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AlgebraAddict 12-15-2012 05:20 PM

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 377676)
i really want this song on repeat
at the same time i really dont


I know exactly what you mean. There's one stupid song that makes me cry every time I listen to it, but I listen to it again and again.

HeatherB 12-15-2012 05:57 PM

I just hate it when you state the obvious and then pretend like it's all my fault.

...I've had a shitty day. I can't think straight and I can't write and I can't even do algebra in my head, which normally calms me down.
I don't want to think. There's too much stuff to think about and too much stuff to do and I'm really tired today and I just want to listen to Christmas carols sung by my favorite gay and not do anything at all and can we just not with all the crap my parents are giving me right now because I could so do without that.

HeatherB 12-15-2012 07:12 PM

my life is such a fucking mess this year
what if the world really did end in six days?
maybe it would just make things easier

god

TheMoonWakedWolf 12-15-2012 07:16 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 377830)
I just hate it when you state the obvious and then pretend like it's all my fault.

...I've had a shitty day. I can't think straight and I can't write and I can't even do algebra in my head, which normally calms me down.
I don't want to think. There's too much stuff to think about and too much stuff to do and I'm really tired today and I just want to listen to Christmas carols sung by my favorite gay and not do anything at all and can we just not with all the crap my parents are giving me right now because I could so do without that.

Can we please have a shitty day together.
I can't remember ever feeling this way. Like the only thing to look forward to is being alone and crawling into my own skull just to get away from the world. I don't want to deal with these fuckbutts that we call society anymore.

cheezemziez 12-15-2012 07:21 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 377903)
my life is such a fucking mess this year
what if the world really did end in six days?
maybe it would just make things easier

god

I was thinking earlier how much happier people would be if we all got a fresh start. We all had the exact same material possessions, and they were no records of our lives from before. We could remember our mistakes and learn from them, but we wouldn't have to relive them, or be reminded of them.

But then there would be those bitter people who used to be rich, or thought that they were happier. And they would probably ruin it for us all.

HeatherB 12-15-2012 07:24 PM

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Originally Posted by TheMoonWakedWolf (Post 377908)
Can we please have a shitty day together.
I can't remember ever feeling this way. Like the only thing to look forward to is being alone and crawling into my own skull just to get away from the world. I don't want to deal with these fuckbutts that we call society anymore.

Yes yes we most definitely can.
I can remember feeling this way before. Now is just the more massive mental breakdown part of it. -________-

Quote:

Originally Posted by cheezemziez (Post 377911)
I was thinking earlier how much happier people would be if we all got a fresh start. We all had the exact same material possessions, and they were no records of our lives from before. We could remember our mistakes and learn from them, but we wouldn't have to relive them, or be reminded of them.

But then there would be those bitter people who used to be rich, or thought that they were happier. And they would probably ruin it for us all.

Yeah....
I just want the world to end a few days early
SO I DON'T HAVE TO FINISH THIS GODDAMN PAPER THAT IS KICKING MY ASS
HALP

HeatherB 12-15-2012 07:42 PM

oh god no
you are not going to do this
not now
not in the middle of my fucking mental breakdown
you will not make me cry
with that pathetic statement
i'm stronger than that

i think

cheezemziez 12-15-2012 07:44 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 377929)
oh god no
you are not going to do this
not now
not in the middle of my fucking mental breakdown
you will not make me cry
with that pathetic statement
i'm stronger than that

i think

Whoever it is, you're strong enough to be able to ignore them. You can do this.

HeatherB 12-15-2012 07:47 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by cheezemziez (Post 377930)
Whoever it is, you're strong enough to be able to ignore them. You can do this.

My dad's being an asshole because he thought I was done with all my homework. >_____>

i'm not going to cry over something as stupid as this
i won't
i won't
i won't
i won't cry
i won't

Lily09 12-15-2012 07:48 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 377933)
My dad's being an asshole because he thought I was done with all my homework. >_____>

i'm not going to cry over something as stupid as this
i won't
i won't
i won't
i won't cry
i won't

*hugs and hands other half of muffin that LST gave me*

HeatherB 12-15-2012 07:52 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 377934)
*hugs and hands other half of muffin that LST gave me*

