time on my hands...

NO. NO KILLING. NO STABBY STAB STABBING. NO. IT'S NOT SOCIALLY ACCEPTABLE TO MURDER PEOPLE.

Sorry about that. I was just getting certain homicidal impulses. They should pass.

I'm going to be on KP a lot more now so if you need to summon me for serious talks, you can. I'll be here for you. You're freaking awesome. People like that don't deserve you as a friend. I mean, I'm not saying I automatically do as that is slightly too arrogant, but I'm considerably better given that I don't nope out on people. Shit. This has deteriorated. Give me one moment to think of a conclusion.

I can't think of a conclusion without repeating myself. Let's just pretend I did. Or something like that. Whatever. Concluded. I think. I'm out.


You definitely deserve me as a friend. You're fabulous, I'm fabulous. :cool: it works

rebecca 06-15-2014 02:12 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 541873)

You definitely deserve me as a friend. You're fabulous, I'm fabulous. :cool: it works

Being fabulous is an art form. I'm either Picaso or Dali. Whoever's weirdest.

AlgebraAddict 06-15-2014 03:22 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by rebecca (Post 541875)
Being fabulous is an art form. I'm either Picaso or Dali. Whoever's weirdest.

Dali, then.

http://media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/23...1d6002861c.jpg

http://cdn.rickramos.com/wp-content/...ador-Dali1.jpg

http://media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/23...e799cd3f5b.jpg

http://i.imgur.com/9IOuN.jpg.jpg

rebecca 06-15-2014 04:08 PM

I want that moustache.
I'm not even capable of growing a moustache, let alone a moustache that majestic, but still, I can dream.
Moustache.

TheAshWolf 06-15-2014 08:15 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by mysterygirl (Post 541859)
Well....I'm really depressed for whoever cares

Same. Depression is terrible, isn't it? <:^/ (*hugs*) I feel your pain. And/or lack thereof.


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