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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 401093)

Well, yes, it's talks about a beautiful place that's just out of reach...you know it's there, and you know it's perfect, but you'll never get to go there because it's all just a dream.... o_o

...I'm too analytical for my own good, aren't I? XD XD DX DX

That's what I meant, I just thought the meaning was obvious.

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 401093)

Very depressing. I shed a tear. :(
:)
Yay.

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 399598)

;-; noooooo

What's wrong? :c

yeeeaaaah I'm crying in my room too

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Originally Posted by TheAshWolf (Post 400995)

Music can bring out feelings and memories that we've buried so deep that we've forgotten about them. And music can make us realize emotions you never knew you had. Music can make it easier to cry about something, easier to laugh about something else, or can make you angry. Don't feel bad about this--it happens to all of us. <:^J Music is a powerful thing.

Meh. Yeah.

I thought I could, like, remain calm while listening to it, but... no.

This sixth grader at church was being really rude to me today and we were talking about what we couldn't live without and she said music. So I said, "Yes, what would I do without my Highschool Musical songs?" XDDD

Anyways, my friend taught me how to do a backroll, so I can check that off of my Dance Team requirements list. So far I have my pirouette, front roll, backroll, C jump, and toe touch. I'm learning how to do my headstand, which is a lot harder than it looks. I also need to learn my cartwheel and handstand. Tryouts are in March, and I am legitimately freaking out. No one understands how important it is to make this team. All my life I automatically made it onto the team because I haven't played anything except soccer (they let anyone in). This is the first time since sixth grade I actually have to TRYOUT and there's a possibility I won't make it. I'm keeping my fingers crossed and stretching and practicing what I know every day. :D

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 401221)

I hate it when people think that cutting is a phase, and it's just something that people do because of peer pressure. But seriously... what if there IS something going on? What if its not a phase, and we actually need more help than anyone knows...

my mum went to see a fucking shrink today

you don't need it mum

I do

I hate it when people say, "just don't do it."
Like
have they ever done it
It's not that f*cking easy.

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 401223)

yeah it's like are you fuckin kidding me its addictive, have YOU ever self harmed do YOU know what it's like

do you even know why

ugh I think I'm gonna tell them that will make me feel better

doesn't mean I will stop though

May I rant a bit?
My parents found out and they were like, "oh you have nothing to hurt yourself over"

are you shitting me
"You're going to be worthless when you grow up."
"You can't do anything right!"
"That's why no one wants to be your friend, lily! Because you're awful and it's your fault "
"All you ever do is cause problems! You never do anything good!"

Are you fucking kidding me?

I feel WORTHLESS every single day. I hate myself every day. I want to die almost everyday. I see my life as worthless, and you, dad, you, make it worse.

I'm sorry I'm not who you expected me to be.

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 401208)

This would be better suited to the cutting thread but I honestly can't be bothered

so I cut again, like 15 times (ouchhhh) on my thigh and its like a fucking jigsaw of blood and red marks I mean it stings like fuck (excuse my language please). and all I wanna do is cut more and I out on skinny jeans so I can't cut my thigh without going through hell and high water to get to my thigh o_e

but two things frighten me the most: I have to go swimming with my friends tomorrow and that I'm gonna cut tomorrow so it'll look even worse, and both of her parents are psychologists I think so fuck me

but I want them to notice so I can get more people to help me and the otherhakf of me wants to bottle up my emotions until finally I burst and... you know... *cough*

and the the non existing but it does exist part of me is that I want to show them which I might do and then I can tell them everything which I won't soooo fuck it, right

so I'm gonna go with if they notice they notice and ask and if they don't they don't and I go home and cry

yup

You cut fifteen times? O_O
I'm sorry, Pluzzle, I'm terrible at advice and I'm not sure what to say.
All I can say now is that I'm not thinking you a total creep because some people might when that happens to them.
I don't know, I've cut for a few times but have never passed the bleeding point. I mostly focus on the pain.

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Originally Posted by Lily09 (Post 401226)

Yup, they are shitting you ._.
They're freaking oblivious :rolleyes: In their frustration about how we don't meet their expectations, they usually say stuff like that but they don't think about how we feel either. My parents can be really critical, saying 'you're a piece of shit, you can't even do homework properly!' but not using an expletive, because a piece of poop sounds weird. I wonder what might've happened if my ego wasn't so humongous.
There's seriously no point in telling you not to hate yourself, because like that cutting thing, you can't just say 'don't hate yourself' and it won't go: presto! you're feeling optimistic and love yourself once more.

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 401208)

You could try one of those swimsuits with a ruffly skirt attachment, I guess. :/ Just try to stay in the water, if you can.

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Originally Posted by pluzzle (Post 401208)

If you really don't want them to see, you could use a massive plaster to cover it up, and say that you grazed it or something. I don't really know about this stuff.

But maybe you should let them see it. They might actually be able to help.

I have controlled assessments tomorrow and I didn't know! They count for 10% of my exam result, which is bad because I know nothing about the interview!