but I guess you're trying to get to where you want to go after high school, so that you can then do what you want in your life...? don't really understand this but.

yeah the education system is fucked up, exams aren't even a great measure of intelligence and capability anyway, and a lot of people don't even get to do what they want in life bc /it doesnt make enough money/ so there IS no point, but oh well capitalism screws everyone over so

also youre welcome B)

yeah so true lol

ah fuck this is what happened to me in history

i'm just so nervous and awful and wired and everything is so staticky and loud in my brain and i don't know how to handle it

I feel you, girl.
Taking a bath might help. Listening to music probably won't help, but if you place it very far away and just listen to some soft melodies it might help you relax.
Pajamas are always relevant to everything, too. ;)

I don't even know anymore. I don't know what any of this is. I had a crush on a girl, once, but it was more emotional and "I want to hold your hand" then any crush I've ever had on a boy. Those crushes were all flirting, butterflies in my stomach. But that other one was deeper, more meaningful. But I've had countless crushes on boys, and only that one deep crush on a girl. At this point I don't know what to do anymore.

As a sidenote, that seems to be the only acceptable answer to "who do you like?"

ah ahh I actually just did all of that and it made me feel a little better (: thank you, kind soul

I am not going to cut today.

i don't think i've said that to myself in a long time. but it's true c: