lvhamsters |
12-18-2012 10:15 PM |
1) One of my best friends is ignoring me and I have no clue why ;~; I want to ask him but I'm afraid too. Besides, I barely see him at school and he just doesn't come online anymore (aka appearing offline to me) So I don't know why. He was the person I was able to vent too and now he's gone. I don't know what went wrong. Whatever it was, I'm sorry.
2) Another of my best friends, my puppy dog, Buckley, has hip dysplasia and we're eventually going to have to put him down ;~; I love him so much ~huggles puppy~
3) So I liked this guy and he actually liked me back, but he doesn't text me anymore. So I keep wondering why and that leaves me wondering what's wrong. Is it because I'm ugly; not good enough? Did he find another girl; one whose better then me (aka anybody). Ah, just another reason to make me insecure.
4) My parents are freaking jerks. I mean, I don't hate them. I just don't like them; you know what I mean? They never listen and they always pin the blame on me, not my brother. Example: My brother hit me, so I hit him back then he started cussing at me. My mother comes in and starts screaming at me. No, not yelling, screaming. I just really can't take it much more. I've considered running away, but where would I go? 3 more years till I can move out; three more years . . .
5) My friend. I've said enough about her in previous posts. It remains the exact same. Her continuous one-upping is killing me from the inside out. Ugh.
6) I always try to be there for my friends, I really do. I stayed up with my best friend till around 4 am in the morning when she was upset after being bullied and was considering suicide. She said I saved her. I love that feeling but I don't know how much longer I can do it; listen to others vents while my own, and there's pile up inside of me. They're ready to just burst out. And I feel selfish for this but I can't help it. Argh. Besides, most of my vents are about my friends so I can't tell them without making them feel bad. Especially after my friend found out about one of them..... Her reply (and I quote)~ "and now im the loneliest girl ever. Most hurt. And probably beat the world record of crying but why should i say anything anymore im just seeking at attention like the attention wh*** i am," And then later she said stupid razor so I told her not to cut. So she said, "Im not running away from anything!!! I said stupid razor i didnt say i cut god just leave me alone." Me: "Well forgive me for asking. I thought friends cared about each other." So she said, "Guess I'm not a good friend then."
Bleh. I hate my life.
Thanks for reading this vent (if you did XD) If you didn't I don't blame you ~looks up~ It's quite stupid and long. I just needed to get it all out.
|