*hugs back and eats happy muffin gratefully*

TheAshWolf 12-15-2012 10:14 PM

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Originally Posted by Sandy (Post 377326)
Well... I'm certainly not underestimating you, if it matters that some random on the internet says it. I expect great things from you... because I know you're going to achieve them.
I know how you feel, though, about being in a weird mood.
I searched for half an hour, trying to find a song to respond with but I ended up almost crying so I had to change it. :^I
In short, I'm a failure of everything I expect myself to be. Beyond not good enough in both terms of appearance, mind, and heart. And on top of it all, I can't stop thinking about how pointless I am, how little I am going to achieve, how futile I am. I thought it had gone away when I started high school, and for a moment, it had... the enriched and accelerated curriculum kept my brain fed for this entire term... and I can't believe it but now it's somehow no longer enough.
Ugh... me, me, me... the sad/happy part is, there is a rational part of me that is still conscious during all of this... (*facepalms*)
Ignore me. -______- I'm silly.

You're not some random person on the Internet to me...you know that. >w<

x_x Everyone expects great things from me. I don't know why, but they do.

I'm seriously sick of rolling over and letting people push my friends and family around. If this ridiculous situation doesn't get better soon, I am going to snap. e__e I'd like to say I'm okay, and that my temper's in check, but it's not. There's this one person.......dsfsbkbsdf...I've never EVER been so hungry for revenge. Never. I've always been concerned for other people's well being, even if they're my enemy. But now, all that's holding me back from physically ripping this person to shreds is my morality and the fact that I seriously do not want to end up in Juvie.

D: Don't cry... >w< You're NOT pointless. You're NOT a failure. Cass, you're amazingly intelligent, creative, and beautiful. I know you don't think you are, but that's how I see you, and I"m sure that's how many people see you. I'm sorry, but I'm not going to ignore you, hon...if you're having trouble with something, you always have me to talk to. You know that. I thought you were doing well now that you're in IB, but...ugh, I don't even know what to say anymore. >w< My brain just died on me.

Don't beat yourself up over not being perfect. No one's perfect. And if there's anything I can ever do to help you, I'm always here, Cass...

TheAshWolf 12-15-2012 10:45 PM

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Originally Posted by Sandy (Post 377409)
I feel a bit better now. :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gnk3RX-wuxs
Thank you, Emilie Autumn. :)

I'm sorry if my post upset you. >w<

XDD That song is EXACTLY why I actually like my skin problems at night time. On a goodie run at 11 P.M.? Walking around a dimly lit deserted Seven-Eleven parking lot? WHO CARES? 8D I'm too ugly for anyone to target. X'D You know, I actually PURPOSEFULLY mess up my hair, wear an ugly shirt, and don't put on coverup when I have to go out and do something at night. :3 *is fully aware I'm paranoid and kind of insane*

maxi 12-15-2012 10:57 PM

:3 Ash , can my grandma have permission to do you mosaic atrwork of Charlie from the WOT folder? :)

TheAshWolf 12-15-2012 11:05 PM

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Originally Posted by maxi (Post 378002)
:3 Ash , can my grandma have permission to do you mosaic atrwork of Charlie from the WOT folder? :)

*was calmly drinking tea and actually kind of choked a little when I read this*

O_O Who wants to do what now? Oh my gosh...I'm so flattered!!! :'D She does mosaics?! That's so neat!!! I love mosaics!!! Of course she can, I don't mind at all! :D

You mean this picture? http://www.kidpub.com/forum3/album.p...pictureid=4025 If so, here's a better quality version: http://theworldoftroodainia.weebly.c...357521.png?434

maxi 12-15-2012 11:11 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 378006)
*was calmly drinking tea and actually kind of choked a little when I read this*

O_O Who wants to do what now? Oh my gosh...I'm so flattered!!! :'D She does mosaics?! That's so neat!!! I love mosaics!!! Of course she can, I don't mind at all! :D

You mean this picture? http://www.kidpub.com/forum3/album.p...pictureid=4025

8D Yeah that picture. This is her website if you want to look, it is called Mosaic Mischief! 8'D

How is WOT going anyways?

TheAshWolf 12-15-2012 11:16 PM

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Originally Posted by maxi (Post 378008)
8D Yeah that picture. This is her website if you want to look, it is called Mosaic Mischief! 8'D

How is WOT going anyways?

