I'm so happy for you girl. c:
I literally grinned when I saw these words.

well i don't know if this will help you, but what helps me think is to turn on some soft music (i like depressing, sad music but maybe thats just my black soul :P) and take out a journal and a pen and make a list of every single thing that is stressing you out- small and big. then cross out the ones that you can let go- little petty things that you really don't need to worry about. then cross out the ones that you have no control over. then cross out the ones that you work hard on (when you feel good about it). then you will be left with those big stresses, and if you like to journal write about them until the ink in your pen runs out. or just until your thoughts run out. if you narrow it down to those main things and just let it all out, you will feel a lot better, i hope. :) hope this helps dear.

yay mom is annoyed with my talking to imaginary people i mean it's totally legit for her to be feeling this and her house but still....? ah well gonna shut up now i gotta learn silence sometime

Pretty much everyone and everything currently

Me: "Oh hello how nice let's have some fun and a nice conversation and maybe some cookies t-"
World: *spears me in the stomach*

My friends are just dropping off like flies and ditching me and I have zero cheer currently and I still haven't got the slightest idea what I really want for Christmas. It feels like a crappy weekend in September, not the holidays.

owari no seraph and k project are ruining my life right now


(a good thing. since i actually have the time to think about something other than schoolwork.)

I'm tired of all my friends being 'busy' and not wanting to see me, you know~?
I'm tired of people, hahaha.
Also, with people I care about, for real, I feel really possessive. Like "Um excuse you. Back the fuck up. My friend. Mine. M i n e." Lol.
But mostly I'm like, "yeah we're friends", but they're disloyal, so I don't like them, so they're not my friends.
And sometimes they lie-- "I think we're friends." Oh, honey, you don't have to lie~ Because you don't care about me enough, so you're not my friend, and I'm me, so I can't be your friend, not by a meaningful definition, haha.


On the bright side, still dead because of owari no seraph and k project.

i relate so hard with the possessiveness it's so real like who knows when ill be replaced?? I MUST BE FIRST PRIORITY FOR ALL MY FRIENDS
but yeah friendships can be screwy and it's easy to get tired of people but just know that there are decent friends out there and you will find them c:
also anime ftw i should continue those it's been a while

GUYS THIS IS REALLY FUCKING IMPORTANT PLEASE READ IF YOU KNOW ANYBODY OR ANYBODY WITH DEPRESSION AND YOU WANT TO KNOW HOW TO HELP

http://www.kidpub.com/book-page-or-c...ion-1857156467

i just felt a compelling need to say this.

u are fantastic af
like
all of u
bc u know what
u survived 2015
and that's saying a whole. fcking lot

like if u had asked me in 2013 if i thought i would live to where i am now, i would have told u that i was a dead girl walking and there was no fcking chance, but hey! guess what bitches. I made it. I MADE IT and u did too you badass little fucker like WHAT.

the world is going to tell you that you're fat and ugly and everything's your fault. i swear to God the world is trying to kill us but hey guess what WE MADE IT ONE MORE YEAR BECAUSE WE ARE JUST THAT FUCKING RADICAL.

you are awesome. okay you light up my universe and a lot of other peoples universes and you made this year a blast for a hella lot of people. everything you do that is embarrassing- that's just how you grow. every time you fucked it all up and you were like man I want to go die in a hole and YOU DIDN'T that was just slapping this fucked up world in the face. it deserves a slap to be honest and GUESS WHAT YOU GAVE IT ONE.

can i say this enough? u make the world a happier place. there's someone out there who is super shy who has a hopeless crush on u, and someone out there who's face lights up whenever they see u. YOU ARE SOMEBODY'S SUNSHINE AND DON'T EVER FUCKING FORGET IT. all of your tummy rolls and stretch marks and self-harm scars, they're fucking awesome and they make you who you are.

maybe you're not healing. maybe you're still suck in the same fucked up universe you came into this year in.

BUT YOU LIVED DAMMIT. YOU MADE IT THROUGH. and guess what? that's fucking awesome.

I really needed this, thank you.

MAKE THIS YEAR YOUR BITCH GUYS <3333