| MaryElizabeth |
05-04-2013 10:12 PM |
My mom and my sister agree that why we're so irritated with my dad is because we're teenage girls. My mom said, "No, I went through the same thing"
I'm tired of my dad's bullshit because he makes me feel like a freak, because he only pities me when I break down, because he rolled his eyes when tears ran down my face because my brother was going through the same things that eventually led to self-harm, self-hatred, and suicidal thoughts. I get agitated easily because I already have my own problems inside my head that I need to ignore just to function. I cut because I have mental issues, not because of PMS or some hormonal shit. Bur I'm too ashamed to show my worst scars--your suspicions come from some of my earliest cuts that are fading scars.Is that normal for teenage girls? If so, that's great to hear, but instead of telling me that, you make me feel like a freak, a psycho, a mistake, a blemish: basically, you throw my own fears and insecurities back at me and then tell me that I'm just in a phase.
And the most disappointing thing is that I can't cut because last time I told myself that I wouldn't do it again, and now I'd have to walk in front of my family to grab a knife.
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