Ooooh, yes, could I have a link? o.o

WOT's going really well. ^_^ I haven't written anything today, but I HAVE been working on Charlie's theme.

maxi 12-15-2012 11:22 PM

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 378009)
Ooooh, yes, could I have a link? o.o

WOT's going really well. ^_^ I haven't written anything today, but I HAVE been working on Charlie's theme.

http://www.mosaicmischief.com/

Ooh, a Charlie song! How do you like that, Charlie? What is the program called?

I revamped the FW site; can I have a sneak peek of the new chapter and beginning of Book Three?

TheAshWolf 12-15-2012 11:31 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by maxi (Post 378011)
http://www.mosaicmischief.com/

Ooh, a Charlie song! How do you like that, Charlie? What is the program called?

I revamped the FW site; can I have a sneak peek of the new chapter and beginning of Book Three?

Thanks for the link. :D Oh my gosh, tell your grandma I think she's an amazing mosaic artist. o.o I love the bird ones. She's so nice for doing a mosaic of Charlie!!! Have you told her about WOT or something?

Sure, I can give you a quick snippet of the new chapter. ^_^ But I haven't written anything of the beginning of Book Three yet, though. Sorry. :^/ But when I do, I'll post an excerpt of it. :3 Keep an eye on the Charbretta thread for that snippet of the next chapter.

Oooh, you revamped it? :D I'll definitely have to take a look!

maxi 12-16-2012 12:37 AM

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 378013)
Thanks for the link. :D Oh my gosh, tell your grandma I think she's an amazing mosaic artist. o.o I love the bird ones. She's so nice for doing a mosaic of Charlie!!! Have you told her about WOT or something?

Sure, I can give you a quick snippet of the new chapter. ^_^ But I haven't written anything of the beginning of Book Three yet, though. Sorry. :^/ But when I do, I'll post an excerpt of it. :3 Keep an eye on the Charbretta thread for that snippet of the next chapter.

Oooh, you revamped it? :D I'll definitely have to take a look!

She said to keep on checking for more updates!!!

Cool! I shall check the thread now.

Yes, check😝

LaurenM 12-16-2012 01:10 AM

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 377667)
You know how when you listen to a song, it just makes you want to cry because it reminds you of what happened?

On My Own(TDG), Drown(TDG) Wake Up(TDG), Chalk Outline(TDG), Disenchanted(MCR), I Don't Love You(MCR), Cubicles(MCR), and right now, The Light Behind Your Eyes by MCR.

I met so many people that left me/I left but the two that stick out the most are M and C.

M:
Chalk Outline by TDG
Drown by TDG
Disenchanted by MCR
I Don't Love You by MCR
Cubicles by MCR

and mostly... The Light Behind Your Eyes by MCR

I don't understand what the hell I did. Did I even do anything? Apart from trying to help you through your depression? Apart from trying to stop you from self harming? Apart from trying to keep your suicidal thoughts away? After everything that I've done, you just leave me. I thought we were actually friends, but I realize now that you just took my advice and then left me. You always used to ask for my help and when you got it, you left me. Then you came crawling back, until now. Now, you're better and here I am. I can't let go of you, because I really really really thought we were friends.
I'm sorry I wasn't good enough for you.
I'm sorry.
Still, I'm happy that you got better. I'm happy that you found others. I'm hoping you'll be completely happy when you grow up. Even if I'm not a part of it anymore, I still hope you find people that make you happy.

C:
On My Own by TDG
Wake Up by TDG
Drown by TDG
Cubicles by MCR
and most importantly... The Light Behind Your Eyes by MCR


I'm sorry. It's 85% my fault, I effing screwed it up. I'm so effing sorry. I could have been a better friend, and I was so selfish. I feel so bad that I let this friendship get away, but now that I think of it, it's probably better we aren't friends anymore.
I just really miss you.


M and C:

If I could be with you tonight…
I would sing you to sleep,
Never let them take the light behind your eyes…
One day, I’ll lose this fight…
As we fade in the dark, just remember you will always burn as
Bright
Be strong, and hold my hand.
Time becomes for us, you’ll understand.
We’ll say goodbye today,
And we’re sorry how it all ends this way…
~The Light Behind Your Eyes by My Chemical Romance

The awkward moment when you listen to I Don't Love You as you read that.
We're in the same boat. We mess friendships up.
Quote:

Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 377903)
my life is such a fucking mess this year
what if the world really did end in six days?
maybe it would just make things easier

god

I look forward to that day. I don't know why.

