I'm really weird. Should have put that in when I was saying my rant thing. Yeah I feel emotions. But right now I'm not sad. I love my writing and sometimes I do things wrong but I pick them up and make a good thing out of the bad things.

I totally understand.

(I actually only come on this thread nowadays because I just want to see if I can lend anyone some kind words that might make them feel better...I don't want to vent. I want to see if I can help heal some emotional wounds, or at least be a virtual shoulder to cry on. I just...I can't stand to see you and Tredom and everyone or anyone else anywhere upset about anything...I want to help...)

I know exactly what you mean. But, Max...it's not a crime to be emotional. Emotions are what makes us human. It defines who we are as individuals. I know it's hard, and it's tiring sometimes. And you do have the right to take a break from this thread, or quit it completely. Just...don't ever bottle up your emotions to avoid feeling them. It'll only make you sick.

Saying "I totally agree" would be an understatement.

*hugs* You do help, even just caring helps. You're a great friend. (:
and if you ever need to vent, I'm here, and so is this thread.

Ash, I know what is good for me and what is bad for me. Good—I have emotions and I use them every single day. I can be sad if there's no rain but crying is not the solution of that event. I can be mad when I don't get first place in something but it doesn't mean that I can't be happy for the person that got first place. I can be happy when I am supposed to be sad. I can use my emotions whenever I want to and however I want to. Bad—sometimes I think of people not liking themselves and that is a terrible thought and I don't want to keep on think that because it is not right.
I have seen that you have asked me, Are you okay, Max? You seem quite bad to me. You seem sad. Ash, I have been fine all along and it's not going to hold me up from doing what I have to do. I never said I was bottling up my emotions to avoid feeling them. I just said that I don't need to feel like I hate myself because I never have—I have done many stupid things which have led me to consequences to many people that I have talked about the stupid things but I am happy now. I am really really happy.

I'm not aiming to be a good friend. I just want you guys to be happy...I don't need a title, I don't need anything back. Friendship implies you're getting something in return. I just want everybody to eat and not hurt themselves and not totally hate themselves and have loving families and just...asdfg.

*hands out top hats, muffins, Doctor Who-esque bow ties, and anything else that might cheer anybody up* *wishes I had some online copies of the Questions Young People Ask--Answers That Work books to hand out also* There. Now, if anybody needs me, I'll be listening to music and reading.

This is the exact reason why we love you.

*hugs* Thank you.


and yayyy i seem to be in a good mood currently so i'm eating

I have seen that in you. You are always happy. Just every day/every time I see you online. (: Good on you.

Ahaha I find it so funny how much I blush when people compliment me.
If only you could see my face, you would crack up.
Thank you! I try. :3

Yeah but whenever you say you try, you just do (hey, that sounded wrong).
You're so happy and you're such a nice person.
HAY EMMA WANT TO CHAT ON A/N.

I WOULD BUT I HAVE TO SLEEEEEEEP
poop

;-; Meh, okay. When you are on next, I shall talk to you?

You do not simply make me angry.

You're not alone in feeling like that, but just know that they have no reason to laugh at you. You maybe think they do, but they don't, and you don't deserve to feel that way.

Max, bro, if this is about asking how everyone's doing, I'm sorry. I was just checking up to make sure if everyone was okay 'cause I hadn't been on in a while. I really am sorry, Max, I didn't mean to offend you. :'c

Offend me?

HAHA HOW DO YOU EXPECT ME TO CONFIDE IN YOU. Just because you're my parent? Nope, blood is not that much thicker than water.
Whenever I try to vent to you, like moaning about my math teacher in the car today, you criticise every bit of it until I felt worse than I did before.
My math teacher is completely unreasonable. My math answer was exactly like my friend's except for a+b instead of b+a. And yet she marked me as wrong when she marked my friend as correct.
To make matters worse, I've lost my Home E apron. And I have Home E tomorrow.

How is it that I manage to fuck everything up?

Paper rubbing on paper, people scratching paper, certain materials some coats are made of (really dry horrible ones)...