Quote:

Originally Posted by HeatherB (Post 377933)
My dad's being an asshole because he thought I was done with all my homework. >_____>

i'm not going to cry over something as stupid as this
i won't
i won't
i won't
i won't cry
i won't

Even in Cambodia, my dad is still urging me to study and do my homework over Facebook.

Lily09 12-16-2012 02:37 AM

yeah.
im not good enough.
i feel like this every hour of the day.

TheAshWolf 12-16-2012 02:42 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 378114)
yeah.
im not good enough.
i feel like this every hour of the day.

To you and everyone else on this thread:

http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_md...aoq4o1_400.gif

cheezemziez 12-16-2012 04:34 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 378114)
yeah.
im not good enough.
i feel like this every hour of the day.

Do you mean not good enough for yourself, or not good enough for others? Because no-one has the right to determine if anyone is good enough as a person. If it is yourself, then remember that you are awesome and epykful and amazing.

Lily09 12-16-2012 04:35 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by cheezemziez (Post 378134)
Do you mean not good enough for yourself, or not good enough for others? Because no-one has the right to determine if anyone is good enough as a person. If it is yourself, then remember that you are awesome and epykful and amazing.

Myself and others.

Lily09 12-16-2012 04:39 AM

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Originally Posted by LaurenM (Post 378070)
The awkward moment when you listen to I Don't Love You as you read that.
We're in the same boat. We mess friendships up.

Also then there's some songs that make you wanna shit rainbows because they're so effing happy but not ridiculous at the same time. The Only Hope For Me Is You.

Lily09 12-16-2012 04:44 AM

AND THEN THERE'S THOSE SONGS THAT MAKE YOU WANT TO PUNCH THINGS BUT NOT BECAUSE ITS BAD JUST BECAUSE ITS REALLY ANGSTY AND UP IN YOUR FACE.

HONEY THIS MIRROR ISNT BIG ENOUGH FOR THE TWO OF US
VAMPIRES WILL NEVER HURT YOU
OH WAIT PRETTY MUCH ALMOST EVERY BULLETS SONG EXCEPT DEMOLITION LOVERS AND MAYE SUNSETS.
i

LaurenM 12-16-2012 04:56 AM

500th page! /whoop...? NOT.
My, aren't we KidPubbians depressed/emotional?

cheezemziez 12-16-2012 05:02 AM

No, I really think that we're a very cheery bunch. I mean, look how few problems we have!

Sandy 12-16-2012 08:41 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 377977)
You're not some random person on the Internet to me...you know that. >w<

x_x Everyone expects great things from me. I don't know why, but they do.

I'm seriously sick of rolling over and letting people push my friends and family around. If this ridiculous situation doesn't get better soon, I am going to snap. e__e I'd like to say I'm okay, and that my temper's in check, but it's not. There's this one person.......dsfsbkbsdf...I've never EVER been so hungry for revenge. Never. I've always been concerned for other people's well being, even if they're my enemy. But now, all that's holding me back from physically ripping this person to shreds is my morality and the fact that I seriously do not want to end up in Juvie.

D: Don't cry... >w< You're NOT pointless. You're NOT a failure. Cass, you're amazingly intelligent, creative, and beautiful. I know you don't think you are, but that's how I see you, and I"m sure that's how many people see you. I'm sorry, but I'm not going to ignore you, hon...if you're having trouble with something, you always have me to talk to. You know that. I thought you were doing well now that you're in IB, but...ugh, I don't even know what to say anymore. >w< My brain just died on me.

Don't beat yourself up over not being perfect. No one's perfect. And if there's anything I can ever do to help you, I'm always here, Cass...

Ugh, yeah, don't worry about me. <:^j I AM doing better in IB--not perfect, of course--but much better, and I feel like I should be giving you a better inspirational thingy, like you always give me. <:^/ Just ignore me, I'm pretty miserable, with my cold/sickness/whatever, and that day I'd been trapped in my room all day doing homework, and a dash of hormones on the side doesn't help. -___- Sorry about that. But enough about me!
I don't know exactly what's going on with you but whatever it is, you can get through it. (*trying to be a good pep talker*) (Oops... I didn't mean the expectations thing in a bad way, though.. x_x) I don't know much, so all I can say is best of luck dealing with this person. :<
Thanks so much, Ash, for everything, though. <:^j (Haha, every time you respond to one of my rants I'm going to start thinking about HSPs now. XD)

AlgebraAddict 12-16-2012 12:12 PM

It snowed last night, and no one saw it but me. I went outside, into the neighborhood, where I wasn't supposed to go. I ate the snow and I sang. It was magical, and it turned into sloppy rain by morning. I was the only one to see it, at midnight. I saw it. No one else did. All those people who study snow in southern states and all those little toddlers in big clomp boots never got into my snow. My little peice of magic. A barefoot girl in sweatpants bested them all.

People can attack me and conquer me for anything they want, but some things are mine.

Ruza 12-16-2012 12:29 PM

I had to write an acrostic poem for school, so I made it as ridiculous as I could while still staying in the guidelines. *ahem*:

Mature poetry graces the page

An impeccable parakeet escapes from its cage

Little children warm up by the stove

And dolphins cry in the salty cove

Robust antelopes run from fate

Kleptomaniac kittens are used as bait

Excitable pandas sip on tea

Young wolves slowly dive into the sea

soph-soph27 12-16-2012 12:52 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Ruza (Post 378183)
I had to write an acrostic poem for school, so I made it as ridiculous as I could while still staying in the guidelines. *ahem*:

Mature poetry graces the page

An impeccable parakeet escapes from its cage

Little children warm up by the stove

And dolphins cry in the salty cove

Robust antelopes run from fate

Kleptomaniac kittens are used as bait

Excitable pandas sip on tea

Young wolves slowly dive into the sea

Favorite lines: Ones in bold.

It makes sense, since the word that you had to used to make the acrostic means meaningless chatter, or talk.

wildwolf 12-16-2012 04:02 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Ruza (Post 378183)
I had to write an acrostic poem for school, so I made it as ridiculous as I could while still staying in the guidelines. *ahem*:

Mature poetry graces the page

An impeccable parakeet escapes from its cage

Little children warm up by the stove

And dolphins cry in the salty cove

Robust antelopes run from fate

Kleptomaniac kittens are used as bait

Excitable pandas sip on tea

Young wolves slowly dive into the sea

That's pretty genius.
I really like the last two lines.

CACrools 12-16-2012 04:04 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Ruza (Post 378183)
I had to write an acrostic poem for school, so I made it as ridiculous as I could while still staying in the guidelines. *ahem*:

Mature poetry graces the page

An impeccable parakeet escapes from its cage

Little children warm up by the stove

And dolphins cry in the salty cove

Robust antelopes run from fate

Kleptomaniac kittens are used as bait

Excitable pandas sip on tea

Young wolves slowly dive into the sea

I like it. (on a completely random note, congrats for getting the 5000th post :D)

GabiDi 12-16-2012 04:20 PM

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Originally Posted by AlgebraAddict (Post 378179)
It snowed last night, and no one saw it but me. I went outside, into the neighborhood, where I wasn't supposed to go. I ate the snow and I sang. It was magical, and it turned into sloppy rain by morning. I was the only one to see it, at midnight. I saw it. No one else did. All those people who study snow in southern states and all those little toddlers in big clomp boots never got into my snow. My little peice of magic. A barefoot girl in sweatpants bested them all.

People can attack me and conquer me for anything they want, but some things are mine.

I don't know why I love this so much... maybe because I want that all the time, maybe because you perfectly described how I feel every day when I just feel so isolated... but in a good way...
asdfjkl;
Thank you AA.

Tiresomehoopla 12-16-2012 04:58 PM

I hate nosy first graders -_-

Seriously, some people need to mind their own business.

GabiDi 12-16-2012 05:06 PM

Haha, what'd they do?

maxi 12-16-2012 05:08 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Tiresomehoopla (Post 378313)
I hate nosy first graders -_-

Seriously, some people need to mind their own business.

*_* I LOVE where this is going. (*props hand under chin*) Carry on like we aren't here...

Owen-L 12-16-2012 05:11 PM

Why must I go to a school where 95% of the people there are disgusting, horrible, idiots. And by 95% I MEAN 95%. Even most of the older kids are complete morons. -_- ffs. Why?


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