Yes, they're there to help, but they have a warped understanding of it. Her telling you to be nice to people, is a misunderstanding on her part. I, for example, try to be nice, but by jumping into conversations and trying too hard sometimes, become slightly lonely. And I only try with people I like.

Some counsellors are only familiar with stronger examples of Asperger's, such as the ones who can't make any eye contact and obsess over things so strongly. It's different, for females anyway, and less spotted because it blends in more, and often just looks like shyness, or bitchiness.

As you can guess, I've read books on this. Aspergirls was quite a good one actually.

shit .

What's up ?

I wish I could help… D:
You don't. *hugs* What happened?

Don't worry. You've helped enough.

Just- people aren't being the normal kind of idiot. Everything that happens now happens because of something I did. I've been writing some morbid stories lately, and everything sort of smashed down this afternoon. I was empty for the rest of the day.

Nope. That is it. Wait a few days, Owen, and you will have a surprise. I do not want you to be this way.

neither do i. but life is a piece of crap and i guess it wants me this way.

Forget this way
Remember the other way
Try to be that guy who was always happy i dont know how this happened owen but it will be over soon

i can't be happy if my life is a mess.
it best be over soon, or i dunno what's gonna happen!

Haha yeah to the second thing
Ill see you after my school day bye

i won't be here when you get back, so... :/

Yup. <_< I think that's everyone. You're definitely not alone.

I hate how people think that the emotional disorder I apparently, supposedly have means that I'm insane. Fuck stereotypes. Also I don't really appreciate it how T and A keep shouting around about how I'm insane.

I've realised that quite a lot of successful people were bullied as kids. That's what drove them to achieve their dreams.
So rise above this and fight. Don't let them succeed in getting you down. One day, you'll be the one laughing your ass off at them.

I am relatively happy today.

I think.

Feelings on me: I am a hell of a lot more talented and smart than a lot of the people that I know and I can be as awesome as I want without them interfering and I also love the sports I play and the music I make and I am a fucking genius whatever they say.

Feelings on the world: YOU EFFING SUCK.

*hugs*
You can get through it, too. I'm really really close to completely falling apart, but wanting to see you and others happy, someday—and helping you get there—is one of the reasons why i bother living.
You're not powerless. And you can do things—you help people. you're a great person, not a bitch. *hugs*

I just wish I had someone to share this with. All of it. I want to go to sit in my room with my best friend and listen to my favorite album. I want to watch my favorite TV show with my best friend and theorize about the story. I want to find out that my best friend has gone through depression, too, and we help each other out. I want to be able to talk about my fears, worries, thoughts, beliefs, without being called strange. I'm tired of being a pariah. I've been trying so hard to get used to being alone, and not let what people think bother me, and just be apathetic to the people around me...but I can't seem to manage it. All I want is to make a difference in people one day, be it changing their entire outlook, or just giving them a shoulder to cry on with words, but I can't see any probable way that I can do that, and that's what sends me into a spiral; that I never was or will ever be remarkable, just like the majority of people in this world. People like me are just placed as ordinaries so that the heroes, artists, musicians, writers, philanthropists, and geniuses have something to be more unique than. I won't be anything more.

Just think about it. Have any adults in your daily life ever made a drastic difference in you? The ordinary adults, not your favorite writers and musicians and actors. Has your fourth grade teacher, who seemed very caring and intelligent, made a complete change in you and your thoughts? Did they pull you from the windowsill, ease the blades out of your hands? Your parents? They may have given you a foundation for your life, and whatever it is that they do will affect your adult life in some way, negative or positive, but did they ever keep your mind away from the blackness that closes in when you start to think when you're alone? No. For kids like us, it was the songwriters who brought themselves out of their ruts, the musicians who had gone through the same s*** as us, the artists who had a nice childhood and still had all the wisdom of someone who had experienced turmoil. And those are the lucky ones. The handful of people who make it out there in the real world were only in the right place in the right time. We're just going to be lost along the way and made mothers and fathers of more ordinaries who fill in the empty spaces around the kids who are going to make it out of their hometowns and look back at their high school yearbooks to find that ordinary kid, your son or daughter who is just something to glance at for a second, a cloud passing by that barely means anything and isn't noticed by many. And the cycle repeats.